Hiding it

[Sam Emo Christian]

I hide cutting and scars from people.
I havent done it for a few weeks and im stopping.
none of my family knows. Im afraid that they wont understand or that they will put me in some kind of help center away from my friends, which are one of the only things helping me right now.
Some of my best and very understand friends know and of course my boyfriend does but not all my friends know.
If a friends asks me about it or finds out ill admit it.
but im tired of hiding under clothes and lies.
I miss out on lots of things becuase of it.
I don't want people to judge me or look at me different because of it and im afraid I wont be able to lead people to Jesus if they judge me because of that.
but I want to help people with the problem and I it to be an example of how God can change you.
Im tired of preting I dont go through problems like this.
Jesus did nothing in secret so I don't think I should hide things.
Im really confused and dont know what to do.
There are big risk and benifits.
The main risks is my Parrents by the way.
Plese help me and give me advice please pray for me also.

 

[Criada]

Oh sweetie, I am so sorry things are so tough.
You know, it isn't anything to be ashamed of... too many people think we have to be perfect before we can witness, and it just isn't true.
The fact that you have problems, but you are dealing with them, and loving God, is a wonderful witness in itself.
I don't know your parents or your situation... but I have been where you are, and I also have a 15 year old daughter who has a close friend who cuts... so perhaps I can offer a little advice.
As a parent, I would want to know and to support my daughter if she were in your position. If you have a good relationship with your mother, I would tell her. If they know you are trying to stop, I don't think they would send you to an inpatient unit.

But, one very important thing you don't mention is why you are cutting. It is often a symptom of something that may need to be dealt with. It would be worth seeing if your doctor could refer you to someone who can help you sort out the emotions behind the cutting. Because, you can stop, but if the issues that caused it are still there, it could come back later.

I know it's very scary, sweetie... but you can get through this
I am praying, and if you want to talk, PM me any time, or catch me on msn. (the address is in my profile)
God bless you , sweetie. Remember, He is with you and He loves you hugely, and unconditionally. And He has a perfect plan for your life

 

[Jayangel81]

I think you are very brave for not wanting to hide it.

I used to go to work, I was a cashier at the time and one day I was not hiding it, so many people said something it was way too much for me, in fact I had to leave work

I think Criada gave you some advice, as she normally does

Hang in there