I need to sow,then others can reap

It sounds like you've experienced a lot of things except for the sacraments, which is to say, you're missing out drastically. You need the medicine of immortality- the Eucharist- the Body and Blood of Christ. Come and see.

YouTube - The Orthodox Church - A visual journey

http://www.oca.org/OCorthfaith.asp?SID=2

double post

Don't worry if you feel overwhelmed with questions. This is normal. The best thing to do is to concentrate on the basics first. Take a deep breath, and slowly work your way up to the more difficult questions. What God wants from you now is faith, and sometimes that means we don't have all the answers right away.

Something must be up... mine double posted too...

Dear kenrose. In Matthew, chapter 22, verses 35-40, Jesus tells a Lawyer: " the first and great Commandment is: love thy God with all thy heart, with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. The second is: love thy neighbour as thyself." Then Jesus goes on saying: " on these two Commandments hang all the Law and the Prophets." To love is what God wants, love selflessly and beneficially. You could concentrate now on loving all you know and all you meet, and treat them as you would like to be treated yourself. God will see your efforts and approve and bless you, and you will find that people will treat you the same, and Jesus will give you His Love and Joy to share, too. And the Holy Spirit will empower you with love, and before long, there will be love wherever you go. Love is a Christian`s weapon, and love will grow and grow. We are told to Repent, to change our selfish and unloving characters into Loving God with all our beings, and loving each other as we love ourselves. Let our love be patient and kind, always ready to forgive as God has forgiven us, and to give a helping hand (where needed) rather than look the other way. Sow love, Ken and you will reap a harvest of Joy and Faith. People can see the Love of God in action. I say this humbly and with love. Greetings from Emmy, your sister in Christ.

In my humble opinion you are not
"quitting on church,by leaving"

You may feel like you are abandoning your christian brothers but I do not think this is the case! Just because you are looking for new-christians to be a part of your life does not mean that you cannot remain friends with your old church members!
hope my post helped!

-- Snapplex

Don't worry too much abut churchs, just find one with a fellowship you like and maybe examine their views.

The Body of Christ is ONE: whether a poor person with only a Bible, or many churchs with a variety of worship to offer. Fellowship helps though...

"ALL shall worship him, whose names are not written in the book of life."

This implies everyone, the whole world. Will the whole world go Christian? Will therefore only a remnant be saved?

Let it mean everything to you, and dive into your Bible... Be very untrusting onto this world and its ways...