I feel so lost..help?

[secretsister16]

I started smoking weed my freshman year, after coming out of a deep dark period of depression, cutting, and suicidal tendencies. During this year, the darkness of the past 2-3 years was finally coming to light. My sophomore year was also a year of substantial growth. I moved into a separate part of my high school called the Career Academies that aid in my pursuit of becoming a neonatal practitioner. This put me in classes with completely different people, mostly those who are focused on school, and who have nothing to do with partying or drugs. But, my habit of smoking everyday after school remained the same, and I felt my self inclined or partying due to the fact that I sat with "my friends" (who were involved with such activities) during lunch. I slowly started to realize that the next step I needed to take was to forgo my comfort zone, and eat somewhere else. I made the huge step of eating lunch alone in the library, and although it was hard to leave my friends behind, I was one step closer to a cleaner life style.

I finally was able to throw my pipe in the trash, hoping to keep it there for good. This was also during the most difficult part of my life. On day, I broke down, and I almost went back for the pipe, but I turned to god instead. This day I was saved!
Although this was the beginning of an intimate relationship with God, I wasn't able to keep the pipe in the trash. It's been a year and 6 months since I was saved, and due to my resistance to leave behind that nasty habit, my relationship with God started to become more and more distant. I need something, I'm not sure what, but something to make me quit. I don't know what to do. I feel like I can't have that intimate relationship with god again until I leave this habit behind, but I can't find it within my self to do it without him. Help? I miss the relationship I once had with him. I feel so lost now

 

[miss-a]

I'm sorry for what you're going through, but I want you to know that the Lord always makes a way. Here is one that I know of, an organization that offers free programs/online courses to help people get free from addictions. The last I knew they had mentors that would work with you onine as you went through the program, and I know they still have one for substance abuse. Here's the link: Substance Abuse - Setting Captives Free

Please remember that the Lord wants to help you. He looks upon you with compassion and wants you set free. So hang on to Him. Read your Bible. Listen to Christian music, and talk to Him. Tell Him everything you feel, desire, fear. He wants to heal your heart and talking to and giving your cares over to Him is one way He does that.

Do check out the link above. I think it can help you. Also, grab the yellow pages and call local churches and see if they have support groups for substance abuse. Some do, and having local support would help you. Even if churches in your area don't have any groups. All areas have AA groups and the principles are the same with any addiction, so they could help you as well, and they are in the phone book.

Praying for you, and I'm sure others will as well,

A

 

[RuthD]

Does the amount of money spent on pot bother you? That's why I quit and also it made me eat so very very much.