HELP plz Effects from Bipolariness

[ZenbdaGirl]

Hi Yall,
I dont know if this is the place to post this or not and I hope not to offend anyone w this disorder. Now just for yall to know I dont have bipolar but been effected by it.
I lived w my aunt that has bipolar for about 14 yrs before getting married but during those 14 yrs w living w her. It has effected me. In every way. Well see I got into the leadership of my church at a young age which my aunt got jealous of it all. She was mad / mood swings for awhile then she got over it. So after God opened more doors she got more jealous and had more strong mood swings but the after she got over it she tried to create an atmosphere to where I coildnt make any mistakes and learn from them even tho I had others guiding me within the leadership of the church. My aunt took this to an extreme level . Anyways so I would go to church and do the things that I was involved in the ministries I was serving in . So my aunt would act all normal like she does at church but when we got home it was a totally different atmosphere she wouldnt be acting like she would be as if she was a church she would be tearing me dow by telling me that I have a split personality when I dont she would tell me that im not a true christian and that iwould go to well the lake of fire. And more thats damaging to my emtional , mental and spiritual ( faith wise) . She would tear me down also telling me that I lost my anointing and callings. She hurt me soo much that she had apart in this all that now im spiritaully damaged from all that she said to my face . But it gets worse she went off in church running to other elders or leaders and telling them about me which she thinks I am but in real life it isnt like that at all. But she drove me out of Christianity and now I on the vergeis of trying to find another religion ( zen buddhism . But i know the truth is christianity is the true way but she hurt me soo much that i just cant believe it anymore now i dont know if it was the devil using her to attack me spiritually or what.) because of what she did to me. Now my faith is very weaken becuase of what she did and said to my face. I just feel like my spiritual life / faith is damaged to the point where it cant be restored to the point where it wasnt really effecting me. How can i recover from this or will i ever recover from this????
Any good advice???? Help please.

 

[Oaksfan4ever]

I don't know if this will help at all, but here's something that happened to me!!! I used to go to a church (Assembly Of God) & I would go to counseling with the pastor every few weeks about feeling rejected in my family & he gave me wise counsel. I later went to him for counseling & talked to him saying that certain people in the church didn't like me. That went on for a few weeks & he would tell me how that was a lie (which it is) & tell me to think about what everyone's done for me. I went to the Salvation Army also with a friend from church & I loved that. The counseling with the pastor finally came to a point where he kicked me out of the church for good!! A few weeks later also my friend that I went to the Salvation Army with called me & told me that she can't afford to go to the Salvation Army anymore. She taught me how to do some crafts while we were friends. My self esteem was really getting better while I was spending time with her. Since all of this has happened though I just feel like giving up!! I don't have any friends to do anything with & my self esteem is at 1. Hope that helps!!

 

[Loven God]

Don't give up on our faith and what you believe , remember it is her bipolar talking and she has got good at being able to act normal around other when she has to and when she gets home she goes back to her bipolar self .Hang strong and look at our aunt as a person that has bipolar and know that she will do things that are not always right . Satan we use people to destroy our fait so don't let her do it . And if you have to go get some therapy yourself to be able to handle the stress of the effects this has had on your life .

 

[quietpraiyze]

How can i recover from this or will i ever recover from this???? Any good advice???? Help please.

ZenbdaGirl

John 14:6 Jesus saith unto him, I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.

Luk 12:4 And I say unto you my friends, Be not afraid of them that kill the body, and after that have no more that they can do.
Luk 12:5 But I will forewarn you whom ye shall fear: Fear him, which after he hath killed hath power to cast into hell; yea, I say unto you, Fear him.

Psalm 139
　
Going to a different church, working in the ministry, doing different activities, etc. does not take the place of FORGIVENESS. If you haven’t gotten somewhere alone with God and told Him everything you feel in your heart concerning your aunt and then releasing her in forgiveness to the Lord, you really need to do that. There is nothing easy about forgiveness but the pay off is awesome. Forgiving will release much needed healing into your life. You may feel the need to get additional counseling. If so, there’s nothing wrong with that. Just make sure God is your foundation. You can’t have wholeness and peace with unforgiveness. It just doesn’t work like that.

Your aunt’s illness is hers and hers alone. It has nothing to do with you or your Salvation in Christ. When you stand before the Lord, it’s not going to wash with Him that you chose to go and serve some false god because of your aunt. No that will be of your own doing. I read your post and you said a lot about “church” but nothing really about your relationship with Jesus Christ. Perhaps you need to go back to your first love. Maybe you need to sit down with the Word and the Holy Spirit and read the Gospel (Matthew, Mark, Luke, & John) and fall in love with Jesus all over again. I’m talking about going back to when you first got Saved and that love affair you had with Christ. Go back to the simplicity of Christ. Go back to that. Besides Him there is nothing. Jesus Christ isn’t a religion. He’s a revelation and a relationship.

God can do exceedingly, abundantly, above all that we think or ask but we have to do our part as well. I quoted the Scriptures that came to my mind. Please take some time to read Psalm 139. I recommend that you read it out loud. No one knows you better than the Lord. What you’ve been through is not a small thing but it doesn’t have to define or consume your life. God is more than that - trust Him.

I hope something I said has helped you

 

[RuthD]

Even people who don't have bipolar can behave like your aunt does. Doesn't sound like she is getting any therapy. You can't change her or what she has done but that is no reason to give up Christianity. I recomment you go to a Christian Counselor to help you gain your self esteem back. There is help for the abuse you have gone through. It will take some time, it always does, but you will be feeling better again.

 

[Trailltrader]

Hi Yall,
I dont know if this is the place to post this or not and I hope not to offend anyone w this disorder. Now just for yall to know I dont have bipolar but been effected by it.
I lived w my aunt that has bipolar for about 14 yrs before getting married but during those 14 yrs w living w her. It has effected me. In every way. Well see I got into the leadership of my church at a young age which my aunt got jealous of it all. She was mad / mood swings for awhile then she got over it. So after God opened more doors she got more jealous and had more strong mood swings but the after she got over it she tried to create an atmosphere to where I coildnt make any mistakes and learn from them even tho I had others guiding me within the leadership of the church. My aunt took this to an extreme level . Anyways so I would go to church and do the things that I was involved in the ministries I was serving in . So my aunt would act all normal like she does at church but when we got home it was a totally different atmosphere she wouldnt be acting like she would be as if she was a church she would be tearing me dow by telling me that I have a split personality when I dont she would tell me that im not a true christian and that iwould go to well the lake of fire. And more thats damaging to my emtional , mental and spiritual ( faith wise) . She would tear me down also telling me that I lost my anointing and callings. She hurt me soo much that she had apart in this all that now im spiritaully damaged from all that she said to my face . But it gets worse she went off in church running to other elders or leaders and telling them about me which she thinks I am but in real life it isnt like that at all. But she drove me out of Christianity and now I on the vergeis of trying to find another religion ( zen buddhism . But i know the truth is christianity is the true way but she hurt me soo much that i just cant believe it anymore now i dont know if it was the devil using her to attack me spiritually or what.) because of what she did to me. Now my faith is very weaken becuase of what she did and said to my face. I just feel like my spiritual life / faith is damaged to the point where it cant be restored to the point where it wasnt really effecting me. How can i recover from this or will i ever recover from this????
Any good advice???? Help please.

Yes Ma'm- reading between the lines it sounds like satan is using your aunts mental illness to get between you and G-d. Just remember this- only Christianity is where G-d has come down from heaven, and every other religion has humans reaching up. Consider that for a bit- and also remember when satan points out the failures in your past you get to say "Ah, but look at your future in the lake of fire, satan!"

Also, please consider what the Apostle Paul wrote concerning the "thorn in his side"- G-d left that thorn in his side to encourage spiritual growth. I promise you, when this is all over with and you maintain your faith you WILL BE 1000% STRONGER! Faith is like a muscle- the more you use it, the stronger it gets, the stronger it gets the more "resistance training" you'll get!

God Bless You and be with you