I hate my life

[dude99]

I hate my life. I know I have Borderline Personality disorder. I so sick of it. It has ruined my life. I shortly be 40 years old and never had true friends or even a relationship. One unrealistic request to God is to strike me dead now.

Yet I won't commit suicide however I wish my life on earth will be shortened drastically. I sick of it.

 

[kevinwh]

Sorry to hear that.

It takes courage to admit you have a problem! I hope and pray things get better for you.

 

[DeepWound]

I hate my life. I know I have Borderline Personality disorder. I so sick of it. It has ruined my life. I shortly be 40 years old and never had true friends or even a relationship. One unrealistic request to God is to strike me dead now.

Yet I won't commit suicide however I wish my life on earth will be shortened drastically. I sick of it.

The first and most important step on the road to recovery is to admit that something is wrong. You have strength my friend. Most people with BPD don't admit there is a problem with them. You understand it and you know that it's BPD. Have you been professionally diagnosed with BPD? Or are you just speculating?

I would recommend that you see a professional therapist that specializes in BPD (once it's diagnosed, could be something else). There are a lot a ways BPD can be treated and healthy ways to handle what your going through. People can and do recover from BPD. It takes work but the first step is to admit there is a problem and you've already done that. You are not alone my friend!!

You are in my prayers Dude!! May you seek Gods guidance in finding a GOOD Therapist that can work with you in dealing with BPD.

SINCERELY, DW

 

[ladyjazz]

My true diagnosis is BPD. I know this sounds bad but...im.storing.up my treasures for Heaven. Im well aware how serious this is and, if not for Jesus, i woulda packed it up long ago. Im almost 48 and just got my true diagnosis@ 44. Wth? Im almost done w life!! Lol

Im sorry for you. I know this illness. Its SO HARD! My lfe totally ruined, like you. But i learned to smell the roses, enjoy an ice cream. Listen to great music. Pray. Jesus has a special place for us. But we must finish this race. I know jesus loves you. Understands you and wants you well. Not just feel good words, its the TRUTH! I dont come to Cf playing games about how good God is. He just is good and you have a heavy cross. Theres a great blog for Christian borders. Google jesus, BPD and it will come up. Please endure and things do get better. Somedays i dont even know i have it. I cherish those good days. Im not good with advice, but feel free to pm me. Any BPD can pm me. We are very unique and can walk together. Praying my dear friend!

 

[ladyjazz]

The first and most important step on the road to recovery is to admit that something is wrong. You have strength my friend. Most people with BPD don't admit there is a problem with them. You understand it and you know that it's BPD. Have you been professionally diagnosed with BPD? Or are you just speculating?

I would recommend that you see a professional therapist that specializes in BPD (once it's diagnosed, could be something else). There are a lot a ways BPD can be treated and healthy ways to handle what your going through. People can and do recover from BPD. It takes work but the first step is to admit there is a problem and you've already done that. You are not alone my friend!!

You are in my prayers Dude!! May you seek Gods guidance in finding a GOOD Therapist that can work with you in dealing with BPD.

SINCERELY, DW

Great advice! Many do get better, but w me its been hard.

 

[bhsmte]

Great advice! Many do get better, but w me its been hard.

I was married to a BPD wife and I can tell you, you have taken the most difficult step by admitting you need to get help.

Most who suffer from BPD, never get better, because they can never take responsibility for their actions or admit they need to get help.

You are on the right track by doing so.

 

[Ave Maria]

I'm sorry to hear that you are suffering so much and have suffered so much because of your Borderline Personality Disorder. I know what it feels like as I also suffer from this disorder and have suffered much because of it and continue to do so. However, one should always remember that all things work together for the good of those who love the Lord.

Therefore, since we are justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ. Through him we have obtained access to this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in our hope of sharing the glory of God. More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not disappoint us, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.
(Romans 5:1-5 RSV-CE)

We know that in everything God works for good with those who love him, who are called according to his purpose.
(Romans 8:28 RSV-CE)

Also, try to have hope because when we all hopefully someday make it to Heaven, God will wipe away all of our tears and there will be no more pain or suffering.

They shall hunger no more, neither thirst any more; the sun shall not strike them, nor any scorching heat. For the Lamb in the midst of the throne will be their shepherd, and he will guide them to springs of living water; and God will wipe away every tear from their eyes."
(Revelation 7:16-17 RSV-CE)