How to avoid suicide as bipolar?

[Lucis]

Nm, stupid topic

 

[Alive again]

Well, having been suicidal one and off for 34 years, I do not find this a foolish topic. For me it is tracking my sucidality , knowing my triggers and moods and having those who I can call for help no matter the time of day or night!!! And the most important piece is having God to call on and my faith.

 

[Jeshu]

The best is to fear The Lord, not wanting to hurt Him by refusing His offer of good life and going the way of the enemy! This is bound to cause more pain not less!

So the best is to repent if you have heeded the darkness - long/want/try/dream to kill yourself - and instead heed Jesus's voice of loving truth inside - The Bible spoken in the Spirit of love for God, yourself and neighbour - and so lay down your hurting life at Jesus feet - time and again - so He can rebuild you a life which can cope and deal with your bi-polar life - time and again!

I promise you if you follow Jesus in this - you will leave your deepest depression is behind you, day by day, for good!

To trust in Him is to obey the Voice of God and He will certainly send His Son into your life and bring you Rest - even amidst the storms!
(Hebrews 3 & 4)

Heed only loving truth - not that horrible truth that oppresses you so badly every day - but rather let Jesus take it away and bring you into His Kingdom instead!(John 14 & 15)

So if you have any ideas or suggestion of suicide - tell Satan to go away - and see the misery he will try and cast on you when you do that, then you will know that what I say is truly true - and call out to Jesus to save you from that horrible demand to kill, by taking you away from your misery and bringing you your good life back. (honestly He does it - He is awesome - faith is all you need - ask and it shall be given - and so slowly grow away from where you must now have existence!)

Call out to Jesus and wait until you hear Him say Shalom (Rev 1) - His peace enters you - please learn to spend time with Him - The Living Word inside - He is the very best Friend you can find in your dark lonely pit - His gracious love will lift you out - time and again - until you have learned to stay out of that horrible place, all together, even when depression strikes. His ability is what you need - we all do!


Please repent if you have agreed with the voice of suicide - it is terribly ungodly!

 

[bunnydrop]

what stops me is God an the fear of hell,an also the pain i would cause God my son an family.they may get suicidal with grief an it would br =e my fault.

 

[4Everloved]

What stops me is that my kids need me. I don't think my husband would raise them well. That always stops me. it's wrong to do that to them.

 

[3M0_Girl]

I hope you don't mind me adding a question in, but...what if there is no one to care weather you leave or not? I mean...if all you gonna do is suffer, why continue living...

I have thought this before...alot actually...my little brother is the only one I have who is keeping me here...so I think, it's the people who you care about and who care about you, tht help you to stop/not do it..

Just my 2€...

 

[4Everloved]

I understand that 3MO. When I was 20, I was suicidal alot and I pretty much knew my mom and siblings would have been sad for just a bit, but they would have gotten over it.

But I'm glad now that I didn't do it, because I had a hope and a future that just seemed was not there. I have had a rather hard life and I still get tired of my life, but when i look back on the blessings as opposed to the horrible times....the blessings far outweigh...that that would make me give it up and let go of this life on earth.

Even today I am depressed again...it's a normal part of my life...yet when I read His Word He promises this life He gave me is His gain...I'm living for a reason...everything I do in His name will not be forgotten...He is watching and will reward me.

It's hard some days to realize God loves me. I know it in my head but it doesn't always sink to my heart.

You have a hope, and a future. Feelings can definitely lie. Listen to the voice of Truth. I do. And it's the only reason I'm here today to post this to you.

 

[4Everloved]

I hope you don't mind me adding a question in, but...what if there is no one to care weather you leave or not? I mean...if all you gonna do is suffer, why continue living...

I have thought this before...alot actually...my little brother is the only one I have who is keeping me here...so I think, it's the people who you care about and who care about you, tht help you to stop/not do it..

Just my 2€...

I love you even though I've never met you, 3M0 girl. You've been on my mind. Hope you are feeling much better and I will be praying for you, my young friend. Beauty lies within you and God understands everything; He wants to use you!

 

[dark struggle]

The fear of going to hell is the one and only thing stopping me. My daughter would with out a doubt be better off with out be. My husband though not a Christian has much more patience, doesn't yell or freak out and she never cries over him, it is mainly because of me that she cries. I long for the day God snuffs me out of this world, I pray for it and embrase it and the thought of slitting my wrists seems so inviting that I could almost go home and do it now. Death is a beautiful thing but no one knows for curtin if you are going to hell for commiting suicide, I personally don't believe you will but I am not going to chance it. I day dream about it all the time though, and it torments me....but what is one to do?

 

[Rainchild]

n/a

 

[Alive again]

Hugs and prayers for you all. I think this is such an important topic for all of us and I respect you all for your honesty about this one!!

May we each feel/see the truth of God's love That is it sin that brought illness into this world, but the God walks each step of this illness with us and cannot wait for the day we will be well with Him in heaven. His only delay is so that more shall be saved!

Hold tight to Him during these low times. I myself have been suicidal at least since I was 16. It has been a daily to moment to moment battle much of my life. I will rejoice the day He calls me home, but I will fight the lie of th enemy that wants me to take my life by my own hand.

 

[TomCS]

Hugs and prayers for you all. I think this is such an important topic for all of us and I respect you all for your honesty about this one!!

May we each feel/see the truth of God's love That is it sin that brought illness into this world, but the God walks each step of this illness with us and cannot wait for the day we will be well with Him in heaven. His only delay is so that more shall be saved!

Hold tight to Him during these low times. I myself have been suicidal at least since I was 16. It has been a daily to moment to moment battle much of my life. I will rejoice the day He calls me home, but I will fight the lie of th enemy that wants me to take my life by my own hand.

Thank you for raising this subject, I think about it often but I'm too embarassed to bring it up myself. I pray every day asking God to take me away to heaven today. I can't talk about this with anyone around me in my own life, because they will think I'm crazy and have me committed. I feel strange even here, on a Christian message board, talking about wanting to go to heaven today. Even amongst Christians, I feel like an oddball for wanting to go to heaven today. All I know is that life in this world feels like a prison term, and I can't wait for the time when God lets me leave this life and come home to be with Him. So I understand how you feel completely.

 

[Jeshu]

Thank you for raising this subject, I think about it often but I'm too embarassed to bring it up myself. I pray every day asking God to take me away to heaven today. I can't talk about this with anyone around me in my own life, because they will think I'm crazy and have me committed. I feel strange even here, on a Christian message board, talking about wanting to go to heaven today. Even amongst Christians, I feel like an oddball for wanting to go to heaven today. All I know is that life in this world feels like a prison term, and I can't wait for the time when God lets me leave this life and come home to be with Him. So I understand how you feel completely.

Tom please listen!


You may go to Heaven and you may be with God right now! (Heb 3 & 4)

You don't have to kill yourself but let go of your hurting life in faith and let Jesus rebuild you with His loving truth.

Honestly true my friend! (Have you heard doubt and unbelief speak up yet?)

It are those forces that the enemy uses - let me list a few of their spiritual weapons against you!

The devil loves to pass on his crap! So can he make his life in us and have our good life - through the lies we believe - he brings bad life into us - for that is his true reality - devoid of God's good is his existence - that is why the evil rob good life from us as they terrorise us with things like these;

Fear, doubt, hopelessness, despair, misery, guilt, shame, self-pity, unbelief, rage, helplessness, weakness, judgement/wrath and the like - can you see such is the reward that sin has brought us - for the wicked have being in us - simply because we believe their lies.


If you are like me then this is your problem my friend you have been heeding the lies within you and eating the bad life that the wicked push upon you - because they can - for you are ill and your feelings are constantly lying to you - giving them ample opportunity to get you - (all mentally ill people fall prey to his evil schemes) - that is why suicide is so predominately among us - for evil always kills good life and bad life has surely existence in us when we're ill!)

This is the cycle Jesus taught me to break within my own inner being, when His truth visited me in my deepest pit - suicidally psychotic completely overcome by my self judgement, doubt and unbelief! Begging my wife to let me go!

Jesus said to me only eat God's LOVING GRACE when you fall or things have gone bad because of your illness - and only read the Bible, read it with your heart - holding onto love for God, yourself and your neighbour and do what it says firstly within yourself. So forgive you for being you! (it took me 3 1/2 years to learn to accept that from Him. (Daniel 9-12 talks about it in more detail)

So basically Jesus had told me to sow only the good seed in a receptive heart - (keep away those birds - Revelation uses thunders to do that )- and stop being receptive to the bad seed - dump all the rocks and dead weeds over in your bad life - where your control tower is (Babylon), so Jesus can burn it right before your eyes! For when you see that then you will know that He is truly in you and you will begin to know the Joy which cannot be explained with words - but sings a totally new song to God - the song of Moses - where with Jesus write God's love command onto your heart.)



So what Jesus told me I did and do!


And so over the years (about 4 or 5 now I think) I have slowly grown away from my weakness and inabilities. Day by day I eat God's Word - I surround myself with His truth also through music ( My favourite are The Sons Of Korah - they sing purely scriptural - great music as well.)

and you know what happened?

Firstly my doubt and unbelief Jesus threw down into the bottomless pit - did I burn that - before I realised that I had died to feeling and hearing that within - for I surely seen and heard The Light within.

Grace, grace, grace..................

Oh what a wonderful diet this is!


And so Jesus grew in my heart as I ate the Word in love - though I understood very little about what was happening intellectually at the time.

I overcame my depressive spell of 7 years by learning to pray for others letting my pain and hurt drive me. It is wonderful now - even when I can't lift up my head I pray for those hurting, and I curse the wicked hurting us - and feel completely in control of my reality. Usually my depression doesn't last longer now than 4-5 day spells.

So ask yourself - Love, faith and hope my friend - what enemies do you have against these gifts within? So go and let The Word expose everything within. When the Bible accuses you - evil is in charge there - just repent and move on - never discuss or take on guilt or shame or plan to chance - to deal with your inner world - forgive and let it be - Jesus' loving truth will fix everything - all you have to do is learn to trust God completely to do that in His good timing.


So take note what talks you down and makes you doubt or forces you to heed lying lovelessness or worse unbelief always bringing the bottomless pit into view. What inside demands ruler-ship over the things you like, need and want? (and ponder on what is all that doing inside and if such would survive if Jesus came into your inner world right now!)


Here comes your chance to commit suicide!!!!


So love wrong life to death my friend! Feed yourself in your bad life God's good things and curse those forces bringing it about - and see what happens when you do that - for when Christ's love enters then the light goes on and then we can see what Satan and his mates have been upto in the dark, and we will see how they still try and keep us tied to them by firing bad life at us constantly when all we try to do is have faith and love and hope for and in God.

Indeed!

Lawlessness will be revealed right inside your own heart and mind as The harlot will tempt you to be unfaithful to love - through greed, lust and through socio-religious must.

The Dragon - the accuser you can hear within playing god over your life in lies - right inside of you - will rear up like never before and persecute good life within you - those things you love to have but can't because sin is in control there.

He will bring The Beasts around exploring your inner world and demanding you go the way of the world and follow the gods of this world - The beast always makes laws and rules to control sin inside of us - but in reality makes the most mileage out of it.

And of course the false prophet will speak to your heart and mind - for you will be surprised to see how intricate evil has placing within your inner world of being.

You will see how the wicked within get the frogs to croak - when our flesh is roasted - trying to make you believe all kind of ungodly things that have to do with good for you and no one else!

Yet The Loving Truth of Jesus will cut all that down - time and again - and you will slowly break free from the darkness that is now still torturing you.


To read with your heart means that you look what awakens when you read the Word of God. Please understand it is just for you - no one else - it is His private walk into your life - so He can be Your King of kings.

Honest my friend He is The Greatest - and you may really know Him and He will really be with you and in you together with our Heavenly Father - lovingly taking you up into Heaven sin after sin - He will make all your dreams come true, He will restore you - even though you may still remain ill (I'm still ill) but He give you ability and a joy within that doesn't make you go manic or psychotic but pure ecstasy in His Peace and Rest.


Heed only Jesus - The Living Word of God within your heart - trust no else!


peace




Is 63


Who is this coming from Edom,
from Bozrah, with his garments stained crimson?
Who is this, robed in splendor,
striding forward in the greatness of his strength?

"It is I, speaking in righteousness,
mighty to save."

Why are your garments red,
like those of one treading the winepress?
"I have trodden the winepress alone;
from the nations no one was with me.
I trampled them in my anger
and trod them down in my wrath;
their blood spattered my garments,
and I stained all my clothing.
For the day of vengeance was in my heart,
and the year of my redemption has come.
I looked, but there was no one to help,
I was appalled that no one gave support;
so my own arm worked salvation for me,
and my own wrath sustained me.
I trampled the nations in my anger;
in my wrath I made them drunk
and poured their blood on the ground."

 

[Warrior97]

The fear of going to hell is the one and only thing stopping me. My daughter would with out a doubt be better off with out be. My husband though not a Christian has much more patience, doesn't yell or freak out and she never cries over him, it is mainly because of me that she cries. I long for the day God snuffs me out of this world, I pray for it and embrase it and the thought of slitting my wrists seems so inviting that I could almost go home and do it now. Death is a beautiful thing but no one knows for curtin if you are going to hell for commiting suicide, I personally don't believe you will but I am not going to chance it. I day dream about it all the time though, and it torments me....but what is one to do?

I know life really does seem more so a burden than it is the gift God gave us. It really seems that death would be easiest to end it all and get to see heaven sooner, but if killing yourself didn't send you to hell why would anyone want to live? this is why i personally am on the mindset that if you commit suicide you will go to hell. I started off equally negative, just wanting out of the nightmare. Things were never right, no one cared if I existed, I really had nothing to live for. I then really started practicing living by how God would want me to, and it amazed me how much better I was doing! Not to pretty this up like some typical "oh just say you're a christian and life gets easy" type post, but it did help for a while. I go in and out of these phases in my life, I currently am sitting on my 2nd serious depression at the age of 20. But the thing that keeps me going is I have to remind myself that life IS a GIFT from God. While it may not ALL be great, and I may have not even seen the good part of it yet, but that gives me something to look forward to. Just remember how great of a gift life is supposed to be, and if you haven't seen it yet just think of it as something only time can bring. Patience is a virtue, that I struggle with as well, but we have to be patient to receive the gifts that God is going to give us.

also, your daughter NEEDS you. NEVER think she is better off without you. You have to think of how great you are. God loves you and would never hinder you, unless it was for a greater good later. You must also remember that she is young, it takes a long time to develop an eye to realize the good that surrounds us. At such a young age it's easy to take everything for granted because you can only think that it's "normal". Just be patient, she will soon realize she has a great mother, and then she will show you just how much she cares.

now to identify between yours and my exact struggle: NEVER sell yourself short. NEVER be afraid to reach out for help, you're worth it. Remember you are on equal ground as everyone else. Never settle for anything less than you deserve, which is greatness. Keep pushing forward its always darkest before dawn (cheesy but true) I'll be praying for you, God bless