I am so sick of crack

[loveiseverywhere]

I think I really hit bottom this time. I can't even put into words how I feel right now. On Monday night I went to see a friend and we partied til about two oclock tuesday afternoon. I went home and brought some stuff with me and called my boyfriend and told him to come get me cuz i didn't want to do it in my house, cuz i have a roommate. i took one rock with me to his house and when I did it I became so paranoid i thought i was going to literally die on the spot of pure fear. that's when I said, ENOUGH! I can't live like this. I still had a 100 dollar bill in my pocket and I didn't spend it. I went to sleep and woke up feeling like I might die of dehydration. I still feel like hell but I'm not broke and I'm not high today. I don't ever want to see, hear, smell, touch or think about crack cocaine ever again!

 

[LoG]

To what lengths are you willing to go for freedom from the addiction? That will tell you how low of a bottom you have hit.

 

[AngelDove1]

Hey girl,
I know the feeling oh to well.

Get some help.....please for your sake.

Go to some NA meetings and just listen.

Read some of jerry ralph's treads....
this guy carries a strong message.
His posts are on this tread.

If your sick and tierd,of being sick and tierd.
than maybe you have reached your rock bottem.

"God does for us what we can not do for ourselves" just ask Him.
"Let Go and Let God"

God bless you girl,my prayers are with you

 

[loveiseverywhere]

I basically just got to the point where my eyes were opened to all the damage I have done to my daughter, myself and my family. I can't bear to see them hurt anymore. I have finally stopped being selfish. I don't want to hurt anyone anymore.

 

[meh]

I basically just got to the point where my eyes were opened to all the damage I have done to my daughter, myself and my family. I can't bear to see them hurt anymore. I have finally stopped being selfish. I don't want to hurt anyone anymore.

That is sure the first step, loveiseverywhere...admitting the destruction and damage crack is causing. You are in my prayers. You are welcome to PM me anytime if you need support or anything else. I'm 14 years clean from crack. It can be done. God bless you

 

[loveiseverywhere]

That is sure the first step, loveiseverywhere...admitting the destruction and damage crack is causing. You are in my prayers. You are welcome to PM me anytime if you need support or anything else. I'm 14 years clean from crack. It can be done. God bless you

Thank you for your support. I'm glad to hear it can be done. I overcame heroin addiction a few years ago and I did it cold turkey. I just walked away. But this has been so much harder.

 

[Cassiopeia]

Thank you for your support. I'm glad to hear it can be done. I overcame heroin addiction a few years ago and I did it cold turkey. I just walked away. But this has been so much harder.

The problem is...you might have given up heroin but you just changed your drug of choice. You can go to NA and they will help you and you can also find out patient rehab centers who will get your footing on the right track. It is so important for you right now to take a long hard look at your loved ones. If for right now you can't do this for you...then do it for them. Espeically for your daughter...she looks up to you and needs you.

I watched my daughter go through recovery for crystal meth and it was the best thing she ever did. It has given her back much of her dignity and she is fulfilling her dreams every day now.

I wish you all the best.

 

[traingosorry]

Love,


How have you been?

 

[mebby02]

hun get off that stuff your going to ruin your life forever. If you keep doing it you will die and after a while you will turn crazy. So please get off that stuff go to addiction services. Please do something don't ruin your life like this talk to GOd pray to him get off that stuff asap!

 

[loveiseverywhere]

Hello everyone! I just wanted to post an update. I celebrated four monthns clean by picking up a 4 month chip at my AA home group on Monday night!

I go to AA 3 nights a week (In the beginning I went 6-7 nights a week). I have a sponsor and am on my 6th step now!

 

[LoG]

Thanks for the update Loveis and congratulations.

 

[loveiseverywhere]

I started by going to AA six nights a week with the girls in the recovery home I lived at for two months. It established a good habit for me and enabled me to get a sponsor and work the steps.

 

[newleaf]

I started by going to AA six nights a week with the girls in the recovery home I lived at for two months. It established a good habit for me and enabled me to get a sponsor and work the steps.

A recovery home sounds like a good way to get clean-time, as well as to fight temptation, whenever it rears it's head.

 

[Amin]

That's one thing that got me to stop taking LSD.
I had such a bad trip that i thought i was dying. I had severe flashbacks that about crippled me for a year.
I think it still affects me slightly to this day.

If you were really paranoid, it's time to just quit, it will be even worse the next time.
We like to think we can do anything without anything bad happening to us.
I found that not to be true.
Chuck.