I stumbled...

“I stumbled”


I had a dream and they told me it was sent by God.
And I was surprised that the Lord of All Creation should turn His eyes on me.
I was honoured.

I was then told that I should do all I can to look for God in my life and fullfill His will.
I complied, happy to see my soul singing in joy, so eager it was.

I strove to do all it took to be closer to God.
I asked Him to show me which way I should go and gladly followed His lead.
Every little step I took in the right direction brought me peace and joy.
A luxury it was.
And then I started to crave for more and more,
eager to take next steps on the path leading to God.
Only it was gone.

It was gone from before my eyes, and I felt so lost!
I looked around, but couldn’t see it.
I asked for it to be revealed, but it was not.
I took a few steps on my own, but for every step that I had taken in the right direction with God’s lead,
now I took five for each.
And all wrong.

Where does that lead me?
Where it is that I am now?

I look around and I can’t see anything but darkness.
I pray but I can feel my voice being stifled by invisible walls.
What hope I once had is now nearly gone,
Consumed by darkness that are eating up my soul.

And yet, I still ask, where is my God?



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