Though I;m no longer a practicing homosexual, I can't deny that at times I get lonely and want to socialise with those I can be open to without condemnation, judgement, or crude remarks about what homosexuals supposedly do (those who know this feeling know it's a huge load off). Anyway, with the recent ostracism of my church, I've become lonely and no longer feel supported. I didn't do anything wrong, I just believed that people shouldn't treat Jesus like a "credit card."
After I was ostracised, I went back to the gay dating sites I used to use. I wasn't using them for sexual purposes, just friendship and chats to ease my loneliness and depression. However, I knew it was a huge temptation and I knew that I had to flee the appearance of evil. Moreover, I'm trying to stay away from my gay friends to avoid negative influences. But overall, I guess I'm sad 'cause I don't feel loved. I really don't want to envy people's relationships or hate God for letting me have these attractions.
After I was ostracised, I went back to the gay dating sites I used to use. I wasn't using them for sexual purposes, just friendship and chats to ease my loneliness and depression. However, I knew it was a huge temptation and I knew that I had to flee the appearance of evil. Moreover, I'm trying to stay away from my gay friends to avoid negative influences. But overall, I guess I'm sad 'cause I don't feel loved. I really don't want to envy people's relationships or hate God for letting me have these attractions.