Hi,
I'm new. My name is Daniela. I would like to share my story with you and have your feedback.
For about 13 years I belonged to a very strict religion. I was Jehovas Witness. I left it two years ago, because of doubts and the sense of loosing my identity.
When I left it I was 27 years old and felt shame because of my virginity and also felt so lonly, wanted desperatly a boyfriend. But I also was afraid of a
commitment with someone, because I thought that things maybe woulnd't work out like my parent's marriage. So I thought that maybe to have free sex could be a good idea. What a bad idea! I lost my virginity when I was
28 with a man that I hardly know, who treated like a sexual object. I woke up from this like a nightmare. Felt sooo bad. But instead of wait for someone better I clung to a guy who asked me for sex. I wanted him so bad, but not only for sex, also for a relationship. But I used to lie myself saying that I just wanted to play. He didn't treat me right of course and I left him finally. So thank God I knew Sex and Love Addictions Aninomous (SLAA) and discovered my sex and love addiction. Since august I used to email to a sponsor of SLAA
who's helping me a lot with my struggles.
But I feel so sad, so much pain and anger because the rejection I got from many man and also because I realized that there are a lot of man that just look for sex. When I left the religion I was incredible nave and belived every word man told me. So it was very easy for the first guy to get me. But now I see that things aren't so easy outside like I thought.
There are a lot of man with whom I discuss about relationships. They used to tell me that all man are the same, they just think and look for sex every time
they have. They told me that that's the way man is, women are more faithfull than man. I recently chat with someone who left my religion too and told me that if he would single and a married women tempt him to have sex he would do it. I feel so bad hearing that, so much sadness, pain and anger. I still belive in God and the Bible, but also can't understand why God allowed to have many wifes before Jesus came. Are there gentleman outside? My brother is good man, very faithfull to his feelings, are there more man like
him?
I feel lonly, don't have a boyfriend since 14 years old, but don't want to have someone who cheat on me, don't want to suffer... I suffered with this jerks,
don't want to have another one in my life, but God also created me to be in couple, how do I handle then this feelings?
Thanks for hearing me,
Daniela
I'm new. My name is Daniela. I would like to share my story with you and have your feedback.
For about 13 years I belonged to a very strict religion. I was Jehovas Witness. I left it two years ago, because of doubts and the sense of loosing my identity.
When I left it I was 27 years old and felt shame because of my virginity and also felt so lonly, wanted desperatly a boyfriend. But I also was afraid of a
commitment with someone, because I thought that things maybe woulnd't work out like my parent's marriage. So I thought that maybe to have free sex could be a good idea. What a bad idea! I lost my virginity when I was
28 with a man that I hardly know, who treated like a sexual object. I woke up from this like a nightmare. Felt sooo bad. But instead of wait for someone better I clung to a guy who asked me for sex. I wanted him so bad, but not only for sex, also for a relationship. But I used to lie myself saying that I just wanted to play. He didn't treat me right of course and I left him finally. So thank God I knew Sex and Love Addictions Aninomous (SLAA) and discovered my sex and love addiction. Since august I used to email to a sponsor of SLAA
who's helping me a lot with my struggles.
But I feel so sad, so much pain and anger because the rejection I got from many man and also because I realized that there are a lot of man that just look for sex. When I left the religion I was incredible nave and belived every word man told me. So it was very easy for the first guy to get me. But now I see that things aren't so easy outside like I thought.
There are a lot of man with whom I discuss about relationships. They used to tell me that all man are the same, they just think and look for sex every time
they have. They told me that that's the way man is, women are more faithfull than man. I recently chat with someone who left my religion too and told me that if he would single and a married women tempt him to have sex he would do it. I feel so bad hearing that, so much sadness, pain and anger. I still belive in God and the Bible, but also can't understand why God allowed to have many wifes before Jesus came. Are there gentleman outside? My brother is good man, very faithfull to his feelings, are there more man like
him?
I feel lonly, don't have a boyfriend since 14 years old, but don't want to have someone who cheat on me, don't want to suffer... I suffered with this jerks,
don't want to have another one in my life, but God also created me to be in couple, how do I handle then this feelings?
Thanks for hearing me,
Daniela
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