I Hate God!!!

[Cursed_Life]

I am a fool for ever speaking against the Almighty. Please pray for my forgiveness. God is good, we are evil, and eternal judgement is coming. Please forgive me God. Originally, I just wanted to stop sinning, and it went from doubt to a tirade. Please have mercy on this foolish sinner who NEEDS to be like Jesus.

 

[a7x]

I felt the same way... to an extent.

Cursing God isn't gonna help you in any way. Sure, you do have the 'right' to do so, but nothing good comes out of it. It leaves you empty and cold inside, and you keep seeking for something you can't see, or feel..

I do not know what you're going through.. but I know this for a fact:
God does not hate you. Although you may hate God, He loves you and longs for your calling, sees each tear you cry, and feels your pain.

So, 'why' is He doing all this? Why must He test us and in return ask us for loyalty when it is clearly evident we are inclined to do otherwise? Well, I wish I had a definite answer for you, but have faith in the fact that what you are going through is not in vain and God will reward you in the kingdom of heaven. I know it sounds like a heap of bull for you right now, but you'll know when the time comes.....

 

[Cursed_Life]

have faith in the fact that what you are going through is not in vain and God will reward you in the kingdom of heaven.

I would rather be wiped out of existence than have some heavenly 'reward' from the selfishly glory-seeking almighty tryant in his eternal worshipland where he gets all his selfish reward of being the one SOME of us (NOT all!) had to live through a lot of stuff for, and all for no good reason but to entertain him! The only reward he could give me is the privilege of killing him and taking over his almighty position so that I can reach out and care for those who go through hell in their lives and actually CARE about them!

 

[a7x]

I would rather be wiped out of existence than have some heavenly 'reward' from the selfishly glory-seeking almighty tryant in his eternal worshipland where he gets all his selfish reward of being the one SOME of us (NOT all!) had to live through a lot of stuff for, and all for no good reason but to entertain him! The only reward he could give me is the privilege of killing him and taking over his almighty position so that I can reach out and care for those who go through hell in their lives and actually CARE about them!

Same here. Oftentimes, I would rather die than having to crawl through this torment of pain and sorrow, or so-called 'life'.

You are accusing God of being selfish, cruel, and unjust. That is your misconception. He is not whatever you may think He is. But, I do know where you are coming from. I have walked the same path... but later I realized I was running in circles. You have to break that cycle and learn to trust.

 

[xristos.anesti]

God is not nor ever will be what We think He is.
He is beyond us.

It is like having that jar full of ants in which you have a bit of dirt and you can see how they move and cary their eggs.

Well, try to explain an ant about black hole.
First, an ant wont understand you! It will just look at you and keep moving its antenaes hoping that you will move so it can go and bring another speck of dust because the queen is waiting.
Even if it did understand you, you will have problems explaining what black hole is, actually you will have problem explaining beyond the jar. Even how jar came into being.
Ant just does not have abbility to comprehend.

We are the ants. On a cosmic scale, we are not much bigger than the ants. On a cosmic scale we are not much smarter than the ants.

Friend, cursing God is not the solution.
God is not our personal genie who we have stored in a lamp.
God is beyond you, me.. all of us. God is beyond everything.

It is impossible to compare us and Him.. All of the creation is like ant to Him.
He can just squash us and no-one will ever know differently.

Point is, if you do feel better for cursing God than go and curse.
One day sooner or later you will come to the situation when you will realise that it was on your damage.

You see, the fact of faith remains. He came and died for us!

What is 80 +/- years of suffering? This is just the start of eternity. Even on this planet, what ever you do, start is the hardest. If you join the Army the smash you for the first couple of years. If you go to trade school you get smashed first couple of years. If you go to Uni you get smashed... Same when you start a job. Every start in everything we do is the hardest. Our life here is just start of eternity.

You may think whatever you want. But, the only selfish creatures on this planet are us, and demons that we follow.

If you choose to curse so be it, but do not say that you are made to do so because of God. Many people are much worse off than you. If you are not happy in problems you will not be happy without them. No matter who you are and where you are and how much money you have... you will have problems.. To live on this planet is to have problems. Not one borne into this world lived without problems.

If life on this planet was hard for Christ, why do you think you should have it easy.

We are just passing through this desert! This is not our home.
Demons and their slaves live here and build here.
This is not our land.
Our passport has HEAVENLY REPUBLIC OF NEW JERUSALEM Coat of Arms on it.

Do as you wish.

 

[Cursed_Life]

Well, try to explain an ant about black hole.
First, an ant wont understand you! It will just look at you and keep moving its antenaes hoping that you will move so it can go and bring another speck of dust because the queen is waiting.
Even if it did understand you, you will have problems explaining what black hole is, actually you will have problem explaining beyond the jar. Even how jar came into being.
Ant just does not have abbility to comprehend.

So what's this about him giving us a Bible to try to understand him? Isn't it to be forthright in knowing God and his worthless will? I don't care to know him anymore! I just want to either KILL him (and Satan) or be dead for all eternity and not be resurrected after I die!

Point is, if you do feel better for cursing God than go and curse.
One day sooner or later you will come to the situation when you will realise that it was on your damage.

I really don't want to curse God, I just want him to wipe me out of existence so I can be as I was before I was born. I just WISH he would not have created me, but since he has, he should be so kind as to dispose of me.

You see, the fact of faith remains. He came and died for us!

And had he never created us and allowed us to be tempted and to sin then he would never have to put us on that guilt trip for it. Honestly, if that means he won't send me to hell, that's all it's worth to me. I don't love him for it because he never had to do it. Had he just NOT put the tree of the knowledge of good and evil in the garden of eden, and had he never allowed Satan to enter in and tempt Eve and in turn Adam, he would never had to do it. But it was planned that way as he forknew the future! So then he could use his glory trip in it to say, "I suffered all this for you because if not you would go to hell! If you don't love me it's because you don't appreciate all I did for you on the cross. So now, love me or I'll burn you!" My answer is, "Yea, and you never would have had to had you had never created us or allowed us to be tempted in our weak, deceivable flesh!" This ant doesn't care to live to either figure God out or go about his business.

What is 80 +/- years of suffering?

Why don't you ask some blessed Christians, "What is 80 +/- years of enjoying life and worshipping God before you go to the big party in heaven?" I know so many happy, smiley Christians who love God and have minute little problems here and there that never bring them down.

This is just the start of eternity.

Which I don't care for!

Even on this planet, what ever you do, start is the hardest. If you join the Army the smash you for the first couple of years. If you go to trade school you get smashed first couple of years. If you go to Uni you get smashed... Same when you start a job. Every start in everything we do is the hardest. Our life here is just start of eternity.

For some people it's unholy hell, for others it's not so bad.

If you choose to curse so be it, but do not say that you are made to do so because of God.

It IS because of God because he CREATED ME! HE is responsible for me being alive! So it is HIS fault!

Many people are much worse off than you.

I know, which is why I hate God all the more!

If you are not happy in problems you will not be happy without them. No matter who you are and where you are and how much money you have... you will have problems.. To live on this planet is to have problems. Not one borne into this world lived without problems.

Many people have the smallest problems to worry about, and others (as you said) are so much worse off and I can't understand why we don't graciously hand out cyanide and allow euthenasia for anyone who wants to die! But I want to die knowing I won't be resurrected by some almighty angry Judge. Even if he loves me and wants to in heaven, I would kindly beg to forfeit that for eternal obliteration and thank him for not putting me in hell instead.

Our passport has HEAVENLY REPUBLIC OF NEW JERUSALEM Coat of Arms on it.

I wish my passport could have NONEXISTENCE UPON EXPIRATION on it!!

 

[xristos.anesti]

God did not give us the Bible so that we would understand HIM.
He is beyond understanding.

We have Bible so that we can know HIS will for us. Not that we will know HIM, but that we will know his will.

No created being ever can understand God. We see the energy and action of God but reason behind it, the sense, is beyond everything created. The nature of God is incomprehensible.


The only way we can stop to exist, is for God to Un-create the life. Reverse the Creation of everything that was created. Undo the done. Everyhthing in this universe is connected. You wish to stop existing. And you call God selfish. God that died for His Creation. You, at the same time call Him selfish and you want Him to un-create everything so you can stop existing. "Destroy all so I can be happy!" Very generous of you.

Universe is connected. The ammount of energy is equal. Energy does not multiply nor decrease. It is constant. You are energy. One ammount in the total of all energy in the universe. For you to stop existing, all has to be wiped out and re-created. And at the same time you who is calling for total destruction not caring for anyone is deeming God selfish.

You can not just stop to exist. Your soul is immortal. Now, you being born you started to exist. The energy transformed into life. The creation. Movement forward.

You are asking for a movement backward. That can not be.

 

[PetraFan007]

Well, God is a holy God and if we don't worship and praise Him, the rocks will. I grew up a Christian, and still am...and I still struggle with the so-called selfishness/jealousy of God. But... we have no choice. It's either heaven or hell. THE GOOD THING IS..our salvation is not even based on our love for Him...as the Bible says some people love God more than others based on what He took them out of. It's because of what Jesus did...and we get to...GET TO... go to heaven for all eternity if we believe on His son and repent from our sins. You gotta be humble. I'm thankful I'm not going to burn in hell for all eternity. I don't understand God nearly as much as I want to, but I'm thankful. Think about it.

 

[Anti Existance]

Everyone at some point 'doubts' but i can tell you from people who have had near death experiences and hated God even more then you, and doubted his existance thru-out their lives and talked about Jezus only when using 'profanity's' that God is love, and saved them. That yes there is a plan, and there is a reason to everything and that misery is only a temporarily condition which is caused by our lack of love for others. I want you to read this Near-Death Experience of Howard Storm

http://www.near-death.com/experiences/storm01.html

Enjoy.

 

[AdJesumPerMariam]

Cursed (?), It sounds like you are going through some struggles and you feel God isn't there? Do you think He is making fun of you, or that He does not care? You obviously believe God exists, or you would not be angry with Him.

My son-in-law's mom had a lump in her breast last year, and went to have it removed. Now his mom is a good person, a believer, although by her own admittance, not a Christian. My son-in-law was very mad at God, and said that if she had cancer, he would hate God & never, ever forgive Him. Now, that was about a year & a half after finding out I had Breast cancer. After finding out, I asked all of my kids to not be mad at God, He didn't make me have cancer....and if she did have cancer, it had nothing to do with God, nor a punishment. Terri did not have Cancer, as it turned out. My son-in-law did not praise God when it was over, or anything. He is the same as a year ago....

We all have our own cross to bear, whatever it is. It's what we chose to do with our struggles that make the difference.

 

[awildflowerlady]

You know we can not have everything we want.



As a mom I find this hard to say at times! My kids, again at times, can be so very demanding. The Lord presents Himself as a fatherly figure. If I apply what I experience in caring for my children to what must happen in GOD's situation I would hardly touch that mound He faces.

Thankfully, however, He is always turning the other cheek to our many punches of "this is not fair, how could you, I hate you" swings in life.

Many parents will leave their kids when the going gets tough. GOD will not leave you as His promise is true and just. Just as a parent's child usually grows out of the "this is not fair, how could you, I hate you" mentality, you too are given that chance to do so, over and over again.

It is clear to me that you want to grow out of this as you have posted your annoyance and keep posting there after. Silence is the truest form of acting out what you think you are accomplishing. Just in being vocal, you are taking steps to better the situation whether you think so right now or not.



GOD is with you no matter how much you try to deny it. Remember the verse, where two are together in my name.... Guess what, there are hundreds here online in His name and you are in midsts of it all!

What a blessing that is!

 

[Josh Buckman]

I will go ahead and tell you that life stinks sooo much
if you were truely embracing god and following him with all your heart you would feel anything like this you would be amazed by his glory and I ask you just to stop and think what is it that made you hate him so much what was it that he did that was so bad to you?
and dont say because he created you!
YOU WERE CREATED FOR A PURPOSE!
GOD HAS A PLAN FOR YOUR LIFE!
if you shut him out he cant help you with anything
god loves you and he wants to bless you very much
but he cant if you continue to shut him out

In some ways i know how you feel becasue i went through something similiar to this and i know its a lousy feeling but its nothing but Lusipher coming up to your ear and whispering "your worthless" "God does'nt realy love you" "you would be better off dead" NO! it is not true Saten is here to Kill Steal and Destroy

He wants to kill your earthly body steal your soul and destroy the religious world.

shut out the devil man just do it dont listyen to his lies any more he will mess with your head and try and block you from god

JUST LET GO AND EMBRACE THE LOVE GOD HAS FOR YOU

 

[jazzbird]

I just wanted to say that I am so sorry for your pain. I don't know what else to say, and I know it's not much. I can't even imagine what you feel, but your post is just so full of anguish - it is heartbreaking. I am praying for you right now - praying that God will give you whatever it is you truly need. I don't know if you want my prayers, but you got 'em.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

If I could put God into hell and burn him forever, I would! God is NOT loving, his “grace” is nonexistent, and he cares NOTHING for those who cry out to him! He puts us through so much hell because he is only seeking his own glory, NOT our well-being! If he DID care for us he would see our tears, feel our heartache, know our despair, hear our cries, provide for our needs, protect us from harm, and actually answer our prayers that we pray for YEARS that are NOT wrongful prayers! But, you see, he WILL do that for some believers while he will NOT help others who love him just as much or more! And he NEVER cared one bit for me and no matter how much I ever loved him, believed in his son, sought him in love, loved his church, prayed to him on my knees with all my faith and haert, worshipped him with all my heart, loved him with every part of my being, and tried ALL I COULD to obey him and to be a pleasing creature to him, he STILL cared NOTHING for me! Yaweh is a selfish, glory-seeking tyrant, the grand-master of his giant strategic chess game in which I am but a pawn to be disposed of, and the only reason he is good to some and an almighty oppressor to others is because he loves some and wants to hurt others CONSTANTLY without end, all for his grandiose glory-trip! When I cried out, he NEVER heard me! When I asked for help, he always kept me in a dark pit! I spent years in the hellish pits of depression and despair, and I cried each day and night and begged him for help, and he did NOT care! All I feel in my heart is HATRED toward the almighty tyrant! HE NEEDS TO DIE AND BURN IN HELL! HE NEEDS TO BE REMOVED FROM POWER, AND ANOTHER BEING WHO CARES FOR US ALL MUST BE INSTALLED ON THE THRONE INSTEAD! YAWEH IS MORE WORTHLESS THAN THE DIRT UNDER MY FEET! HE IS MORE REPUGNANT THAN WHAT MAKES ME VOMIT! HE IS MORE DESPICABLE THAN THE WORST CRIMINAL! I HATE GOD BECAUSE HE CREATED ME, AND I WILL HATE GOD FOREVERMORE BECAUSE HE WILL NOT OBLITERATE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! I used to lift my open hands up and worship him in praise, but now I lift up my fist

It's always easier to find someone else to blame our circumstances on. It keeps you from having to accept the responsibility for your own life. This way, you don't need to do anything to change. You don't need to change your attitude. You don't need to make any choices. After all, it's all someone else's fault. So go ahead and keep up with the self-pity routine.
If God did not exist, then who would you blame things on?

 

[BOJAX]

Whenever I feel the same way, the thought that comforts me is thinking that I am only participating and sharing the sufferings of Christ. It almost makes me feel proud to share in His sufferings, because Christ was 100% perfect. Everybody knew it but still doubted Him. He suffered and was tortured because of it. His own disciples turn against Him. Until they finally crucified Him. Even there on the cross another one who was crucified was taunting Him. He never did die in peace. The power of Satan is so great yet so weak at the same time. Christ gave us the authority through Him to crush Satan with nothing more than belief and faith. Remember when Jesus was on the cross and called out to God asking Him why He had forsaken Him? That was Satan trying to tell Jesus, the Son of God, 100% perfect, that God had forsaken Him. That's how powerful Satan can be if you let Him. Whether this helps or not I dunno. All I know is that there have been times, even a few days ago, that I wanted God to take me away from this place. Then I get to thinking that I am only sharing in the sufferings of Christ, and how happy I will be when I prevail. And I WILL prevail. How can one be happy without being unhappy anyway? Without one there is no other. Christ saved me from a possible life of unhappiness. He was trying to save me even before I came to Him. I wouldn't listen because I was too stubborn. I wanted it to go my way because I thought I'd be happier if things went my way. He saved me from people who betrayed me and I will be forever grateful. I don't even think I am even worthy to say that I shared the same tribulations as Christ. because what I went through is NOTHING compared to what he went through. he had the power to do anything he wanted yet chose to take it just to save sinners like us.

-Jamie

 

[TheSensitive1]

See, you have got to understand that God loves you!!!
I am not certain about ANYTHING in this world BUT I can 100% garentee that GOD LOVES YOU & GOD IS 100% LOVE AND FORGIVING!!! .
See the evil one wants us to be angry at God when things happen wrong. BUT that is just it.....That is when you tell the the evil one to step behind and you turn to the Lord...have faith in Him. GOD LOVES YOU.....HE MADE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SEE recently my boss has given me a vacation bonus every year and this year he is not ONLY so his wife can take a vacation and he can get a new car......
MY FATHER COULD CARE less!!!....Like a little girl who could not have her way I got hurt and did not pray that night....instead I went ahead and called my counselor and complained. I told her that my roommate has it all ONCE AGAIN and look at me. The next day something ELSE bad happened.....well so this got me to thinking.....GOD WANTS ME TO LIKE THE THINGS THAT HE HAS GIVEN TO ME... my health...a roof over my head.... a computer to come and talk with you all.... my little stuffed animals....ect! I KNOW AND KNOW AND KNOW....that God did NOT do this to hurt me he did this because he loves me. GOD IS MY FATHER....HE ALWAYS LOVES ME
GOD WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU MY FRIEND...THAT IS A FACT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Peace....and my prayers are with you!!!

 

[HoosierCanuck]

What is so horribly wrong in your life that has you at this point?

 

[TheSensitive1]

......This may help you Cursed_Life. At least I PRAY!!!! REMEMBER GOD LOVES YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

[Gracie710]

Would you be willing to share what has made you so angry with God, if not details, then the gist of it?

I think most Christians who have a good mind go through some of the same struggles of belief that you do. You say that you see Christians with la-dee-da lives who seem to be blessed and never go through anything, but looks can be deceiving. If someone looked at my life right now, they might think I was one of those people. But if I told them my life story, they would be astounded and amazed by how happy and peaceful I am, because I've been through some horrible things. And I am happy and blessed because I pressed through my anger at God to believe -- despite evidence to the contrary -- that He loves me, even though he allowed me to suffer some pretty devastating things.

I'm sorry that your relationship with Him is broken. That's a terrible place to be, separated from fellowship with Him. I hope you are able to break through this with Him. Strangely enough, your honesty is probably what will allow you to break through it in the end.

Peace and blessings to you.

 

[goliwog]

If I could put God into hell and burn him forever, I would! God is NOT loving, his “grace” is nonexistent, and he cares NOTHING for those who cry out to him! He puts us through so much hell because he is only seeking his own glory, NOT our well-being! If he DID care for us he would see our tears, feel our heartache, know our despair, hear our cries, provide for our needs, protect us from harm, and actually answer our prayers that we pray for YEARS that are NOT wrongful prayers! But, you see, he WILL do that for some believers while he will NOT help others who love him just as much or more! And he NEVER cared one bit for me and no matter how much I ever loved him, believed in his son, sought him in love, loved his church, prayed to him on my knees with all my faith and haert, worshipped him with all my heart, loved him with every part of my being, and tried ALL I COULD to obey him and to be a pleasing creature to him, he STILL cared NOTHING for me! Yaweh is a selfish, glory-seeking tyrant, the grand-master of his giant strategic chess game in which I am but a pawn to be disposed of, and the only reason he is good to some and an almighty oppressor to others is because he loves some and wants to hurt others CONSTANTLY without end, all for his grandiose glory-trip! When I cried out, he NEVER heard me! When I asked for help, he always kept me in a dark pit! I spent years in the hellish pits of depression and despair, and I cried each day and night and begged him for help, and he did NOT care! All I feel in my heart is HATRED toward the almighty tyrant! HE NEEDS TO DIE AND BURN IN HELL! HE NEEDS TO BE REMOVED FROM POWER, AND ANOTHER BEING WHO CARES FOR US ALL MUST BE INSTALLED ON THE THRONE INSTEAD! YAWEH IS MORE WORTHLESS THAN THE DIRT UNDER MY FEET! HE IS MORE REPUGNANT THAN WHAT MAKES ME VOMIT! HE IS MORE DESPICABLE THAN THE WORST CRIMINAL! I HATE GOD BECAUSE HE CREATED ME, AND I WILL HATE GOD FOREVERMORE BECAUSE HE WILL NOT OBLITERATE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! I used to lift my open hands up and worship him in praise, but now I lift up my fist with my middle finger extended!

This is a very deep subject ... but let me ask you are you blamming God for what satan has done ? Think about it who caused us top live a life of sin ? wasnt it satan ? Satan is the reason we are seperated from God and jesus suffered a cruel death , the heart aches ect for us to have a chance of reconciliation.

God is not a man that he should lie and seperating yourself from him will never introduce you to his love. Bad things happen as a result of our own actions and prayers are answered but in the time were it suits most . God is not like a crystal ball that you can twinkle and get immediate aswers he wants humanity to improve. The world is dieing and is going to die and that is the result of our own rebellion Jesus offers a solution for the trouble we have put purself in.