I am a lost sheep

[Maestro Forte]

Help me for i have been refusing to go to church and praying for a very long time.

Today i wake up in anger and i destroy Jesus statue. Apparently, I am starting to accumulate hatred to Jesus.

 

[Maestro Forte]

I don't know what to do and I stil refuse to go to church or praying. I hate the priest, i hate everything, i just have been living with this hatred, anger, and urge to kill my friends and family.

Please i am hoping to find comfort and peace through this forum. Someone please tell me what to do for i am really really a lost lamb.

However, having said that, i still feel His presence in me even though i have done terrible things which He forbids. That's why i am still willing to write and asking for help through this forum. If not, i would never ask for help and just keep doing what i am doing and even worse and more evil daily.

I am afraid that i have become AntiChrist as i have been swearing and angry to HIM. I have destroy my jesus statue, i crushed his head and destroy it to pieces. I have thrown away the cross and want to destroy it too. I have urge to burn the bible and all the gospel reading that i can found in my room.

For a moment i felt like Satan was controlling me and I let him. I felt joy in destroying the cross. I felt joy in anger and making my family crying and feeling sad.

I have accumulate hatred to my parents as well and thinking to punish tem <staff edit>. The thought of how sad my family would be gives me exhilirahting feeling.

I don't know what to do, please help me.

I hope this forum is God's way to help me, God's bridge to bring me back to him.

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

It sounds like a very rough place. Have you considered contacting a pastor or counselor for insight and prayer?

It sounds like they might help.

 

[Maestro Forte]

No, i didn't. As i hate and do not trust them.

 

[Maestro Forte]

Well, i guess there is no one to try help me out. I was hoping this forum could have given more advice, but i guess i was wrong.

Thanks for your response Kristen ( even though you respond it because you edited my text ) i appreciate it.

 

[Willie T]

You wanting to spend some time talking and getting to be known, or are you just looking for hand-holding?

No, that's not mean. Just responding to what you seem to be presenting.

 

[razzelflabben]

Well, i guess there is no one to try help me out. I was hoping this forum could have given more advice, but i guess i was wrong.

Thanks for your response Kristen ( even though you respond it because you edited my text ) i appreciate it.

Listen, God alone can turn your hatred to Love, your pain to peace, and your sorrow into joy. Seek Him, allow Christ to fill you with His Holy Spirit and in that find the answers you are looking for. Seriously that is the answer you need, you need the real Jesus to consume you and fill you and you need to yield yourself 100% over to Him.

 

[janny108]

Well, i guess there is no one to try help me out. I was hoping this forum could have given more advice, but i guess i was wrong.

Thanks for your response Kristen ( even though you respond it because you edited my text ) i appreciate it.

have you considered joining another church? One that acknowledges God's power and presence? I had little issues that brought me down without knowing why. So someone invited me to their church and the presence of the Lord His power and His word is changing me. I used to feel lost, like nothing was working, etc.

Feel free to pm me if you want.

 

[Johnnz]

It's what lies behind your anger that needs identifying and addressing more constructively. God is not at all uneasy at your anger. He wants to help you through it. Sometimes well meaning people just don't 'get it' as to where we are at, or are too inexperienced to be of much use. You do need to have contact with someone who has the skills and experience to see you through this time in your life.

John
NZ

 

[Maestro Forte]

Then WHY and WHAT does HE want me to do with this anger?

I cannot belive that i just did commit it, the essesntial thing that He forbids in his 10 commandments.

I destroyed my parents' heart by destroying what they dearly treasure and love in this whole world... ME.

Are you happy now JESUS SON OF GOD???

 

[Johnnz]

Its your reactions for whatever reasons that lie at the heart of where you are at, not God.

John
NZ

 

[Maestro Forte]

I hate YOU!
I hate YOU!
I hate YOU!

And this forum is nothing but a bunch of HYPOCRITES!

I am leaving this forum!

 

[razzelflabben]

I hate YOU!
I hate YOU!
I hate YOU!

And this forum is nothing but a bunch of HYPOCRITES!

I am leaving this forum!

why so much hate? What is going on? Who hurt you? How did they hurt you? Was it someone here, or someone in your personal life?

 

[RuthD]

I have felt intense rage and anger at everyone and everything in my life before. I got psychiatric help to calm my psychosis. I hope I can help you with this. I think you should call 911 and tell them you want to hurt someone. They will help you and protect you from yourself. Praying for you.

 

[allykelly07]

Listen. There are many hypocrites out there. Most in the churches. They don't know what it really means to walk by the Spirit rather than our earthly nature which we are supposed to die to daily. The best thing to do, it to cry out to the one who created you! Cry out to Him to save you and that you will hear from Him and not satan or your flesh. "resist the devil, and he will flea from you". If you give yourself fully over to the Lord in every way, He give a peace that passes all understanding. Because it is the Spirit of Christ that will be living through you. This is the truth, ask seek and knock, and you will find out what a true follower of Christ is. God will reveal Himself to you. Not through a pastor, or men of that sort, but through His Spirit, as you are asking and crying out to Him. Die to your flesh daily, and live by the "Spirit so that you won't fulfill the desires of the flesh". God made you for Him, to serve Him by "offering your body as a living sacrifice, which is holy and pleasing in His sight." Read the word of God, and ask the Father for His wisdom, and listen to what I have said, because I am hearing from God, by the Spirit. Read and see if what I say is not true. From the true love of Christ......