Hi fellow bros and sis in Christ, am grateful that I God chose me to be his child 6 years ago, knowing that I could find hope and peace I'll never had before in a loving God.
Let me just share my story, I was molested when I was 5 to about 10 years old by my uncle. This creates confusion in my mind, especially when I came to puberty. I remembered in my junior high school, around 13 yo, I had attraction towards boys. I didn't dare to say to anyone about this, not even my parents, this this online site is the only one I can share my pain. I'm broken again as I shared this story. The problem only got worse as I grew up 16,17--and time passed so fast I'm going to be 20 this year. My sexual orientation has not changed, my sexuality still deeply trapped in that 13 years of me. Not just that I'm interested in boys but the age group also remain stagnant, so I'm sure I'm more than a gay.
You know what bro and sis in, I just feel like going back to the past and protect that young person of mine. I didn't realized I was abused back then till I am a little older, I know it wasn't God's fault. Thinking about it now and then always made me choke in tears as to why this had to happen to me.
As for me, hurting another child will never come across my mind, just one me is enough.
One thing for sure now that I had hope in God, and I really desire to change, I know He can for surely.
I'm the first Christian in my family, God has drew Himself near me when I look for a true God in midst of my problem 6 years back, since then I'm so thankful.
If you don't mind may I ask you a prayer for me about this, thank you so much for your time, may Jesus bless you richly.
I believe " For where two or three come in my Name, there am I with them" Matthew 18:20
With love,
Anthony
You bro in Christ.
Let me just share my story, I was molested when I was 5 to about 10 years old by my uncle. This creates confusion in my mind, especially when I came to puberty. I remembered in my junior high school, around 13 yo, I had attraction towards boys. I didn't dare to say to anyone about this, not even my parents, this this online site is the only one I can share my pain. I'm broken again as I shared this story. The problem only got worse as I grew up 16,17--and time passed so fast I'm going to be 20 this year. My sexual orientation has not changed, my sexuality still deeply trapped in that 13 years of me. Not just that I'm interested in boys but the age group also remain stagnant, so I'm sure I'm more than a gay.
You know what bro and sis in, I just feel like going back to the past and protect that young person of mine. I didn't realized I was abused back then till I am a little older, I know it wasn't God's fault. Thinking about it now and then always made me choke in tears as to why this had to happen to me.
As for me, hurting another child will never come across my mind, just one me is enough.
One thing for sure now that I had hope in God, and I really desire to change, I know He can for surely.
I'm the first Christian in my family, God has drew Himself near me when I look for a true God in midst of my problem 6 years back, since then I'm so thankful.
If you don't mind may I ask you a prayer for me about this, thank you so much for your time, may Jesus bless you richly.
I believe " For where two or three come in my Name, there am I with them" Matthew 18:20
With love,
Anthony
You bro in Christ.
