I had a relapse last night. I have been doing well the past six months. In fact I hadn't be drunk once. I was finally getting to the point I could accept one drink when out with friends. I could have a single drink without the urge of getting drunk.
But my mistake came last night. I was having a good day. It was hot out and I wanted to have a hard lemonade. Against my better judgment I picked up a 12 pack. It was a new kind I hadn't tried before: smaller 8 oz cans but a stronger drink at 8% alcohol.
For some reason I lost control. I must have drank 8 cans in three hours. I realized I drank too much. I had the urge to keep drinking. Not wanted to make things worse I went to bed. I sleep soundly through the night and didn't vomit. But I woke up feeling horrible. My head hurt, I felt nauseous and I was severely dehydrated.
I don't think I looked hung over. Thankfully I never get the bloodshot eyes so it isn't obvious that I've been drinking. But I felt so guilty in church today since I lost control. It made me feel ashamed and disappointed in myself.
I'm upset that I messed up six months of sobriety. I thought I was able to handle a drink on occasion. Last night proved me wrong. I don't think I can drink even in moderation because I never know when I'll lose control.
Thanks for any help or advice. I vow to be better and I hate feeling like this. It's late in the afternoon and I still feel sick.
But my mistake came last night. I was having a good day. It was hot out and I wanted to have a hard lemonade. Against my better judgment I picked up a 12 pack. It was a new kind I hadn't tried before: smaller 8 oz cans but a stronger drink at 8% alcohol.
For some reason I lost control. I must have drank 8 cans in three hours. I realized I drank too much. I had the urge to keep drinking. Not wanted to make things worse I went to bed. I sleep soundly through the night and didn't vomit. But I woke up feeling horrible. My head hurt, I felt nauseous and I was severely dehydrated.
I don't think I looked hung over. Thankfully I never get the bloodshot eyes so it isn't obvious that I've been drinking. But I felt so guilty in church today since I lost control. It made me feel ashamed and disappointed in myself.
I'm upset that I messed up six months of sobriety. I thought I was able to handle a drink on occasion. Last night proved me wrong. I don't think I can drink even in moderation because I never know when I'll lose control.
Thanks for any help or advice. I vow to be better and I hate feeling like this. It's late in the afternoon and I still feel sick.