I need so much help..

[DarkLegend28]

It's hard for me to get everything together and open up to complete strangers but I have done it many times before. Right now I'm struggling with getting deliverance from demons that have tormented my life for as long as I remember.... and also I am trying to get out of a relationship online with a boy that threatens to commit suicide if I leave him.. And he isnt very considerate towards me even though he tells me that he really loves me. he acts like his life is horrible but its really not. This is not even the beginning of it all... my mother just recently died and i had to move across the country and leave my country home, school, and friends behind because I wanted to get away from the demons and away from my abusive stepfather. but i end up loathing the city and the rest of my family because they treat me like crap. So I have been really stressed out.. and its put pressure on me so much that I dont want to be in a relationship right now, so I tried to break up with my boyfriend... but he made a threat... so I stayed with him.. and its tearing me apart because I had a boyfriend commit suicide before because of me... I just dont know what to do and I need advice if there is any... and prayers..

 

[madison1101]

My encouragement to you would be to find a church that has a youth ministry and get involved in it. Hopefully, like my church, they would have Bible studies for the teens and youth fellowship activities.

As for the boy online, if you know where he lives, contact his family and tell them of his suicidal threats. Then drop him. You are not responsible for his behavior. He is holding you hostage and controlling you through the threats of suicide. That is not right for you to have this hanging over you.

It doesn't sound like you are possessed by demons, you are just under attack. Immerse yourself in the Word, and find fellowship at a church.

I am sorry your mother recently died. That is a difficult thing for any young woman to experience. Just know that the Lord is with you and will never leave you nor forsake you.

Hugs,
Trish

 

[DarkLegend28]

I suppose though some of this doesnt feel right..

 

[Kawliga]

Praying for you.

 

[Dimitree]

You who have the love of God in you !
You are not to hide it from anyone !
You are given it to show it to everyone !
You are Given it to have strengh and fight with the one that reball against God !
So take your heand and rise it !
Take your fiest and flex it !
For none is greater then God !
None can stand against Him !
Cast that fear away from you and believ !
For when it is all over !
We will have peace and live with God in eternal life !
Amen !

 

[Akathist]

It's hard for me to get everything together and open up to complete strangers but I have done it many times before. Right now I'm struggling with getting deliverance from demons that have tormented my life for as long as I remember.... and also I am trying to get out of a relationship online with a boy that threatens to commit suicide if I leave him.. And he isnt very considerate towards me even though he tells me that he really loves me. he acts like his life is horrible but its really not. This is not even the beginning of it all... my mother just recently died and i had to move across the country and leave my country home, school, and friends behind because I wanted to get away from the demons and away from my abusive stepfather. but i end up loathing the city and the rest of my family because they treat me like crap. So I have been really stressed out.. and its put pressure on me so much that I dont want to be in a relationship right now, so I tried to break up with my boyfriend... but he made a threat... so I stayed with him.. and its tearing me apart because I had a boyfriend commit suicide before because of me... I just dont know what to do and I need advice if there is any... and prayers..

I color coded your response.

I see you talking about three different issues.

1. (blue) your boyfriend on line is threatening to kill himself if you leave him and you believe that you had a boyfriend before that did the same thing.

2. (brown) You believe that you are being tormented by demons.

3. (green) your mother died and you have been uprooted from your home and friends and this has been very stressful for you.

About #1. No one. and I really really mean this: NO ONE kills themselves because of someone else. Suicide is ALWAYS an act of selfishness. You are NOT even alittle bit responsible for someone else making that choice.

I strongly encourage you to try to let your online boyfriend;s family know about his threats like madison encouraged. That is a way for them to help him get some professional help for his depression. It is the kindest thing for you to do.

Your breaking up with him regardless of his manipulations is the kindest thing you can do for yourself. In fact, given the stress you are under, it seems like your going for a bit without a boyfriend makes a lot of sense.

About #2. I don't know if you are being tormented by demons or if there are other explanations, but I do think that this is a sign that you need to be consulting with someone in your life, not just over the internet. This means either talking to a minister or Priest or to a professional therapist. There are Christian therapist that are licensed by their State and that could be a good thing also for #3.

Madison's suggestion about finding a local church is also a very very good idea. Staying connected to a church community is extremely important. It is not enough to just read the bible and pray. We need to gather corporally and worship and pray together. Further, we need to fellowship with other Christians and allow them to get to know us and help us as we also help them.

 

[LouTheWicked]

Being atheist I highly doubt you've got demons tormenting you. You're probably just under a ton of stress and it's making you see/hear/feel things that aren't there because you're so tense. Having bad dreams frequently? You're under stress.

I've had tons of awful, disturbing dreams when I've been experiencing a lot of stress, with the loss of my father and my mum's moods now and then I can sort of relate to you a bit, I think.

 

[Johnnz]

I wouldn't focus on demons. That will not be very helpful for you at present. What you do need is loving acceptance from some older people who will spend time with you listening, talking, explaining and accepting you.

John
NZ

 

[DarkLegend28]

Being atheist I highly doubt you've got demons tormenting you. You're probably just under a ton of stress and it's making you see/hear/feel things that aren't there because you're so tense. Having bad dreams frequently? You're under stress.

I've had tons of awful, disturbing dreams when I've been experiencing a lot of stress, with the loss of my father and my mum's moods now and then I can sort of relate to you a bit, I think.

Rather the least of my problems -_-

 

[Shubunkin]

I have to say that no one can be blamed for a suicide, only the person doing it to themselves. That is a manipulative threat. Yes, someone in the family should be informed, and let them handle it.

 

[Onlythingavailable]

I agree with the previous posters, the best thing you can do is inform his parents, preferably his mother. You won't be betraying him, you'll actually be helping him. Helping someone who is suicidal requires you to be physically present in my opinion, and the parents are the only ones who can really keep an eye on him.

I have to admit this sounds awfully manipulative of him. You've probably told him about your old boyfriend and now he's using that. That's very cold and something I wouldn't expect from someone of your age. Do you know him well, that he really is who he says he is? Sorry if I'm wrong, it just seems so cold and manipulative. Contacting his parents really is the best solution, if he's serious he'll get help, if he's not he'll certainly learn not to threaten with suicide again as he explains it to his parents. But whatever you do, remember to pray to God for guidance, only he knows what's really best.

I hope your family is just adjusting to the situation, or that they will wake up and show you some respect. I've always lived in a city, but as far as I know the transition when moving from the countryside can be hard. There's less time for each other in cities, so some of what you're experiencing might be because of that. Maybe there's someone on these forums with personal experience who could share it with you.

Remember to rely on God and pray to Him, not only through these hard times, but always. Praying for you.

 

[throughamirrordarkly]

It's hard for me to get everything together and open up to complete strangers but I have done it many times before. Right now I'm struggling with getting deliverance from demons that have tormented my life for as long as I remember.... and also I am trying to get out of a relationship online with a boy that threatens to commit suicide if I leave him.. And he isnt very considerate towards me even though he tells me that he really loves me. he acts like his life is horrible but its really not. This is not even the beginning of it all... my mother just recently died and i had to move across the country and leave my country home, school, and friends behind because I wanted to get away from the demons and away from my abusive stepfather. but i end up loathing the city and the rest of my family because they treat me like crap. So I have been really stressed out.. and its put pressure on me so much that I dont want to be in a relationship right now, so I tried to break up with my boyfriend... but he made a threat... so I stayed with him.. and its tearing me apart because I had a boyfriend commit suicide before because of me... I just dont know what to do and I need advice if there is any... and prayers..

I believe you (I can relate). You are a hero to me. Here's a poem for you I wrote with the help of alot of famous quotes (I've written better original poetry):

Words of this world, arriving on time's distant shore from long ago...


There is one thing that gives radiance to everything.
It is the idea of something around the corner.

Do not fear to hope.
Each time we smell the Autumn's dying scent
We know that primrose time will come again.

Hold your head up high,
Stick your chest out.
You can make it.
It gets dark sometimes,
But morning comes.
Keep hope alive.


We must accept finite disappointments,
But we must never lose infinite hope.

To endure is greater than to dare;
To tire out hostile fortune;
To be daunted by no difficulty;
To keep heart when all have lost it -
Who can say this is not greatness?


Each person has inside a basic decency and goodness.
If that person listens to it and acts on it,
They are giving a great deal of what the world needs most.
It is not complicated, but it takes courage.
It takes courage for a person to listen to their own goodness...
And act on it.


You have shown that courage.

It is only with the heart that one can see properly.
What is essential is invisible to the eye.


In spite of illness,
In spite even of the archenemy sorrow,
One's spirit can remain alive
Long past the usual date of disintegration...
If one is unafraid of change,
Insatiable in intellectual curiosity,
Interested in big things,
And happy in small ways.


Success is to be measured...
Not so much by the position you have reached in life,
As by the obstacles you have overcome while trying to succeed.


Expect trouble as an inevitable part of life,
And when it comes,
Hold your head up high,
Look it squarely in the eye and say,
"I will be bigger than you. You cannot defeat me."
Then repeat to yourself the most comforting words of all,
"This too will pass."


Even in the worst situation there is a way out,
A hidden secret that can turn failure into success
And despair into happiness.
No situation is so dark that there is not a ray of light.


The perfume of sandalwood,
The scent of the bay leaf and jasmine,
Travel only as far as the wind.
But the fragrance of goodness travels with us through all the worlds.

Like garlands woven from flowers,
Your life is a garland of beautiful deeds.

You are deserving of what joys there are to come.
Hidden within you is a magical secret so deep,
It soothes the ocean's energy,
Brings life to the changing seasons,
And showers infinite droplets of colour
Into dreams, galaxies and rainbows.

You are a rainbow.
You are a never-ending story.
You are an eternal entity.



And you are ________.


If you wish to contact me please pm me for my email address or see my profile (as you might not be able to pm me). I am only going to be at this forum briefly (just want to pm an admin).

tc

 

[throughamirrordarkly]

I know the consequences of putting addys and non-copyrighted stuff, I don't mind if anyone steals it.

 

[throughamirrordarkly]

I'm really sorry, that was boasting, I apologise.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

It's hard for me to get everything together and open up to complete strangers but I have done it many times before. Right now I'm struggling with getting deliverance from demons that have tormented my life for as long as I remember.... and also I am trying to get out of a relationship online with a boy that threatens to commit suicide if I leave him.. And he isnt very considerate towards me even though he tells me that he really loves me. he acts like his life is horrible but its really not. This is not even the beginning of it all... my mother just recently died and i had to move across the country and leave my country home, school, and friends behind because I wanted to get away from the demons and away from my abusive stepfather. but i end up loathing the city and the rest of my family because they treat me like crap. So I have been really stressed out.. and its put pressure on me so much that I dont want to be in a relationship right now, so I tried to break up with my boyfriend... but he made a threat... so I stayed with him.. and its tearing me apart because I had a boyfriend commit suicide before because of me... I just dont know what to do and I need advice if there is any... and prayers..

You cannot make anyone kill themselves.
You are not responsible for that kind of dysfunction.
It indicates the degree of their sickness.
There is absolutely no excuse for that kind of manipulation. it is absolute selfishness.

 

[mom_one]

praying for you

 

[covenantwmn]

Find a church


My encouragement to you would be to find a church that has a youth ministry and get involved in it. Hopefully, like my church, they would have Bible studies for the teens and youth fellowship activities.

As for the boy online, if you know where he lives, contact his family and tell them of his suicidal threats. Then drop him. You are not responsible for his behavior. He is holding you hostage and controlling you through the threats of suicide. That is not right for you to have this hanging over you.

It doesn't sound like you are possessed by demons, you are just under attack. Immerse yourself in the Word, and find fellowship at a church.

I am sorry your mother recently died. That is a difficult thing for any young woman to experience. Just know that the Lord is with you and will never leave you nor forsake you.

Hugs,
Trish

Excellent advice.