Yesterday i went to mackinac city. It was fun, but as I was buying a sweatshirt that said Mackinac on it, i don't know why, but i saw a, um, tool and so i just went ahead and bought it. it was an implusive decision and i'm not sure why i did it, but for the rest of the trip i was...really triggered for some reason. like just having it was triggering.
My friend Alyssa didn't really get what the problem was, so i told her it was just that time of the month.
anyway as soon as i got home i called my sister, Jacq, and it took like, 3 hours, and we prayed a lot, and she kept asking her friends to pray too...'cause i was like, shaking, and, yeah.
anyway, i wrapped the tool in duct tape. (like, a roll and a half of it. dad's gonna killme when he finds out) and then JAcq had me write myself a letter telling myself to get rid of it in the morning. So like, i wrote myself a letter telling myself i was giong to go throw it in Lake Superior ('cause ya know God's gonna take our sins to the bottom of the ocean.)
so today i took the dog with me and i read the bible and prayed a lot and i threw it in and the duct tape made it float. i started crying when i thought it might float back to shore but then it sank. still, i had to make sure it was gone, so i ran up and downt he shroelooking for it.
and then i sang, and i went home. so, yeah. Its gone. and i gave everything to Him. last night, i gave him everything. my life, my cutting, everything.
My friend Alyssa didn't really get what the problem was, so i told her it was just that time of the month.
anyway as soon as i got home i called my sister, Jacq, and it took like, 3 hours, and we prayed a lot, and she kept asking her friends to pray too...'cause i was like, shaking, and, yeah.
anyway, i wrapped the tool in duct tape. (like, a roll and a half of it. dad's gonna killme when he finds out) and then JAcq had me write myself a letter telling myself to get rid of it in the morning. So like, i wrote myself a letter telling myself i was giong to go throw it in Lake Superior ('cause ya know God's gonna take our sins to the bottom of the ocean.)
so today i took the dog with me and i read the bible and prayed a lot and i threw it in and the duct tape made it float. i started crying when i thought it might float back to shore but then it sank. still, i had to make sure it was gone, so i ran up and downt he shroelooking for it.
and then i sang, and i went home. so, yeah. Its gone. and i gave everything to Him. last night, i gave him everything. my life, my cutting, everything.