I need some help in this....

[restore]

i was from christian family, and most of them r all christians except me in early years, and i had this mental trouble kept coming to disturb me, even now i m still doubting God and bible , this doubting circle will just come again and again in a circle, then i will become on fire for God, then this doubting will come again, and then go...........i think i m maybe actually an agnostic, i feel everything is unbelievable, i m even not sure myself is real or not. even me is a fatansy.

i v never felt i living in a real world, from v little i started to live in fantasy, i built up a world for myself , but it is unreal but i believed it when i was younger and so it kept me alive. but i now desire to live in real world, people tell me the bible is real world and so forth.

a miniter who was molested as a child told me once, that for any abused person , it is hard to trust anyone including God. Is that really so...I m not sure what is the real issue and how to make my faith and mental stable.

 

[Ketsagirl]

Yes I know how you feel and it is hard to trust people and even God. I have come to realize that we cant always trust our feelings. God is either real or not and how we feel cannot change that. As humans it is hard to comprehend who God is. Choosing God is a choice. Following God is a choice. Even when we "feel" he may not be real, we can choose to follow him. The devil can give us feelings of doubt. I believe the devil loves to use feelings to make us go crazy. Good and bad. I have obsessive compulsive disorder and sometimes my life is overtaken with doubts and feelings but I have to cling on to truth. We see an awesome, created world around us and that is Truth. We have a Bible that contains Truth. When lies come into your head go to the Word for Truth. The Christian walk is a hard one and one way of staying on track is reading the Bible daily and praying, even when we dont feel like it. I dont have all the answers and I have felt like you do. I also doubt and wonder "How can I know", "What if..". Pray that God will help you answer this for you. It may be a long journey, but he will show you if you ask.