I don't care!

[dabro]

Isn't that what we all want. to not care anymore whether our anxiety is high or our obsessions seems so real. I today spiked, twice. the 1st one I kinda let go. the second one was a lit'l more angry. So I called my mom up and was looking for reassurance and it kinda helped me honestly. Now I'm just like I don't care what you say I am. Dead or at God's judgement or maybe I'm sleeping and have passed away 4 yrs ago when I tried to commite suicide. Who know's right? But I know who I put my trust in and that's Christ. 4 yrs ago I went thru a psychosis that was drug induced. I thought that I died. Plagued with voices tell this day that tell me I'm done. But wisdom is proven right by all her children. Guy's your just going to have to let go. This OCD is not as big as it makes you feel. I hope my words on here will help someone in need.

 

[dabro]

Well I'm not backing down or anything but I could use some support. It's a scary thought to think you have died and lost everything. even tho I have the answer right in front of me that, that is not true. My OCD say's it is. But I'm kinda just dealing with it. And guy's I need your prayers also. I have not been to church in like 3 months. I have a addiction to Benzo's ever since I found out that they helped so much when I didn't know how combat OCD but now it's just a monkey on my back. I hope thru this spike it will bring me closer to God and not make me feel as tho I'm already done and I'm just waiting for him to say the words, Depart from me.

 

[JohnnieGuy]

If we confess our sins, He is faithful to forgive us and cleanse us if all unrighteousness.

Praying for ya.

 

[dabro]

Hey guys I got it. I may have OCD but what I'm having is flashbacks. It makes so much sense cos this feels like my pychosis but I'm not all terrified. Thanks dad for showing that to me. And God and Jesus of coarse love them dearly. But I'll still continue to help you guys out. You Guys are my brothers and sisters and I love yall.

 

[dabro]

As you can see I'm a lit'l off today but I really do think I have OCD, also flashbacks which trigger spikes of anxiety. Cos my obsession is so uniqe but I'll trust in God today and pray that I'll get over this hump.

 

[annrobert]

Dabro,
You are a real blessing on here and a real encouragement to all of us here.It sounds like you have been through so much.Those kinds of obsessions and spikes must be very hard .Your trust and leaning on Jesus is very inspiring.Jesus will always keep and protect you ,and He is holding you in His hand.I pray Jesus continues His healing of you and helps you grow stronger every day as I know He is doing.Thankyou for all your encouraging posts.
annrobert

 

[gracealone]

Hi Dabro,
You're doing a good job, even though it feels awful. Feeling doomed and cast off thankfully doesn't mean we are. Your attitude of riding it out and doing your level best to ignore the spikes and to just press on in your determined effort to live out your faith by your walk is praiseworthy.
I'll be praying for you that God will help you over this hump and also give you the strength and perseverance you need to overcome the benzo addiction. I hope you're not beating yourself up about that. It happens to a lot of people who need those drugs for their disorder. Guilt won't help - just a determined effort to get all the help you need with it.
So glad to hear from you!
Mitzi

As you can see I'm a lit'l off today but I really do think I have OCD, also flashbacks which trigger spikes of anxiety. Cos my obsession is so uniqe but I'll trust in God today and pray that I'll get over this hump.

 

[keryakos]

Daniel I love you ..I really do you are a man of strong faith even though you might not think so ..actually i am envious of you ..because i wish that i had that confidence in God ..You are a beautiful soul Daniel AND God is using you in a mighty way on this site .

Will you pray for me that i will be able to let go and trust ?

I am going to be praying for you that God will grant you clarity and comfort

Andy

 

[dabro]

Yes, Andy I will pray for you and thank you all for the encoureging words. Today the anxiety is a lit'l high but I'm leaning on God for strenghth.