i am addicted to everything

[sparkle123]

That is a bit of a joke. Just a bit. It seems like when I get one problem under control, another crops up. I've had issues with food, relationships, alcohol, drugs, and shopping. How many 12 step fellowships should I join? Ugh. It's kind of exhausting. Can anyone relate?

I'm doing ok right now, just struggling a bit with shopping. Food is mostly under control, haven't drank in 6 months. I'm still married and we are doing ok currently.

It feels like recovery is going to be a full time, huge job. I need some positive motivation, 'cause I'm not sure I can do it. It seems like if I don't choose to recover, I won't grow closer to Christ. I want that more than I want to buy new clothing, eat my feelings, drink myself numb, or complain about my husband. So.. time to get to work..

 

[SHETALKSTOANGELS]

Me me, pick me !!!!!!!
Totally relate. Not only do I have binge eating disorder that has relentlessly taken over my life for more than 3 decades, I have a shopping addiction that is crazy, I shop every single day on Ebay, thankfully I don't smoke, drink or take illegal drugs, if I did, I would go mad or jump off the Brooklyn Bridge, the eating disorder alone is nearly killing me. I went thru a 5 month program from 9 am - 3 pm every day and left the clinic heavier than when I went in.

I know God can heal me, but so far no joy. Not sure if it is because I am too rotten of a person or not consistent enough in my prayers, or what, but I've had it.

So, I so so know what you are going thru.

 

[believeume]

That is a bit of a joke. Just a bit. It seems like when I get one problem under control, another crops up. I've had issues with food, relationships, alcohol, drugs, and shopping. How many 12 step fellowships should I join? Ugh. It's kind of exhausting. Can anyone relate?

I'm doing ok right now, just struggling a bit with shopping. Food is mostly under control, haven't drank in 6 months. I'm still married and we are doing ok currently.

It feels like recovery is going to be a full time, huge job. I need some positive motivation, 'cause I'm not sure I can do it. It seems like if I don't choose to recover, I won't grow closer to Christ. I want that more than I want to buy new clothing, eat my feelings, drink myself numb, or complain about my husband. So.. time to get to work..

Right now I'm sitting here with a sick emotional pain, it is mine. I've done something that can't be turned around. Oh I can blame the porn, oh I can blame the drugs, oh I can blame my mental illness, oh I can blame my uncontrollable anger when I'm cornered in a no win situation.

(All of a sudden "I want a new drug" is playing on the radio)

But I'd rather explore this state I'm going through now, and learn how to overcome what it is that is hurting.

But soon I'll have to do something about the pain, but I'll choose what and how much I need. But only enough to relieve the symptoms, but I loathe taking it further than what it needs to remedy.

A quick fix for now, but realize it's improvement first thing in the morning.

Easy easy, be soft not hard

The harder you go the more brittle you'll become.