Swag365
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OK Let me give a bit of contrarian advice here:I want to love my wife as Christ loves the Church, I want to have patience with her, I want to reject anger and have compassion and mercy on her and bear fruit. She claims to be a Christian but is the most spiteful, impatient, easily angered, and gossipy person I know. She intentionally attacks my insecurities to "get at me", is so easily triggered by anything I say, creates a list of grievances against me and when I go to change and fix them, she claims I am not doing anything to fix them and then rejects my attempt at fixing my issues. She will get angry and swear at me, make me the bad guys for everything that goes wrong. I will get vulnerable when she is not angry sometimes and share the weight of my sin, stressors, desires, etc. and she will lovingly listen to me, then within 30 minutes go ballistic and use all of my stressors and insecurities I just poured out to her as a weapon against me. She attempts to read her Bible but I believe just sees it as a chore. I have told her countless times about how easily she is angered and asked her where her fruit is and telling her that she cannot behave like this and needs to stop now (to which I received major anger, to be honest, probably rightfully so) to which she goes ballistic and paints me as a legalist. I hope and pray daily that one day, she will stumble across Proverbs 31 and realize that she is NOT the Proverbs 31 wife and I pray that she reads Proverbs 25:24 and realizes she is that woman then turns to the Gospel, changes her ways, and finds mercy and grace in God's presence. I pray that every day nearly. I am with my faults too. Sometimes these things are because of ways I react to her going ballistic but this woman is the most spiteful and contentuous woman I know. The worst part? Within a few hours she is back to her sweet self and apologizes, just to return right back to her vomit so to speak the next day. Jesus said that he who is angry with his brother has already commit murder in his own heart. This woman brings me to anger every time we fight (which is nearly every day). I don't believe in divorce otherwise I would be long gone, I want to bear fruit and have mercy on her but I cannot find it in my heart. She is slowly pushing me away and killing my fruit. How do I love my wife who is so terrible to me? I have prayed time and time again to no avail. I feel nearly hopeless at this point and we haven't even been married a year. I know there will be plenty of "well if you knew this you shouldn't have married her" but this new behavior is entirely new to marriage. Please pray and give me guidance brothers and sisters.
1) Skip the counseling. These are never of any benefit to men. You are gonna walk out of there thinking that she is an angel and you are the devil!
2) The Bible says to love your wife, not to be her doormat. You sound like a doormat, to be frank. You sound like an abused puppy.
3) Stop arguing with your wife. That is pointless. Show her what the consequences are when she brings drama into your life. Next time she comes at you with drama, ghost her. Leave if you have to and come back. If she hits you with more drama, ghost her again. If she wants to be nice and have a civil conversation, cool. If she wants to act like a loving wife and spend enjoyable time with you, cool. If she hits you with drama, be out. Refuse to put up with any BS, whatsoever.
4) Hit the gym. Improve your style. Buy yourself a nice watch or a new car. Get back into your hobbies, spend time with your friends, make new friends, enjoy your life. Don't let someone else drag you down into her own misery.
5) It sounds like she wants out of the marriage. If that is the case, let her go. You don't have to file for a divorce. She will likely do that. You can get an annulment. I'm not saying you shouldn't fight for the marriage, but if you aren't willing to walk away and refuse to put up with BS, the BS will never end.
Once you try the various advice in this forum and it does not work for you, give what I wrote above a try.
Good luck.
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