I hate God

[Matt1917]

By the title of this thread you are probably assuming I'm a troll, but rather, I'm listing a prayer intention.

I pray all the time in Jesus name and am a Christian by Faith, but have an extreme hatred for God and I don't know what to do about it so registered at this site to ask for prayers.

I'm diagnosed shizoaffective, chemically dependent, and I hate God for not healing me, giving me a healthy mind and emotions, and not protecting me from the Devil and refusing to guide me or give me wisdom and understanding (Despite praying for it thousands of times over the years). <Staff Edit>

I've lived my life in and out of jails and mental institutions. I'm currently in a residential treatment center IRTS facility, before that I was homeless. <Staff Edit>

I also spent 11 months in jail and am on probation for 7 years <Staff Edit>. It's been a miserable, confusing, depressing, delusional life and I wish my mother would have aborted me and I hate God for giving me life.

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<Staff Edit> I appreciate your prayers. I'm often filled with rage and blasphemies and want to hurt God. I've had deliverance prayers prayed over me but nothing seems to work. Still, your prayers are appreciated. Thanks. God bless!

 

[Remny]

Brother, your story pains me. I anguish over the disadvantages you suffer and how difficult your walk must be. I can offer no wise counsel, no sage advice that will help lift your burdens and fix your life. I shall try anyways, but forgive me as I'm sure such words will not be enough to bring you peace.

My mother is paranoid schizophrenic. She was institutionalized once, and it is something she deals with probably every day of her life. She's a nurse and many do not know of her condition or how she struggles. I do not think she is broken however. She is the strongest, kindest and hardest working person I have ever met, but she struggles daily against paranoia and delusion. If she allows herself to feed into these thoughts, she will begin to see, hear and smell things that are not there. Things that support her paranoia. So she distracts herself. She goes to church, she has bible study, she cooks a lot, she does yoga or runs on her treadmill. She keeps too busy to feed into her delusions.

She can be difficult to deal with when she thinks my sister and I have been in the house when we haven't or that we've taken things from her when we haven't, but all that know her, know her as a kind and generous person. I admire her so much and often wish I was more like her in so many ways. My humble advice to you is keep busy with things that better yourself or those around you and maybe you too can live more normally. It seems like it is only when she is idle that the delusions start to form.

Try not to hate God. In some ways you are blessed. Our lives on earth are very short compared to an eternity in heaven. Sometimes these short lives are quite unbearable, but keep in mind that it is not the only existence you will be enjoying. As you struggle, you are building a thirst for the perfection God offers. So when you get to heaven my friend, you will be in a much better position to appreciate it than someone who has had everything in their life go smoothly.

I am sending my most heartfelt and sincere prayers to the lord on your behalf. I pray for relief from your struggles and that you will be able to channel all this suffering into something positive for yourself or others. That do you do not sit idle in your misery, but fight against it.

God bless my friend,

Your brother in the Lord,

BEN

 

[brinny]

By the title of this thread you are probably assuming I'm a troll, but rather, I'm listing a prayer intention.

I pray all the time in Jesus name and am a Christian by Faith, but have an extreme hatred for God and I don't know what to do about it so registered at this site to ask for prayers.

I'm diagnosed shizoaffective, chemically dependent, and I hate God for not healing me, giving me a healthy mind and emotions, and not protecting me from the Devil and refusing to guide me or give me wisdom and understanding (Despite praying for it thousands of times over the years). <Staff Edit>

I've lived my life in and out of jails and mental institutions. I'm currently in a residential treatment center IRTS facility, before that I was homeless. <Staff Edit>

I also spent 11 months in jail and am on probation for 7 years <Staff Edit>. It's been a miserable, confusing, depressing, delusional life and I wish my mother would have aborted me and I hate God for giving me life.

<Staff Edit>

<Staff Edit> I appreciate your prayers. I'm often filled with rage and blasphemies and want to hurt God. I've had deliverance prayers prayed over me but nothing seems to work. Still, your prayers are appreciated. Thanks. God bless!

Bless yer heart. God LOVES you. He is an "Anchor" for all of our ups and downs, and varying emotions, thoughts, and feelings, as well as conflicts and confusion.

Yes, i will pray for you, and stand-in for you. Praying that God calms any storms, smooths out all the rockiness, and grants clarity and shines His Light in the midst of any confusion, and may His inexplicable grace supersede all that is coming at you, precious. Father may it be so, in Jesus name, amen. (((hug)))

 

[Celestial Warrior]

By the title of this thread you are probably assuming I'm a troll, but rather, I'm listing a prayer intention.

I pray all the time in Jesus name and am a Christian by Faith, but have an extreme hatred for God and I don't know what to do about it so registered at this site to ask for prayers.

I'm diagnosed shizoaffective, chemically dependent, and I hate God for not healing me, giving me a healthy mind and emotions, and not protecting me from the Devil and refusing to guide me or give me wisdom and understanding (Despite praying for it thousands of times over the years). <Staff Edit>

I've lived my life in and out of jails and mental institutions. I'm currently in a residential treatment center IRTS facility, before that I was homeless. <Staff Edit>

I also spent 11 months in jail and am on probation for 7 years <Staff Edit>. It's been a miserable, confusing, depressing, delusional life and I wish my mother would have aborted me and I hate God for giving me life.

<Staff Edit>

<Staff Edit> I appreciate your prayers. I'm often filled with rage and blasphemies and want to hurt God. I've had deliverance prayers prayed over me but nothing seems to work. Still, your prayers are appreciated. Thanks. God bless!

I believe that your thoughts are just demonic attacks and that they aren't really your own thoughts about God. Deep down inside we all know God and love him. I also suffer from Bipolar I Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, Schizophrenia and Psychosis - I've been homeless, I was physically, sexually and psychologically abused for about 24 years and I recently had to be involuntarily committed into a mental hospital for having a psychosis and mental breakdown. I have asked the same questions about why God made me and why It would have been better that I was never born. One time God was testing me, I thought, above what I could handle. [staff edit]

when I felt he was leading me into another test of my faith I couldn't handle anymore. I was so upset about it, that this was what I said to our Lord. I hated myself for what I said in anger, but I have been blessed since then and our Lord Jesus forgave me.

I'm still a basket case and mentally deranged person and I still wonder why God won't heal me and why I was made this way. But this has not caused me to hate God or lose my faith.

There is a reason for all things and I believe we should all seek the truth in all things, even pertaining to ourselves. I have really started looking at the flaws within my heart, rather than the flaws that are physical/mental/etc... Who I am cannot be defined by my mental illness.

I promise your hatred towards God, is not you - it is demonic
The "real you" does not hate God, your just really mad because you don't understand your circumstances.

Try talking to Jesus in your head and pour out all your feelings, no matter how angry you are. He wants you to be real with him. If you need to cuss, cuss. Our Lord stands at the door waiting for you to knock - Angry or Not, God loves you.

 

[Kenny'sID]

Not the norm for me, but I'm at a complete loss on advice.

I will say you present a fair case...and if the maker sees fit to explain why this happens he will, if he does not, he won't, if he already has, I haven't seen it.

In times like this, I sometimes want to question his wisdom, but for whatever reason, I haven't done that as of yet, not point blank anyway.

Prayer request fulfilled, and hope a bit of that from everyone will help.

 

[Matt1917]

Thank you all for your prayers...I'm just disgusted that he refuses to grant the graces I need to do his will and as a result my life wastes away in insanity and confusion.

That is the lot of the vast majority of the world and I consider God responsible for the division within Christianity. People that seek the truth are chronically coming to opposite conclusions because there are so many verses in the Bible that state the opposite of what other verses state.

People need guidance from God and GOD REFUSES to grant it. It makes me want to vomit and scream just to think about what God has done, how he hides the truth, how he refuses to guide us or speak clearly, how he sees so much agony and remains silent, how he makes us defective and then punishes us for it, how he lets so many souls go to a place of eternal torture for not believing in him (yet not once was he ever willing to so much as speak clearly to them...yet he will have them tortured forever and ever and ever because they don't believe).

He lets the Devil torture and deceive so many people yet has complete control of what the Devil can and can't do.

My hatred for God goes deep and is growing and growing. I have never known a Father more cruel than God!

The Devil does only what God permits (wants). The reign of the Antichrist and his empire and all the innocent people that get slaughtered and tortured to death is all part of God's plan.

God can make this hatred leave, I cannot...it isn't a choice...it's just there and there is nothing I can do...either God can speak up and heal me or it is hopeless!

thanks for your prayers

 

[Matt1917]

Scripture says that even Satan and evil spirits bend the knee at the name of Jesus and obey his every command.

 

[rockytopva]

Father I pray blessings on this request and healing of this condition in Jesus name I pray. Also taking these needs before God in prayer on the 4:00AM bbnradio.org Family Altar program.

 

[rockytopva]

 

[Matt1917]

Mark 16:17-18King James Version (KJV)
17 And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues;

18 They shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover.

John 14:13 ►
And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son.

Matthew 7:7 ►
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.

Matthew 17:20 ►
Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there,' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."

John 14:12
“Truly, truly, I say to you, whoever believes in me will also do the works that I do; and greater works than these will he do, because I am going to the Father.

When God is willing to be faithful to his word, I shall believe that the Bible is the truth. Until then, the Bible just fills me with rage!

But thank you for your prayers. I believe prayer has power

May I die soon, in Jesus name!

 

[Andrewofthetribe]

By the title of this thread you are probably assuming I'm a troll, but rather, I'm listing a prayer intention.

I pray all the time in Jesus name and am a Christian by Faith, but have an extreme hatred for God and I don't know what to do about it so registered at this site to ask for prayers.

I'm diagnosed shizoaffective, chemically dependent, and I hate God for not healing me, giving me a healthy mind and emotions, and not protecting me from the Devil and refusing to guide me or give me wisdom and understanding (Despite praying for it thousands of times over the years). <Staff Edit>

I've lived my life in and out of jails and mental institutions. I'm currently in a residential treatment center IRTS facility, before that I was homeless. <Staff Edit>

I also spent 11 months in jail and am on probation for 7 years <Staff Edit>. It's been a miserable, confusing, depressing, delusional life and I wish my mother would have aborted me and I hate God for giving me life.

<Staff Edit>

<Staff Edit> I appreciate your prayers. I'm often filled with rage and blasphemies and want to hurt God. I've had deliverance prayers prayed over me but nothing seems to work. Still, your prayers are appreciated. Thanks. God bless!

Have you tried prostrating yourself upon the floor? Be humble before the Lord and he will reward you with his spirit. Beg for his help and praise his name and you will feel his presence fall upon you. Peace be to Jesus Christ our Lord and saviour.

 

[Matt1917]

Have you tried prostrating yourself upon the floor? Be humble before the Lord and he will reward you with his spirit. Beg for his help and praise his name and you will feel his presence fall upon you. Peace be to Jesus Christ our Lord and saviour.

I've prayed plenty prayers face down on the floor...sure, I'll do that again today

 

[Dwells]

You were given the gift of life.....use it wisely and stop complaining so much. Look for the good.

 

[Andrewofthetribe]

I've prayed plenty prayers face down on the floor...sure, I'll do that again today

I will kneel and touch my forehead to the floor, I find this works for me, let us feel the presence of our almighty lord. Praise be to Jesus for he is our shepherd.

 

[Matt1917]

You were given the gift of life.....use it wisely and stop complaining so much. Look for the good.

Life is not a gift. Life is disgusting! <Staff Edit>

 

[Dwells]

Well of course no one would want to see you make that choice. Do you have anybody close to you that you can talk to about this and a good medical doctor?
While I believe that God/Jesus is a great comforter, we humans still seem to sometimes require God in the flesh, and that is often represented by those who come alongside us in this world, but often we also have to admit and make it known that we need help to get through life. Many people find it easier to offer help than to sincerely ask for help, are you one of those people? I'm going to suggest you let down your guard and reach out, like you are doing here.

 

[Matt1917]

Well of course no one would want to see you make that choice. Do you have anybody close to you that you can talk to about this and a good medical doctor?
While I believe that God/Jesus is a great comforter, we humans still seem to sometimes require God in the flesh, and that is often represented by those who come alongside us in this world, but often we also have to admit and make it known that we need help to get through life. Many people find it easier to offer help than to sincerely ask for help, are you one of those people? I'm going to suggest you let down your guard and reach out, like you are doing here.

I don't have anyone close to me. I talk with family over the phone sometimes about this and I talk to my therapist as well. I'm confused and God refuses to give me understanding. What are they supposed to do about that? Only God can help and He refuses to.

He has left the world confused. That is why Christians are so divided. Most of the confused people think they are right, which is why there is so much division in Christianity and division over how to properly interpret Scripture.

God has failed to shepherd and guide his flock. It is sad.

 

[Matt1917]

My heart isn't closed though. I'm seeking God. All I care about and my only interest is knowing God's will and doing it. But I'll be left in darkness and confusion as long as God wants it. God wants some people to be enslaved to the Devil. That is the mystery I'll never understand.

 

[LoyalToGod]

Matt, I also struggle with anger towards God at times, so you're not alone. I'm having the worst year of my life, and I cursed Him out of rage, so I can relate to what you're going through in that regard. I've said a prayer for you.

 

[rockytopva]

Cry unto God to fill you with his Holy Spirit! There is none that comforts or teaches like he!

Father I pray blessings on this request and for all those who are struggling in their Christian faith in Jesus name I pray. Also taking these needs before God in prayer on the 1:15PM bbnradio.org Family Altar program.