I just don't feel Him

[Million Pieces]

I am trying so hard to rely of God to be my comfort, to just feel His presence when I'm scared and so very lonely. But I just don't feel His presence like I thought I used to. I pray, and I don't hear Him speaking back. I try to pray Scriptures, and it just doesn't feel like it settles in, you know? I want so much to run to Him like I used to, and just feel the comfort in my spirit, and it's just not there.



My God... my God,,, why have you forsaken me???????? am I doing something wrong? where have You gone?

 

[5kidsdad]

I am trying so hard to rely of God to be my comfort, to just feel His presence when I'm scared and so very lonely. But I just don't feel His presence like I thought I used to. I pray, and I don't hear Him speaking back. I try to pray Scriptures, and it just doesn't feel like it settles in, you know? I want so much to run to Him like I used to, and just feel the comfort in my spirit, and it's just not there.



My God... my God,,, why have you forsaken me???????? am I doing something wrong? where have You gone?

Yes, I do know what it is like...to feel like He isn't responding to you. I still feel that way at times. But I always go back, and remember where I once was, when I was in great peril, and could have lost my life. God didn't speak to me then, but I know that His protective hand was on me. If it hadn't been His mercy and grace, I wouldn't have been here today. God speaks to all of us in different ways. Keep praying, keep seeking, keep reading the scriptures. Keep encouraging yourself in the Lord. One thing that I did was, and still do, is write little notes or letters to myself. I made sure that it was uplifting, and I usually looked to those in the Bilbe who went through trials and tests. I like Job. Look at all he lost, even his friends, and it seemed as if God totally abandoned him. In the end, he was restored to everything he lost, and so much more. When I get discouraged, I think to him, Joseph, and countless others that are our example. When it seems that we are at our end...that is when He steps in. MP...I know the road is hard, the journey tough. The emotions, feelings are raw now. Remember the story of the footprints in the sand...there was only one set for such a long time. He will carry you. We will hold you in prayer...He hears you. If you draw close to Him, HE will draw close to you. I hope this helps you...we have all been there before...

God bless,

5kd

 

[Million Pieces]

I think you hit is when you said the feelings are raw. I'm in such emotional shock right now, I don't feel ANYthing. Literally, it seems like I'm empty, there's no soul left.

Well, I guess that's not true.. I feel sorrow, I feel the fear of the future, I feel the loneliness. I just can't seem to feel comfort, or love, or even hope right now.

But I will still keep reaching out. I will still call upon Him. Even if I have to pray like David, "How long, o Lord...."

 

[5kidsdad]

I think you hit is when you said the feelings are raw. I'm in such emotional shock right now, I don't feel ANYthing. Literally, it seems like I'm empty, there's no soul left.

Well, I guess that's not true.. I feel sorrow, I feel the fear of the future, I feel the loneliness. I just can't seem to feel comfort, or love, or even hope right now.

But I will still keep reaching out. I will still call upon Him. Even if I have to pray like David, "How long, o Lord...."

Yes...you have hit it on the head...you are numb, to put it best, I guess. I know how I felt. I was just going through the motions of getting through the day. I also felt sorrow, uncdertainty of what may come, there is no love, the person who you were the closest to betrayed you...and now that connection has been severed. As a Christian, all I knew to do was to keep crying to the Lord, and I still do. It has been 7 months...I am getting better...I guess. I still have my days, but I am beginning to have better days than worse days. MP, it will get better. I read a book, and I highly recommend it, "When the Vow Breaks" by Kniskern. The action of a couple separating or getting divorced is not 2 people going their own way. When we marry, we become 1 person in spirit. When we separate or divorce, we are tearing the one spirit apart, and we each take something of the other person with us, whether we want to or not. That expl,ains the deep, deep pain that we feel as we go through all of this. What compounds it for us, MP, is that our spouses went out, and made a bond with another person that was meant for only marriage. Knowing what we know, what the scripture ststes, they now have a bond with them as well. That was supposed to be only us. I was mad, sad, hurt, crying, disgusted, you name it, I felt it. Sister, I just feel that I have to keep encouraging you to walk on...remember the little ones that God has blessed you with. It is hard, but with His help, you can be strong for them. Keep praying, keep seeking, be faithful to Him. The one thing I keep thinking to myself...could I imagine going through this without the Lord? Never...I am praying for you...

Love in Christ,

5kd

 

[Flibbertigibbet]

I'm reading a really good book right now that you might find helpful: Reaching For The Invisible God, by Phillip Yancey.