A couple of weeks ago, I would of appeared very different, as I was a pseudo-Christian. I did many horrible sins without thinking about it, and thought that God would let me into Heaven anyway because I had asked for His forgiveness when I was younger. I viewed pornography, swore and fought with others, etc. And I claimed to be a Christian. Now, I see how wrong I was. After finding Christian Forums while researching for a school report, I went through an emotional experience, and thought that I would reform myself. After a couple of days, that wore off and Satan got back into my life. After a small amount of time under the influence of Satan, I became skeptical of God, and converted to Agnosticism. This was step one in the process that I was uknowingly going through in which I would truly find God and Christianity. During dinner that night, I prayed and asked God to, if He were really there, show himself to me. A little while later, I told a friend of mine who was Christian about my choice, and she started talking to me about it. She said that the time would come when God would call me, and it would be my choice on whether to accept His call or not. That was the second step of it all. She went on to tell me about how she too had once dropped religion for a year. How she had told God to screw off. She said that, yea, it would feel good at first, because I wouldn't have to worry about the concequences of what I would do. And how there would come a time in which I would just snap, and search again for His love and guidance. I thought she was just bluffing, and told myself that that was how it went for her, but it wouldn't go like that for me. She then went on to talk to me about my choice. After a little while, she invited a friend of hers into the conversation. I told him my story, as she had asked me too, and then she asked me if I still believed in the power of prayer. When I said no, she said that she and her friend would pray for me over MSN(which was how this entire conversation was been done). They asked God to show me His love again, as, as they put it, I had been lied to on all fronts. It was the power of what they said that drove Satan out of me, and brought tears to my eyes. It was their prayers that showed me God's love again. After they prayed, I told them about how they had effected me, and thanked them as much as I could. I talked to them more on the subject, and after all of that, I went downstairs, and prayed for Gods forgiveness. I asked for Him to forgive me for what I had become, and for what I had done. I asked Him to forgive me for my sins. The whole time I cried. I cried because I knew that I had truly found Him and His love for the first time. I cried, for I had now found what I knew was true Christianity.
That was how I truly found the Lord for the first time, and how I found true Christianity. And I know, that no matter who you are, or what you have done, God shall always love you and will show it to you if you ask Him and look for Him with your heart. I hope that this may come in handy to someone someday. And remember, never underestimate the power of God's love and the love of His followers. It drove the devil out of me, and I know that it will always help you and whomever may seek it. And I would like to request again that I am not given blessings for awhile, as I would like to work for them. That is all, and thank you for reading this.
That was how I truly found the Lord for the first time, and how I found true Christianity. And I know, that no matter who you are, or what you have done, God shall always love you and will show it to you if you ask Him and look for Him with your heart. I hope that this may come in handy to someone someday. And remember, never underestimate the power of God's love and the love of His followers. It drove the devil out of me, and I know that it will always help you and whomever may seek it. And I would like to request again that I am not given blessings for awhile, as I would like to work for them. That is all, and thank you for reading this.
