Hopelessness

[MariaJLM]

I'm so hopeless in every way. I genuinely try to be a good person, but it seems to do nothing but bite me in the butt every time. I know that nobody likes me, but they just don't want to admit it. I know that they all think me annoying, whiny, and countless other things.

Additionally, I have no support whatsoever. It's hard to remain a Christian when I don't even have any real support in my struggles. My family thinks I joined a cult, my friends are all non-religious and think the church is bigoted, etc. Even at my baptism not a single person showed up except for my priest and his family, and even that is mostly because he needed help with it.

It's obvious that I'm just not destined for happiness. God just wants me to suffer because that's all I see. Because of mental illness I can't even make a living for myself. I'll be condemned to being a lazy and useless welfare bum forever. I'm constantly called one so might as well embrace it I guess. I'm just thanking God that I don't have a family to care for too(nor do I want one). On the flipside, though, I get so incredibly lonely. I have nobody who understands me :'(

 

[mukk_in]

May not help you much, but I faced plenty of rejection from my Hindu family, and other friends. The Lord actually promised us these troubles (Matthew 10:34-36, John 16:33). We ought to rejoice in such circumstances (Matthew 5:11). You have a strong and powerful body of Christ right here. Stay in fellowship and you'll grow stronger. One day you'll turn your family to Jesus. Peace in Christ.

 

[Susan Drake]

Jesus, God, Christianity is a relationship with a loving God, not imperfect people. Look to Him first.

 

[Dansiph]

the Bible says there is no one good on the Earth.

You don't know what other people are thinking so you don't know if they think those things. I used to think everyone could see my anxiety but they can't and if they can well, well done you can tell I'm having some bodily sensations and increased alertness. Doesn't matter.

Less talking more doing I say. I'm being harsh but I'm also trying to encourage you. Not with a pat on the back that makes you temporarily feel good though.

If I can ask, what mental illness do you have?

edit: for some reason I was a bit more harsh than usual on this response. Sorry if I was insensitive

 

[Jude1:3Contendforthefaith]

Everyone will let you down and disappoint you in this life. (I know from experience)

What I have experienced is so ridiculous and unbelievable that most people wouldn't even believe it.

Lord Jesus Christ God Please Help Us Lord And Have Mercy On Us Amen.

 

[Mountainmanbob]

Because of mental illness I can't even make a living for myself. I'll be condemned to being a lazy and useless welfare bum forever.

We all face struggles from time to time sounds like it's time for you to step it up just a little?

Volunteering a little bit of your time would be highly recommended for your self-esteem and God appreciates our good works.

You may find a good volunteer position at any of the following.

Local zoo
Christian help centers
Salvation Army
Local churches
Park and Recreation departments
Local hospitals

I know many volunteers at the above and they enjoy it -- give it a try please.

Maybe start really slow 4 or 5 hours a week see how it goes??

God bless you dear friend
from
M-Bob

 

[Southernscotty]

Let me add Nursing Homes and senior care centers to Bobs list.
These people feel just as you do and are left all alone.
What a perfect opportunity to make friends and share Jesus

 

[redleghunter]

I'm so hopeless in every way. I genuinely try to be a good person, but it seems to do nothing but bite me in the butt every time. I know that nobody likes me, but they just don't want to admit it. I know that they all think me annoying, whiny, and countless other things.

Additionally, I have no support whatsoever. It's hard to remain a Christian when I don't even have any real support in my struggles. My family thinks I joined a cult, my friends are all non-religious and think the church is bigoted, etc. Even at my baptism not a single person showed up except for my priest and his family, and even that is mostly because he needed help with it.

It's obvious that I'm just not destined for happiness. God just wants me to suffer because that's all I see. Because of mental illness I can't even make a living for myself. I'll be condemned to being a lazy and useless welfare bum forever. I'm constantly called one so might as well embrace it I guess. I'm just thanking God that I don't have a family to care for too(nor do I want one). On the flipside, though, I get so incredibly lonely. I have nobody who understands me :'(

Maria, you are loved by the King of kings and Lord of lords. You have taken a brave step all Christians have done throughout history...You have put your faith and trust in Christ Jesus. He told us such faith would cause division. You are brave and I can see you love the Lord with all your heart. He will not disappoint you.

 

[MariaJLM]

Anyway, I think part of it is that I hate feeling alone and isolated. My family practically thinks I'm in a cult while most of my friends are non-religious and think the church is bigoted. Plus I'm one of the lone converts in a parish that is majority cradle. Not to mention that basically everybody my age is married with children and/or successful working professionals, thus have very different priorities in life than I do.

 

[EzekielsWheels]

Anyway, I think part of it is that I hate feeling alone and isolated. My family practically thinks I'm in a cult while most of my friends are non-religious and think the church is bigoted. Plus I'm one of the lone converts in a parish that is majority cradle. Not to mention that basically everybody my age is married with children and/or successful working professionals, thus have very different priorities in life than I do.

It sounds like you're just a little bit of a fish out of water in certain respects but for some of us this is the life (at least for a season). Jesus' family (or many of them) wanted to put him away (basically like having him committed). All of his best friends abandoned him in his time of need. His own people killed him. In all honesty that's who our Lord is and that's the cross he bore and some of us are called to bare similar crosses that include rejection, abandonment and ridicule. All that being said you have resources (such as this community) and things you could do (maybe start a blog like me!) to give your life some meaning and a sense of routine. Do what you can with what you have available to you. The Lord isn't asking for more than you can give.

 

[sea5763]

I'm sorry you are struggling. I have mental illness too and it is rough.