I need some help. I have been suffering from ocd, and noises in my heads that are always singing and saying bad things, and i am frankly getting tired of it. Its really bad it makes me cry, sometimes it even gets me to say bad things in my head i feel like i mean but i don't. I am getting sick of myself and I am very close to killing myself. Now usually a born again wouldn't say such a thing. But lately ive been praying and i just feel like its getting worse. I cry about it, pray about it. I am just down and depressed and I am ready to give up on myself. Please if anyone can help. I have been depressed lately alot please if anyone can help. Also My husband and I have been ttc for three yrs now and no luck in conceiving. My sister in law has is having her third child now, and i am very emotional and jealous I just feel bad and awful and I do my sis in law very much like my own sis and I have been very jealous lately. I know its alot but i need help pls. No one knows about this. I cant talk to anyone I am afraid. Now 2 yrs ago i had a real bad ocd and the lord helped with this. I used to touch things multiple times and just waist my whole day doing this. But the lord helped me and i got better. Thanks to him but this is just not leaving me alone. I cant live anymore.