I don't trust myself.....

[Quiet Storm]

First of all, praise report: I'm finally living life. I'm enjoying studying, I know that music is where I belong, I have hobbies, friends, etc. I'm very thankful. BUT:

My blessing is kind of resulting in uncertainty on my part. I'm not obsessing over religion anymore. Now mind you that God is first place still, but for years I've been so obsessed with what am I doing wrong and I have to be perfect, etc. I never focused on my school work because I thought it was more or less a sin, I was afraid to acquire deep knowledge and expand on the mind I've been blessed with because I was afraid of becoming arrogant and forgetting God. I'm no longer worried about God holding me under a microscope and just waiting for me to mess up so that I'll be struck down with lightning. I know that's not the truth. But now that I'm actually being a person without these worries, it makes me wonder: this is completely new to me. All I've known is obsessing about being perfect and now that I'm on my way to focusing on other things other than the Bible 24-7, I'm unsure. Sure I'm stoked that I can fulfill my desires, but I don't want to lose my focus on God. I don't want to stop reading the Bible, I don't want to stop praying, I don't want to stop God from being the center of every decision in my life. What I need is prayer support that God will comfort me in the fact that even though I'm going out and living and putting my attention on schoolwork, practice, etc., I'm still going to be lead by Him. Having a life is really new to me. I just don't want to stop being His sheep. Thanks.

QS

 

[Hopeful]

i know what you mean, i dont think we can ever be perfect though, only Jesus can be perfect
i dont know if this will help but he loves you no matter what
[font=Verdana, Arial, Helvetica] Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is life not more important than food and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life.
Matthew 6:25-27 NIV[/font]

 

[Snowy]

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[drdeancrosby]

Quiet I'm guessing that what is filling you with such concern and uncertainity is an emotional distance from Jesus.This will be overcome dramatically in your life,once you receive,through prayer,the baptism (or a new infilling if you have received it previously)of the Holy Spirit.Jesus talks about this in John 3:3-9.

 

[seangoh]

QuietStorm..got one thing to say to u. "Brace yourself like a man; " Job 38:3

Just be faithful and the rest will fall into place.

 

[Mr.Cheese]

I think you're doing what God loves seeing you do. He made you someone with gifts, talents and passions. Use them. We're here to live life. Just remember to give credit to Whom credit is due.

 

[Sharky]

K that post was a liiiitle weird but i'll try my best .

I'ma thinking that you're trying to priorotize things but there's so many things to keep together it's hard.

One sentence: Follow God and keep your spirit healthy. Romans says that physical excercise is good but spritual excercise is better because it extends to everything else. So if your trying to keep balance between say, your calling, music composition, maybe studies, remember to keep your spirit healthy before doing those things. Otherwise you'll end up low and feeling unfufilled.

For me, i thank God everyday that He's given me a dream to fufill. (still a long way away ). I go forth and continue in His path praising Him all the time and you should too. There's no need to feel guilty that you've got a calling. Just don't get so caught up in it you lose focus on God. I've done that a few times and I had to step back, look at where i'm at and fix myself up before moving forward.