I need counsel

[joyismystrength]

I need counsel. I have a husband in Texas. Our relationship is rocky and has caused me great harm. We had decided on divorce but never got the papers signed in time. It is important that we get divorced. He has cheated on me and I don't want to be in the relationship. I have a mother who lives in Missouri who I can stay with, although it's in a really remote area and she is pretty controlling. She is in need of deliverance, and I am too. The devil has been attacking my life through this marriage and it's gotten to the point where I have a bad gut feeling pretty much all the time. It's been this way for over a year, where I just have a bad gut feeling. My husband has been talking about not wanting to be alive and I'm worried he will harm himself. I know his life is unhappy because we are in a toxic marriage right now and it will get happy again. I am from Colorado and want to live there again, but I don't have much money right now. Should I move to Colorado and trust God to provide, should I move to my mom's where she can help me out, or should I be in Texas and maybe find an inpatient counseling center or mental hospital? I hear voices and know I have some demons. I cant live with my husband, I have tried that before but he has repeatedly kicked me out every time I tried. I am currently staying at the Dallas airport (I flew in from Missouri because I was staying at my mom's. I flew down because my husband lost his job and I was trying to help but I realized it's not a good thing for me to do given my own situation and having an unsteady job). The police have noticed that I've been here a few days and are threatening to arrest me if i don't leave. I'm not sure if I should stay here or go to my mom's or go to Colorado. My life has not been this messed up since I married this man. I've always had a place to live, a job, a car, no legal trouble, no big finance trouble. My life has been hell since being in this marriage.

 

[com7fy8]

I need counsel.

If you have trusted in Jesus for salvation, you can also trust Him to take care of any situation. But most of all, that will help greatly, God our Father deeply corrects us in our character so we can honor Him properly and submit to Him and obey how He pleases to take care of things.

God is almighty in grace which can easily overcome mean and nasty stuff that your husband has done to you, and He can ***easily*** protect you from emotions and feelings and thinking that do not encourage you and help you closer to God.

And God will have you becoming an all-loving person. This is a basic need, in our character . . . so we can function with God in His peace > as every child of God is commanded to do >

"And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to which also you were called in one body; and be thankful." (Colossians 3:15)

This peace is almighty to guard you against evil and anti-love feelings and thoughts and ways of reacting emotionally. God's love makes us strong in Jesus so we succeed in not giving in to how evil would torture us and make us unforgiving and bitter and self-pitying. Plus, in this peace we share with God in His own creativity for how to love and do good to any person.

Because God is almighty, He can easily do this with us >

"for it is God who works in you both to will and to do for His good pleasure." (Philippians 2:13)

So, God bless you to rest and relax in how He in us has us loving while not allowing this evil world's tricks and pleasures and torments to have power over us. And He will have you discovering doing better than what you can think and hope.

So . . . my advice is > instead of mainly trying to figure out what to do about your husband . . . first, answer to God and obey Him in His peace. While we obey God in His peace in any situation, He perfectly quiets us and satisfies and guides us . . . creatively, better than what we have been able to consider . . . c-r-e-a-t-i-n-g what to do And meanwhile, He takes care of things and people around us . . . how Jesus our Lord according to His good judgment rules people and things.

And Jesus has us praying this for you, for all that is possible with God.

 

[essentialsaltes]

should I be in Texas and maybe find an inpatient counseling center or mental hospital? I hear voices...

I think you need to help yourself before you can think about helping others, or making big life choices. I know it must be difficult, but if you are hearing voices, you should seek some form of psychiatric care.