Highly convinced God is talking to me.

[Sparcobenjamin]

So, I have posted here a lot and I feel like I have the urge to confess because it's part of my OCD scrupulously. I have to confess of a small lie, I made but I am unsure if I confess all my lies.

The lie was that I told my gf that I didn't work out but I gave a main reason which wasn't really the main reason and if I don't tell the truth by October 22 she will friendzone me according to a voice in my head that could be God himself.

I will only give two proofs which is me in my head asking:

**I asked God for a bible verse and someone in my head stated 120:02 now, as I checked the verse it talked about friendship amongst lies. It was clear that it could have been from God.**

My most recent one was when I prayed from this website Tyranny of the Ought about discerning the voice of God from OCD. I prayed it and shortly after, I was scrolling through Instagram and it said at first "God will do a big miracle" but shortly after there were numerous pictures saying "Trust in God and don't stray away from his view" like numerous pictures.




The real reason why I don't want to confess is because I know that this is part of my OCD and nothing good came about my confessions and soon enough, I would accidentally tell a white lie and have the urge to confess.

However, I did pray to God that I want to defeat my OCD so maybe God is showing these things to me to defeat it but it could also be God saying that I need to confess because lying is bad


I also feel like it matches God's word, all the verses that I have been seeing are about trust in the lord and not other people and lying is bad, all of that stuff.

 

[Jeshu]

What you have to understand that lying has its roots in the devil, so when we lie the devil owns the part of us where we lied about. Building any relationships on lies are bad news so coming out on the side of truth is important.

God would want you to confess to your lies and step in His truth instead. When you want to build anything, do it in the truth of God, so that it will survive time, for whatever we build with God will withstand eternity.

So always confess your lies and go to God when you have been dishonest and ask Him to change you after His truth. The only time a lie was blessed in Scripture was when lies where used to safe good life, not at any other time is lying aloud.

If you want to combat your O.C.D then trusting in the Lord is of utmost importance. The more you trust His loving truth the more you will stay safe from lies that hurt.

Enjoy God's truth even today brother and step in to it.

Peace.

 

[Tolworth John]

The real reason why I don't want to confess is because I know that this is part of my OCD and nothing good came about my confessions and soon enough, I would accidentally tell a white lie and have the urge to confess.

The urge to confess is your OCD, do the hard minimum that deals with the urge, like " I am sorry Lord. " And make a point of not telling lies. There is no such thing as a white lie.

 

[Sparcobenjamin]

Hey

What you have to understand that lying has its roots in the devil, so when we lie the devil owns the part of us where we lied about. Building any relationships on lies are bad news so coming out on the side of truth is important.

God would want you to confess to your lies and step in His truth instead. When you want to build anything, do it in the truth of God, so that it will survive time, for whatever we build with God will withstand eternity.

So always confess your lies and go to God when you have been dishonest and ask Him to change you after His truth. The only time a lie was blessed in Scripture was when lies where used to safe good life, not at any other time is lying aloud.

If you want to combat your O.C.D then trusting in the Lord is of utmost importance. The more you trust His loving truth the more you will stay safe from lies that hurt.

Enjoy God's truth even today brother and step in to it.

Peace.

Thanks for that, However I am not sure if what I said was truly a lie or not.

 

[Dendy]

What you have to understand that lying has its roots in the devil, so when we lie the devil owns the part of us where we lied about. Building any relationships on lies are bad news so coming out on the side of truth is important.

God would want you to confess to your lies and step in His truth instead. When you want to build anything, do it in the truth of God, so that it will survive time, for whatever we build with God will withstand eternity.

So always confess your lies and go to God when you have been dishonest and ask Him to change you after His truth. The only time a lie was blessed in Scripture was when lies where used to safe good life, not at any other time is lying aloud.

If you want to combat your O.C.D then trusting in the Lord is of utmost importance. The more you trust His loving truth the more you will stay safe from lies that hurt.

Enjoy God's truth even today brother and step in to it.

Peace.

Jeshu, I'm curious. Do you mind if I ask you - Do you have OCD? Saying that the devil owns anything can be extremely difficult for an OCD patient to hear. Normally OCD patients are extremely worried that they could have done something wrong.

 

[Jeshu]

Jeshu, I'm curious. Do you mind if I ask you - Do you have OCD? Saying that the devil owns anything can be extremely difficult for an OCD patient to hear. Normally OCD patients are extremely worried that they could have done something wrong.

i do suffer from mental illness, i'm labelled Schizo effective but have struggled with O.C.D type symptoms for many years, especially when i was younger.

i don't believe the devil owns everything, i don't know where i would have said that, but i do believe he is the father of the lie. So if we believe lies about God, ourselves and our neighbour then we have taken satan on board and he will bring us misery. E.g guilt, shame, compulsions, addictions, anxiety, worry, loneliness, regrets, and habitual sins.

i know O.C.D people always worry about doing sin, but that is only because they see themselves sinning, as we are all sinners. i found out it is about accepting grace and not seeking in our own power to stop sinning.

This is what i have learned and has laid my O.C.D and Schizophrenic symptoms to rest, though at times i still get attacks, especially when i'm depressed, which happens a lot, but overall my life is in His peace. For i surrendered my life of lies and sin to Him and asked Him to deal with it, instead of me.

Honest sister it has been the best thing i ever did. The word cut the lies out of me, and the bad consequences they had on me, and taught me to accept His loving truth and the peace that He brought along with His truth. Seeing Jesus at work in my heart attacking my enemies and setting me free from their control, those thoughts that used to make me sacred for i thought i had sinned and God would not forgive me, they died out of me, not me who suffered all that. Jesus set me free instead form their power over me. For as long as i stay in His loving truth mental illness cannot overcome me and bring me misery any longer, rather more and more a serve the Lord instead. Honest Jesus can make good come out of bad, that is how good He is.

See it is the wrong that goes, not the person who is stuck with it. Once we begin to understand that then it is much easier to deal with God's wrath. For we understand it is on the wrong inside of us, not on us who did the wrong but suffered it. This brings love and admiration for God alive when we fall instead of fear and dread. That is the way to grow away from the lies and misery satan brings alive inside of us with his lies.

So no satan doesn't own anything but lies. It is for us who believe those lies to go to the truth and let Him transform us. Once we learn to have faith in God's love then our O.C.D tendencies can no longer hurt us but even begin to aid us on our way. For to be over actively involved in God's gracious love brings showers of blessings down upon us, instead of those lies bring us misery.

So please anyone with O.C.D who is scared of God's wrath please stop believing lies that make you scared and worried and only take love and good things away from you, rather place your faith in His love for He will bring good things alive into you when you do that.

So let this be a sign unto you - each time you place you faith in His love - good life will come your way - but each time you believe lies about God, yourself or your neighbour you will freak God instead of love Him.

This is how i have learned to deal with my compulsive thought patterns, my schizophrenia and my depression. i wish anyone God's loving peace, especially those who suffer from mental illness for such is very hard indeed, yet with God's love growing we can really come into His Rest.

Peace.

Feasting My Good Life.
The Wicked captivated my truth
the truth of my heart and mind
and wound me around their lies
knotted me out of my own reality
into the dungeons of torture below.

Unable to unravel their cob webs
the wicked took control of my life
and brought much pain and misery
feasting on my God given good life
at the expense of my own welfare.

Yet when Christ light lit up my night
and i saw Him on the clouds of heaven
The Wicked sprung all their traps
thinking i was as good as dead
trapped in their nasty fowler's nets.

Yet the Lion of the tribe of Judea
killed the goats great and small
and set me free from their control
and gave me back my freedom in Him
feasting good times growing New Life.

 

[Jeshu]

Hey

Thanks for that, However I am not sure if what I said was truly a lie or not.

If you are not sure your lied then you didn't lie but maybe you told an untruth. Lying we do always on purpose, but untruths we tell because we misunderstood the truth, the two are completely different.

So if you tell a lie and the Holy Spirit convicts you then you know you lied but you may try and deny or ignore that because you don't want to be wrong. King Saul did that a lot, make up excuses but following sinful thoughts instead of blessed ones. Rather when you know you sinned repent and thank God for grace. The more you eat His grace the more His love will dwell in you, the more you will love God, self and neighbour and the more successful you will beating sin.

Many blessings loving Jesus.

A poem i wrote when i understood how the lies about Jesus, myself and my neighbour always brought me so much anxiety, which destroyed my good life and brought me so much bad life. Letting the word renew my mind in love broke me away from the power of my anxiety.

Be of good courage Jesus loves you to be stronger than anxiety can bring to bear.

Fear Holds Fast
Fear grabs hold with iron grip
the evil quick confusion sowing
birthing terrorising conditions
harvesting my faithless heart.

My doubt and unbelief peaking
hopes and dreams going up in flames
my goals a catastrophe unfolding
earthquakes shattering my defence.

Feel that loveless grip ramming
cruel enemies rejoicing victory
running through my broken gates
i'm watching the raging fires burning.

A mess in my dwelling place
hair raising shadows casting
fears fuelling my insecurities
shamefully exposing weakness.

My Good life plundering
those torches of darkness
roasting me for dinner
serving the wicked feasting.

My God, My God i thirst
i forsook your loving truth
i held onto so many lies
Please You be my truth.

 

[Dendy]

Jeshu, I'm curious. Do you mind if I ask you - Do you have OCD? Saying that the devil owns anything can be extremely difficult for an OCD patient to hear. Normally OCD patients are extremely worried that they could have done something wrong.

By anything I meant any one thing not everything.

 

[Dendy]

I'm sorry to hear of your suffering.

 

[Mari17]

So, I have posted here a lot and I feel like I have the urge to confess because it's part of my OCD scrupulously. I have to confess of a small lie, I made but I am unsure if I confess all my lies.

The lie was that I told my gf that I didn't work out but I gave a main reason which wasn't really the main reason and if I don't tell the truth by October 22 she will friendzone me according to a voice in my head that could be God himself.

I will only give two proofs which is me in my head asking:

**I asked God for a bible verse and someone in my head stated 120:02 now, as I checked the verse it talked about friendship amongst lies. It was clear that it could have been from God.**

My most recent one was when I prayed from this website Tyranny of the Ought about discerning the voice of God from OCD. I prayed it and shortly after, I was scrolling through Instagram and it said at first "God will do a big miracle" but shortly after there were numerous pictures saying "Trust in God and don't stray away from his view" like numerous pictures.




The real reason why I don't want to confess is because I know that this is part of my OCD and nothing good came about my confessions and soon enough, I would accidentally tell a white lie and have the urge to confess.

However, I did pray to God that I want to defeat my OCD so maybe God is showing these things to me to defeat it but it could also be God saying that I need to confess because lying is bad


I also feel like it matches God's word, all the verses that I have been seeing are about trust in the lord and not other people and lying is bad, all of that stuff.

"The real reason why I don't want to confess is because I know that this is part of my OCD and nothing good came about my confessions and soon enough, I would accidentally tell a white lie and have the urge to confess." I think this is a key point. When we have OCD, we often have to train ourselves not to give into compulsions, which are things we do to relieve the anxiety caused by OCD. The compulsions usually feel "right" - e.g. praying, confessing, etc. - but often are just rituals done to relieve anxiety about things for which we're feeling an inordinate amount of guilt or fear. Our fears, and our response to them, is exaggerated; thus we have to train ourselves to give a more normal, balanced response, instead of the exaggerated response that the OCD is forcing us into. Have you learned much about OCD and how to treat it?