"[You silly Galations! Who bewitched you to believe {that you are rightgeous by following the law, or by faith?}]" <--- Galations
I paraphrased that entire thing, but you get the gist. Truth of the matter is God loves us no matter what. Nothing we can do is good enough for him, so to speak, after all, God of the universe could really care less if we followed laws made by man(i'm more or less talking about the old days, but be sure to follow the law today

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The point is that people that do "good" things in America today, people who "serve" God and look "holy" are not seen rightgeous in God's eyes, nor does he love them more or less. They are considered rightgeous by faith.
Or at least Moses was. Yep, he did great things, yet only out of faith. And that guy who was promised to have a son by God. Then God told him to kill the son. He obeyed. It was out of faith.
The power of man is ghetto compared to God. So faith is all we really need. Everything else will come after that.
Hope that helps, I am just trying to say dont beat yourself up over how hard you tried, God loves you any way, and it is by faith...
If you wouldn't mind, why do you not know God's love? I say know, because to feel God's love is kinda... eh sticky subject. Yes you can feel it, but God doesn't show his love by totally annhiliated our senses with euphoric feelings.
Heck, I'd better remove this tree growing out of my eye before helping others that have mere seeds.