Yes I really do love God and I really do have a relationship with Him.
However I am so fed up with people.
All most of them have done is screw me over and treat me like dung.
I know people here are going to want more specifics so I'll clarify.
I get no say in anything with my living situation; I am the one who chose to move in, so it's their way or the highway. The person is extremely reluctant and inflexible with compromise. I realize it's their house and their rules, and I live under their roof. However their rules effect me, and I just want a small say in the rules, I don't want to change them completely to suit my favor.
I get no support with my goals; I am told incessantly they are a complete waste of time pointless and meaningless and will basically accomplish nothing. I am constantly at odds, clashing and getting into arguments, because we don't see eye-to-eye on this at all.
Most of my life has consisted of verbal and emotional abuse, some intentional, some not.
I am honest of past experiences with past interactions of my life experiences as well as being honest of past experiences with interactions with Christians.
All I'm doing is being honest (it's my life so I know what experiences and interactions I've had with Christians). I get accused of blaming them when all I'm doing is being honest.
I'm real about my problems and because it's not a happy and pleasant warm and fuzzy message like Christians want to hear, I get accused of whining and complaining.
Many Christians have this delusional and unrealistic view on life that if you exhaust all your resources and use all the opportunities God provides and try as hard as you can, that your disposal things will work out. This aggravates me to no end; that's because it's not not reality and this isn't a utopia.
Sometimes you can try until you're blue in the face and do everything you're supposed to and things still don't work out; it's not being negative it's the reality of a fallen world which is full of disappointment and failure.
I've been rejected and endured loads of stigma; I'm not playing the role of victim, again this has been the reality of a lot of my life experiences.
I've seen many Christians have this mentality that you have to do 'a b and c' to be worthy and deserving of love, and if you don't fit their huge laundry list of requirements you don't deserve love. This really irritates me because Jesus doesn't do that, so what gives them the right to do that?!
I realize Christians aren't human and will fail make mistakes etc. but when they use the line of "christians are humans too and we make mistakes' incessantly as the answer it's like they're just using it as an excuse to be complacent.
Even God expects accountability.
I have not had good treatment with a lot of people in my life so I don't see any reason to trust them or like them.
I have become accustomed to being treated badly by many (NOT ALL) people.
I am so sick of this that my reaction is to immediately respond in anger because I am fed up. I don't have infinite patience.
However I am so fed up with people.
All most of them have done is screw me over and treat me like dung.
I know people here are going to want more specifics so I'll clarify.
I get no say in anything with my living situation; I am the one who chose to move in, so it's their way or the highway. The person is extremely reluctant and inflexible with compromise. I realize it's their house and their rules, and I live under their roof. However their rules effect me, and I just want a small say in the rules, I don't want to change them completely to suit my favor.
I get no support with my goals; I am told incessantly they are a complete waste of time pointless and meaningless and will basically accomplish nothing. I am constantly at odds, clashing and getting into arguments, because we don't see eye-to-eye on this at all.
Most of my life has consisted of verbal and emotional abuse, some intentional, some not.
I am honest of past experiences with past interactions of my life experiences as well as being honest of past experiences with interactions with Christians.
All I'm doing is being honest (it's my life so I know what experiences and interactions I've had with Christians). I get accused of blaming them when all I'm doing is being honest.
I'm real about my problems and because it's not a happy and pleasant warm and fuzzy message like Christians want to hear, I get accused of whining and complaining.
Many Christians have this delusional and unrealistic view on life that if you exhaust all your resources and use all the opportunities God provides and try as hard as you can, that your disposal things will work out. This aggravates me to no end; that's because it's not not reality and this isn't a utopia.
Sometimes you can try until you're blue in the face and do everything you're supposed to and things still don't work out; it's not being negative it's the reality of a fallen world which is full of disappointment and failure.
I've been rejected and endured loads of stigma; I'm not playing the role of victim, again this has been the reality of a lot of my life experiences.
I've seen many Christians have this mentality that you have to do 'a b and c' to be worthy and deserving of love, and if you don't fit their huge laundry list of requirements you don't deserve love. This really irritates me because Jesus doesn't do that, so what gives them the right to do that?!
I realize Christians aren't human and will fail make mistakes etc. but when they use the line of "christians are humans too and we make mistakes' incessantly as the answer it's like they're just using it as an excuse to be complacent.
Even God expects accountability.
I have not had good treatment with a lot of people in my life so I don't see any reason to trust them or like them.
I have become accustomed to being treated badly by many (NOT ALL) people.
I am so sick of this that my reaction is to immediately respond in anger because I am fed up. I don't have infinite patience.