I feel angry

[FallenDaughter]

I feel as though I am going nuts, I am not myself, I am normally a happy person in love with my husband and girls, now I am angry all the time, I am constanly yelling at, or fighting with them. I am going to be seeing my doctor on Monday about this, and will hopefully get some help, but I really hate who I am becoming. This happened to me 3 years ago when I was pregnant with my oldest DD, and it is happening to me again, my youngest is 9 months. My MIL swears it is just hormones because my cycle has been gone for 18 months. I know it iis more than just hormones, because not only am I angry all the time I want to hurt those who are closest to me, maybe not physically, though the idea has flitted through my mind, but emotionally and mentally, and I hate that even more, because my girls are so young, I really don't want them to think that mommy is some crazy mean person. I feel traped inmyself if that makes any sense at all.

anyway thanks for listening.

 

[GrannieAnnie]

Sounds like it could be post natal depression to me. I think you're right to go see the doctor. Tell him EVERYTHING....and you're not the first mother in the world who's thought about hurting their family...and hated herself for having such thoughts. Between now and when you see the doctor...be aware of yourself, walk away if you have to, but don't scream at the family anymore....reverse it....try real hard to turn the scream into a hug instead. The doctor will help you. Hang in there honey, you'll be ok .....xxxxx Annie

 

[FallenDaughter]

Thanks.

 

[Melbelle]

Hon, it sounds like PPD to me, I went through this very thing after I had seth, and can hit you anywhere between the a month after giving birth, to a year. There are some Online tests around the net, you should try to take one and see your score.

 

[suzybeezy]

I am praying for you and will continue to. Let us know how things are going. I'm here if you need me. hugs