I need help b4 its too late

[Want2Kno]

I just can't take it anymore, first of all i'm poor and we don't have any money, so its really hard to talk to people in school about things, my mom doesnt trust me even though she knows that I dont drink or smoke, and never will, she tells me that i'm a waste of money and just an obligation to her, she told me last week that she wants me dead, and b4 i was born that she wanted to get an abortion, but in her words......" I should have killed oyu when I had the chance!!", She's been yelling at me to get a job, and I finally get one and then she starts to yell at me again saying that I'm still a bum and that im worthless, its not my fault that I start work next weekend, but to her it is, my step dad is a prick to me and he tells me that if i don't get a job now that i'll be a failure all my life even though i've been setting my self up to go to college. He tells me that I'll amount to nothing with out their help and I cussed him out today along with my mother, because my mom gave me money to buy new shoes,( mine are 2 yrs old), but instead i kept it to buy my spanish booklet that i need for a grade, and I also paid the money for my gym class, but when i told her this she just blew up on me and I explained to her that those things are way mroe important that any pair of shoes, but she wasnt having any of it and proceeded to remind me of how little i am worth, and then my step-dad and my mother accuse me of blowing the money on other things, when the reality is there was nothign else, I can't keep on going like this, my real dad is in NC taking care of his other family and i ask him for a little help and it never comes............so the reason for this letter is to explain why I don't want to live anymore, i just believe that if i'm not around then thats just less money that has to be spent by my mom and then thats less stress for her and her fiance, I seriously want to die.....if you can give me a convincing reason to not take my own life then let me here it, and I'm not afraid of goign to hell, I dont even believe in it or God or any of that, I stopped believing in those things when i was 6, which is when I was able to understand all these things my mother was saying to me.......so I'm off for now and i'll come back in a little bit to see if anyoen has anythign to say worth hearing......until then

 

[Wildwood]

I think you just want the pain to stop.

It isn't right how your parents are treating you.

If you were to die, you would never experience the good things in life, such as college and a world outside of your unhappy home.

You are so close to the finish now, when you can leave and go to college. Don't give up.

Prove to your parents that they are wrong and that you can indeed amount to something without their help.

You are not worthless. Whether you believe or not, God does love you and care about you. And so do I. There is so much good in life that God wants you to have. You are young, and you haven't said that you have any health problems. You are blessed with the potential to make a wonderful life.

Please don't give up. The pain and grief you feel will pass. Give God a chance. Death isn't the only way to end the pain and grief.

My heart goes out to you. You'll be in my prayers.

 

[HumbleBee]

Want2Kno

Despite how utterly unreasonable your parents been...grievously mistreating you, the fact that you are alive is a tremendous blessing, showing just how much God loves you and has wonderful plans for you! God Most High has deemed you significant! He has preserved your very life thus far, so don't go helping the enemy who again trying to snuff you out prematurely! God is love! Your parents not speaking in love to you...don't believe the lies they spout! Think of how Jesus was unjustly treated. He did right, lived wisely, and loved people...impacted multitudes for good, yet they persecuted Him too!

Sounds like you got a fiesty spirit! Your life will be a shining example to others of how to overcome adversity! Been said that when the battle toughest, victories are nearest! You have a Divine Calling on your life, hence the spiritual warfare that you experiencing! Keep fighting the good fight of faith!

Cry out to Jesus! He will give you peace and love that surpasses all understanding, plus such strength of joy and much hope!

Jeremiah 29:11-14 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon Me and come and pray to Me, and I will listen to you. You will seek Me and find Me when you seek Me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD...

John 10:10 Jesus exhorts...I have come that [YOU] may have life, and have it to the full.

 

[Scholar in training]

Hey, Want2Kno,

You mentioned that your mom said some very insulting things towards you. I think that she's out of line. But I also think it has to do with her own insecurities or pain; it has nothing to do with anything that you've done wrong. With that in mind, I certainly don't believe that your parents would be better off without you.

You did the right thing by spending your money on school and classes; it will pay off in time, and it shows that you care about and can make good decisions about your future. If you are smart enough to do that, then why end it now? As you said, you are getting a job soon, and despite what your parents think, it sounds like you're working hard. Your life is difficult now, but you still have a bright future ahead of you if you press on. And make no mistake, I do think that God cares about you.

-Scholar in training

 

[Defiance]

Hey Want2Kno,

Friend, my heart and prayers go out to you. You mother and you step father seem like sadistic ogres (no insult to you) whose ignorance is almost shining as strong as the sun. For example, your mother said that you are a 'bum and worthless'. What does God say? That he personally hand crafted you - you were fearfully and wonderfully made as the Scripture says (Psalm 139:14) - in your mother's womb to fulfill his own purposes for your life. In fact, you are that important that Jesus laid down his life for you, his friend (John 15:13). Why did he go through all the agony and death on the cross? He did it because he loved you so much that he'd rather die than live without you for all eternity. He later rose so that he could offer you that eternal life through him.

Friend, why not try Jesus? I know that your family hasn't been good to you, but with Jesus - he'll never put you down or let you down because he knows you that intimately that he sees something in you that your parents and may be not even yourself sees. Jesus will never abandon you, he'll never hurt you - he promises in Jeremiah 29:11 (as someone else already brought up) that he will do the opposite. He has plans to prosper you and not to harm you, he has plans to give you hope and a future. So, before you try to kill yourself - why not give Jesus ago at turning your life around? You've got nothing to loose if you do try Jesus...

You mother may not openly show you how much she values you - but I am 100 percent sure that she'll be absolutely broken if you kill yourself. Or as us Aussies say, she'll be 'guttered'. Don't just think of yourself as a 'burden or heavy load' on your family - because you're more than that. You are a gift from God. God himself doesn't see you as worthless - because he himself designed you and he'd be very insulted. He knows you're special and he loves you that much (more than the human mind can comprehend). Heck, you seem like a nice guy to me just with the bad parents. It is never your fault - your parents are just looking to justify their bad attiude and so-called attempts at parenting, and blaming the child for the problem is the most convienent.

I suggest that now that you've experienced life without God, why not try it with God? I know you said that you don't believe he exists, but what if he does? What if he does? Why not just try believing in him. It's often when we get desperate that he reveals himself to us and we feel his comfort. What I often do is just cry out to God and say that I can't do it by myself and that I need him. He's there, and an comforting presence just comes over me. I can't really explain it - but that's God for you. God says that he'll never abandon you! He says that he won't (he promises that he won't) give you more than what you can handle. He's always there waiting and watching for you return to him and his loving arms. So, why not make that choice to talk to a pastor or Jesus himself about it and make the commitment to follow him and allow Jesus into your life to transform you?

God bless you my friend and take care,
Defiance.

 

[the_baby]

Hello, first of all, I'm sorry for what ur parents are saying and doing to u. Maybe it is a deeper reason why they are saying this to u. A lot of parents take thier problems out on their children. For them it is a way to relieve them of their failure thru u. I bet sometime along the way they have realized how much of a problem they have but don't want to admit it to themselves. Don't let it bother u, but I know it does. Learn from them. Don't take your life b/c 1) u are special to somebody including God, 2) it will let them and Satan know that they have won, and 3) you will miss out on all the good stuff life has to offer( marrige, babies, dating, love, being independent). Plus, you have the choice to move out. Get that job and keep it and go to college. But first try to talk with them(without getting angry), let them know how you feel and if that doesn't help leave but have a place to go for a while before u leave. If u stay all they will do is keep bringing u down. Really pray and read the bible, I promise things will be better in your life if u turn to God. I am a friend and will be here if u need me or want to talk. E-mail me even if u want. I want to be there for u anytime. I check my e-mail every day more than once. Well good luck and God Bless

 

[LynnMcG]

Want2kno it sounds like today was a bad day...maybe worse than usual. Because from what you've said, you've been working hard to take care of yourself despite your mother. Keep it up. You are loved, so much more than you know. I know when you're feeling bad it's hard to believe. But think of how far you've come. You're almost out of there.

I agree with the wisdom you've received here so far, so all I can do is pray for you little brother. God bless you!

 

[crossrunner]

((((((((((want2kno)))))))) My prayer is that you find peace from the Prince of Peace. God is real and He loves you very much. You don't have to walk through this existance alone. There is more to life than the despair that you are going through. Hold on to Jesus, give your life to Him and walk in His joy.

 

[SH89]

.if you can give me a convincing reason to not take my own life then let me here it, and I'm not afraid of goign to hell, I dont even believe in it or God or any of that, I stopped believing in those things when i was 6, which is when I was able to understand all these things my mother was saying to me.......so I'm off for now and i'll come back in a little bit to see if anyoen has anythign to say worth hearing......until then

I am about your age, so i can relate. (Long post)

My story: My father left 3 years ago, and left my family with barely enough money for food. Well, my mom had to ask her friends and brother for money. This happened right after we lost our house due to foreclosure. Today, we are doing well, and my mom has been successful in real estate. There was a point where we were renting and didn't have enough money for food, and now she owns three homes(investment proprieties).

Reasons for believing in the bible, God, and hell:You say that you don't believe in God, or if hell exists. Your reason is(from what i can gather) is that you grew out of these things, and that you just don't believe.

What if i told you that there are many prophecies in the bible that show that the bible is Gods word? Prophecies that include, the coming of the messiah(the saviour), future kingdoms, and the events in the end times.

Prophecies for the coming of the messiah include: his lineage[bloodline], his birth place, events in his life, his suffering, his death, his resurrection, his person, his character, his rejection, and HIS EXACT TIMING!*

In other words, God promised us that one man[who would be God himself] was to come, and gave many details of his coming.

Messianic(concerning the Messiah) chapters like isaiah 53, psalms 22, and psalms 16:10, show that the messiah would die[for mankind],suffer, and resurrect.

These prophecies were given 700-200 of years before Jesus was born!

Yet, they say things like:

"... they have pierced [a] my hands and my feet."-psalms 22:16

" But he was pierced for our transgressions,
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was upon him,
and by his wounds we are healed."-Isaiah 53:5

"because you will not abandon me to the grave, [a]
nor will you let your Holy One see decay."-psalms 16:10

You see, many prophecies like this show that one must come to die, suffer, and resurrect. These prophecies were made 700-2000 of years before Jesus was born! This one man once said in 1953 that Americans will grow weary of televisions. Remember how the British prime minister(before Churchill) said that Hitler is not thinking of war? Where are our flying cars?

How is it then, if men can predict the actions of one man, thousands of years before he is born?

Other prophecies include:
Where the messiah will be born, Bethlehem Ephrathah
his rejection by the Jews
the casting of lots for his vesture
a friend who will betray/weighed for 30 silver coins!
there are many, if you want them all you can just ask or pm me

*Also, the daniel 9 prophecy gives the EXACT DATE(in terms of days/years) OF THE MESSIAH! Wait a minute, this can't be true...

Daniel 9 says, that after the decree to restore and rebuild Jerusalem the messiah will come in 483 years(69 "sevens" 69x7) Artaxerxes’ decree[to rebuild Jerusalem] of 444 B.C. is the only decree that fits this description.

444+483 years(360 day years[hebrew]) or 173,880 days comes up to 32/33 A.D. Not only was Jesus' death and suffering predicted, but also the timing was predicted. God wanted to let his people know the coming of the messiah.
Also according to daniel 9, after the Messiah is killed, the temple and the city will be destroyed. Well, what happened in A.D. 70? Rome besieged Jerusalem, then destoryed both the temple and Jerusalem!



you can read the daniel 9 prophecy here

Now, Jesus has to be the Messiah, and the bible must be God's word.

There is still more, though. The Medo-Persian empire, Hellenistic empire, Alexander the Great himself, and the roman empire were also foreseen.(parts of daniel 2,7,11 for reference)

On may 14th, 1948 Israel became a nation again. No big deal, right? Yes, this too, was foreseen.

and say to them, 'This is what the Sovereign LORD says: I will take the Israelites out of the nations where they have gone. I will gather them from all around and bring them back into their own land. 22 I will make them one nation in the land, on the mountains of Israel. There will be one king over all of them and they will never again be two nations or be divided into two kingdoms.(ezekiel 37:21-22; written 593-573 B.C.E)

As definitely foretold 2545 years ago in Ezekiel 37:21, 22, Israel became a recognized nation, actually "born in one day." On May 14, 1948, Great Britain withdrew her mandate, and immediately Israel was declared a sovereign state, and her growth and importance among nations became astonishing.

So as you can see, the bible has to be God's word.

Now, concerning hell, Jesus warned us about it.

In luke 16, he gave us a REAL story about a man in hell. This man's name was Lazarus. When he was in hell, he complained about the fiery torment, and wanted Abraham to warn his family to not end up there. Hell is a real place.

God does not want anybody to end up there, nor face his wrath. He is long-suffering and wants everyone to repent.

You shouldn't take your own life. Why? Why not become a citizen of heaven? Become part of God's royal family, and become a royal priest!

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That is very good that you want to go to a college/university. If your grades are good enough, maybe you can get a scholarship. If they are not good you can:

1) Go to a Junior college for the first two years of college and then try getting into a university. If money is a problem, getting a job during JC will help.

If money is a issue:
2) You can always join the military(army, navy, airforce) and im sure after 4 years of service that college is covered.

If your grades are good enough, maybe you can look into getting a NROTC(Navy) 4 year scholarship. It pays for everything, and you only have to give 5 years of service as an officer.

God Bless

 

[peacechild4]

Dear God I pray for this young man.. You know his situation.. thank you for all the good advice and care shared here.. Father I ask that You bring into His life some Christian influences that can not only guide him but also help him in any way he needs it.. Father show him where he can find the help and encouragement he needs or even bring them directly to him.. thank You that he came here... I pray that You help him desire to live and find the plan You have for his life.. Father all of us need a reason to live.. I pray You help him find a good reason to live!! I also pray for his mother and step father.. God You know why this is happening.. I ask for You to help this whole family and bring peace, love and healing into this home... I ask this through Jesus name.. amen

 

[ALIgator]

I'm so sorry you're going through all of this, I know I can't even come close to understanding because I've never really been in a situation like that. All I can say is please please please try to stay strong. I know it's hard and it might be a while before things get better, they might even get worse, but you mother and step-father are not right about you. Not even close. Even though I hardly know anything about you, I can tell just from your post that you're an amazing person, and I bet God has some big plans for your life, even if you don't believe in Him. If you ever want to talk, please PM me. I don't really know if there's anything I can do for you, but if you want to write me a message I'm pretty good at listening to other people, so feel free. I will keep you in my prayers.
~God Bless
Ali

 

[Adoniram]

Though your mother and stepfather may not care for you, God does. He teaches us how to deal with fear and worry, not to give up, but rather to trust in him and place all our concerns at his feet. Through prayer and reliance on him, he will see us through the tough times.

Luke 12-
Jesus speaking: 4 "I tell you, my friends, do not be afraid of those who kill the body and after that can do no more. 5 But I will show you whom you should fear: Fear him who, after the killing of the body, has power to throw you into hell. Yes, I tell you, fear him. 6 Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God. 7 Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.
8 "I tell you, whoever acknowledges me before men, the Son of Man [Jesus] will also acknowledge him before the angels of God. 9 But he who disowns me before men will be disowned before the angels of God.

22 Then Jesus said to his disciples: "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. 23 Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. 24 Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! 25 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? 26 Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?

27 "Consider how the lilies grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 28 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith! 29 And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. 30 For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. 31 But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.

 

[bethdinsmore]

a reason for not dying - as horrible as things are for you right now, if you died without Christ, things would immediately be so much worse that none of us can imagine.

The supernatural world does exist, and part of it is terribly evil. I know, personally.

a reason to live - there are going to be many people in the future that you especially will be able to help because you had a similar past and you persevered.

One day at a time, friend. There are a lot of similarities to our stories. And since 1990, mine has been one of contentment and strength and meaning. That's what God wants for you too, even if you don't believe in Him. We have lots of advice if you want it. We want to help. We care about you, and so does God. I promise.

Aloha in Jesus

 

[Blank123]

moved here from Questions by Non Christians

 

[Wildwood]

Dear Want2Kno,

Please come back and tell us how you are doing.

We're praying for you.

 

[anunbeliever]

Is there someone else you can stay with? Some relative or friend? It sounds like you need to move out of home as soon as possible.

 

[Honibee]

Want2kno,

I have sons close to your age, and my heart is breaking to know how
you're being treated. Even though those who are parenting you
aren't having an easy time- their treatment of you is WRONG. I
agree with the person who wondered if you could stay with other
family- it DOES sound like you should be out of that home.

You have recieved such encouragement- I don't think I can add to
it. Just know my heart goes out to you, and your life worthwhile!

Please let us know how you're doing. . .

 

[Followers4christ]

Sorry to hear how your family is treating you.I agree that you should move out because your mothers place is not doing you any good.My Prayers go out to you.Stay strong and remember that God loves you.God Bless

 

[SaintRita]

If you didnt beleive in God than you would not have sought this site out.
I think deep down inside you know there is a God, you are just confused as to what kind of God this is That would make you hurt so much.

Think about how God chose his only son and how his only son that he loved so very much, how he allowed him to die on the cross . Why? FOr us, for you.

God teaches us to be stronger better people by allowing us to go through these trials and tribulation. Is it hard? sure it is. I went through much of that myself. I was worthless (so I was told) and I wanted an end.
I didn't think much of God at your age but what I didn't know was that there was an adult out there praying for me and through those prayers, I found my husband who pulled me out of "the gutter" and showed me the path.

Honey,be strong. It's hard , it's really hard because we have feelings and those feelings get hurt easily.
The reward is there for those who persevere.
I agree that you need to get out, you should not be treated this way. I have 3 teenagers and it would kill me to treat them the way your parents have treated you.

 

[dodad91]

I sincerely believe that you DO want to live. You have made a choice to buy supplies and pay for class, so this shows that you still have desire within you to "do the right thing." Oftentime in the heat of anger and rage we do say and do things that we don;t really mean. Your life is the most precious thing that you possess. It is God that gives life, and it's NOT our decision to take what the God of Heaven and Earth has given to us for His Goodness.

I admonish you to seek God again while He still may be found, and come to Him while He is still near. His love is greater than mother and step-father. Sure, they do need correction in their life, but why should you abase yourself to their level. God Forbid!

Wjem they scream and yell, think on the gooodness of God, and speak softly. Yelling, cursing and cussing only germenates seeds of discourse and dissention. I hope that you come to realization that the life we should be living is NOT for anyone else, but for ourselves. And it's to given wholly to the LORD!!