I can't sleep.

71SMILEY26 said:

I'm a Christian, I once had a relationship with God. I don't know what has happened, but I can't feel his love. I feel eaten up inside like I lost my love. As if God had broken up with me. I can't eat, sleep, enjoy anything anymore. I don't even feel the comfort of God's spirit. I'm really scared, and feel really empty inside. I pray and pray, listen to music, worship but I can't fe Gods love. The only thing I can think of is he probably gave up on me. [The relationship you speak of should be a consideration, friend. Did you receive God's "great salvation" in His beloved Son, or just decide to be friendly toward God and try to follow God's teachings? This is a critical matter here.]

The only problem I can think of is because I fell short, was upset at God and made poor choices. I was lonely at the time. Its been going on for a couple of weeks now and its driving me crazy. I even have suicidal thoughts, I really can't keep this up. My emptiness is really taking over me, my soul feels broken and my bones feel like its crushing me. My heart is so numb, I want to receive Gods love but unable to. [Without the "new birth" from God, one does not have a relationship --I am not judging you, just stating a fact. Be sure you are not just a disciple (follower), and have truly become a "child of God" by faith and devotion to the Savior --the Lord Jesus Christ (note John 14:6). If one has been quickened ( awakened to God, which it seems you may have been) then you need to receive the Savior, which is Jesus Christ in your heart --be sure of that. His presence will seal you by the Holy Spirit from God and you will find peace.]

Will God bring me back, and break down the walls within my heart? I really don't feel like living right now, nothing interests me no more. I know God but grew away from him by the cares of this world, and now understand the errors of my ways. I only need Jesus in my life! Will God ever heal me or has he given up on me. Please help. I don't like feeling this way./quote] [Something is a hindrance for you, and it sounds to me like you may not have moved beyond just being a follower (see John 6:66-69), which is falling short of salvation. Your hope will be in trust and communion with the Lord Jesus, then you can go forth in peace with Him as your best friend; and God-the Father will bless you. Look up always!]

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