I cant cope with this grief!

[Jennn21]

Hey im new, i just saw this forum on the search and thought i would try and find some help! Its easier to write down this rather than tell strangers face to face.

I lost my dad a few weeks ago (5th August, Funeral was 21st Aug) He was 57 years old not a poorly man so it was a huge huge shock. They dont know what he died of and have opened an investigation, they thought it was tb but they say it looks like he just gave up! He was getting up for work one morning and fell back and gone.

I lived 350 miles away from him with my mum and step dad and saw him several times a year! He was an incredible person and i love him more than all the love in the world times infinity. I just dont know what to do! I hurt so so badly i cant think about it coz my heart cracks in seconds.

Im not going out/havent seen friends since i got back from the funeral. I dont have job and trying to find the strength to find a job i just cant seem to do. Im in my bedroom 24/7 only really go out to get food. My mum and step dad are always there to talk to but just leave me to be in my room, i cant cry out for help to them because they seem to ignore it. I really dont know what to do!

I cant deal without him. Id give anything to have him here. I cant cope with this pain it hurts soooooooooooo bad. I dont sleep i mean its 4am here at the moment. Im exhaused throught the day I sleep a few hours a day and when i do get a good nights sleep i wake up sobbing or screaming!! I cant handle it i really cant handle it


Im sorry that was abit long just really needed to vent this.

Thank you for reading

Jen

 

[womanofvalor]

Jen,
I'm so sorry you had to say goodbye to your dad so soon in his life. It's so hard to understand why the ones we love most are taken so soon before we are ready for them to leave us.
I have read much on the grieving process since our 23 year old daughter died suddenly in 2006. Crying is actually good because it gets the grief out. You do need someone to talk to. I hope you will keep trying to talk to your mom or a friend. Getting onto a grieving forum such as this will help too. There are others here who have lost dads and can tell you how they felt.
I lost my dad in 1996. We were also very, very close and I thought my world had ended. There came a time two years later when I realized my Heavenly Father-God would take over where my earthly dad left off and would love me so well. And He has!!!!
Don't give up, my dear friend. Keep going. It's o.k. to grieve and there are no time limits on grief.
come back and post here again. i know you will get support here.

 

[jg1007]

Hello:

I lost my wife two weeks ago. I know EXACTLY what you are going through. It is NEVER the right time to lose a loved one. And I know that although family and friends are there, our grief is also a very personal thing. No one can do it for us. We have to each go through our grieving process.

PLEASE, please know that I do understand what you are feeling. I am feeling it myself. I feel life my heart hurts 24 hours a day. Every time I see something or hear something, it reminds me of her, and I go through it all again, not believing she is no longer here.

I know it gets better, and I know that doesn't help much right now. Just know that there is someone out there in the world that knows what you are going through. Maybe we can help each other through this.

Take care,

John G.

 

[restore]

Your dad wants u keep on living happily on this earth , he loves u he wants u a good life.

 

[nette45]

i have not been sleeping that great.
i have been taking a lot of walks.
thank God for friends and family members who were able to talk to me on the phone for a couple of hrs.
my dad would come and stay but the gas prices were too high.
not only that my daycare business had to close down for a couple of months.

Our pappa God is always there for us. Ask him to take the pain away and replace it with his love for us.
I felt that void in my stomache when mom died .
He took it away.