hurt ocd

[Ninja Cat]

Am obsessing about hurting myself at the moment all the differnt way i could hurt myself with
i have no blades and only knifes i have is a bread and veg knife with arent sharp
am feeling like i should hang myself or jump in front of a train or something

I dont know what to do
its just keeps going over in my mind over and over

 

[gracealone]

Hi Catseyes, Yep, it's me again. I know that I probably don't say the things you want to hear but there is a good reason for that. I don't provide reassurances or logical answers to counter OCD thoughts. It isn't that I don't feel compassion for the excruciating anxiety these thoughts create because I know full well what that feels like. It's just that I've also experienced just how big a hold these thoughts can get on you to the point where they dominate your every waking minute which will always happen if you do the wrong thing in response to them. Reassurance seeking, logical counterstatements, looking for certainty or proof that they aren't/won't come true only serves to get them more imbedded into your consciousness and actually trains your brain to treat them as emergencies. With OCD, the more we engage in these mental ruminations the worse the disorder becomes and our suffering will actually increase over time. The thoughts you are having right now, "harm OCD" are actually very common for many folk with this disorder. I've had harm thoughts too. Some of them were about me suddenly going nuts and harming myself, overdosing, purposely crashing my car into a tree etc. and some of them were about harming those who I loved the most in the whole world. It's a miserable, miserable thing to experience and I do understand that very compelling feeling to obtain absolute reassurance that the harm thoughts won't come true. It's absolutely necessary for you to understand your disorder. You have to get educated and then you have to act upon that knowledge no matter how badly your emotions push you to do otherwise. This is why I keep on urging you to learn about Exposure and Response Prevention therapy. Also, if you are very debilitated by this, and it sounds like you are, you will likely need to be on meds. in addition to learning to do therapy. I don't know your history concerning medication and or professional therapy but I do know that when a person has severe OCD these things are usually necessary toward the goal of learning to manage the illness so that it doesn't manage you. Please prayerfully consider what I've said. You've nothing to lose by trying these things and everything to gain. God gave doctors knowledge so that they might help those afflicted with illness. We all understand the great gift medicine is to this world and most of us will gladly use it for any painful illness. What you have to believe is that OCD is no different. There is help available for it and taking advantage of that is a good thing and a thing to be thankful to God for. Praying for you. Mitzi

Am obsessing about hurting myself at the moment all the differnt way i could hurt myself with
i have no blades and only knifes i have is a bread and veg knife with arent sharp
am feeling like i should hang myself or jump in front of a train or something

I dont know what to do
its just keeps going over in my mind over and over

 

[adam7272]

Hi cateyes
I prayed for you and know that feeling. I understand the deep pain you are feeling. Please don't give up, train yourself for worshipping the true God and not any idols. Pray to Him and ask for His deliverance. If your heart is seeking God, He promises to answer and as we wait we are changed by His grace. It is only Him that can truly help, save, and deliver you.

 

[kodadog1024]

Am obsessing about hurting myself at the moment all the differnt way i could hurt myself with
i have no blades and only knifes i have is a bread and veg knife with arent sharp
am feeling like i should hang myself or jump in front of a train or something

I dont know what to do
its just keeps going over in my mind over and over

Just let it be... Anxiety can't hurt you and neither can your thoughts. You have to let them be there. I HIGHLY suggest go working out, and I mean hard, with everything you got until you sweat through your clothes. Play Christian music while doing do. Pray afterwards. No caffeine. Drink some calming tea. You have to let it ride out, BUT you can't sit there and meditate on it. You just can't... And as hopeless as it may seem, it's NOT! Praying for you... I've been through this and you will get through it too.

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. – God