I have been hurtful to myself in different ways. These ways changed overtime. Once I found the Lord, I started healing. Episodes began to get further and further apart. They are still getting further apart.
I learned that my thingking (I think unconsciously) is a trigger. I learned that being aware of my thoughts I could pin point my triggers and stay away from those thoughts. I was taught that feelings don't always mean fact. Sometimes I might feel afraid but I really had nothing to be afraid of. I have Jesus. The Lord is my shepard and I will not want nor fear.
Thoughts triggered feelings of pain that triggered an episode. Before I found the Lord, I really didn't know how to get the pain out. I found Jesus and I could let it all out to him with no shame. Such a cleansing. Now when I feel emotional pain I am learning to sit with it because I have grown strong in Jesus. I try hard to stay present in the Lord. It's like falling in love with someone and they are on your mind. That is what I strive for in Jesus. Standing in His presence all the time. When I run into conflicts at work, I start looking for crosses in the ceilings of the buildings, or in the walls of the buildings, or on the ground. Look for the cross right now where ever you are. How many crosses do you see. Jesus is everywhere, He is in me, He is outside of me, He is in front of me, beside me, and behind me. I will not fear cuz I chose Jesus. I will not fear because I believe in my Lord.
Faith can move mountains. Where there is faith there is healing.
God bless each and every one of you. Never give up. Victory is in Jesus.
Inhisgripkim
I learned that my thingking (I think unconsciously) is a trigger. I learned that being aware of my thoughts I could pin point my triggers and stay away from those thoughts. I was taught that feelings don't always mean fact. Sometimes I might feel afraid but I really had nothing to be afraid of. I have Jesus. The Lord is my shepard and I will not want nor fear.
Thoughts triggered feelings of pain that triggered an episode. Before I found the Lord, I really didn't know how to get the pain out. I found Jesus and I could let it all out to him with no shame. Such a cleansing. Now when I feel emotional pain I am learning to sit with it because I have grown strong in Jesus. I try hard to stay present in the Lord. It's like falling in love with someone and they are on your mind. That is what I strive for in Jesus. Standing in His presence all the time. When I run into conflicts at work, I start looking for crosses in the ceilings of the buildings, or in the walls of the buildings, or on the ground. Look for the cross right now where ever you are. How many crosses do you see. Jesus is everywhere, He is in me, He is outside of me, He is in front of me, beside me, and behind me. I will not fear cuz I chose Jesus. I will not fear because I believe in my Lord.
Faith can move mountains. Where there is faith there is healing.
God bless each and every one of you. Never give up. Victory is in Jesus.
Inhisgripkim
