Over the last 5 and a half years God has given me promises almost daily that he wants to reconcile me to a friend. (I've spoken of this before.) But I have had promises from the Word, He has spoken to my heart, I have had angelice visits (2x), I have had prophecies galore spoken over me, I have had words from friends and just an inner assurance that God wanted to do this reconciliantion for His glory. A little over a month ago things went from bad to worse. My friend who is in a cult situation used to try and contact me a couple of times per week per silent calls or emails (he was monitored from speaking) and we would see each other on the street and smile (no talking). This at least gave me hope but this last month and a half after five years of contact there has been almost no word from him. I don't know what happened. My daughter whom he used to speak with with no problem was refused entrance into his office and I feel like I did something but I don't know what it is. Anyway, I am very sad since I wanted my daughter to deliver a letter for me to him and since he has not contacted me after five and a half years, I feel like something is up. On top of this I tried to explain the situation to my pastor and he can not believe that one the church my friend is in is cultic and two that God would want me to wait this long to reconcile. He feels that it is useless to even believe. But I can't throw out all the promises and visions and words spoken to me. I have to believe. Yet it has never looked darker than today and I feel so alone and that there is no one who can help and even if there was that they would not have the sensitivity to help that maybe they'd say something that would make a bigger wall go up. I want a helper on one hand and am afraid to make matter worse on the other. But I miss my friend and want to speak to him. Last time I saw him about two months ago he not only smiled but cried. I don't know how to proceed and I don't want to miss being able to tell him I forgive and accept him. I think he is walking under guilt for the past and I just plain miss him and his friendship. What can I do?--Rose