Prayers that you will find faith in the Lord Jesus Christ.
Perhaps consider your conscience and the vastness of God and the the kingdom of God is within:
Luke 17:20-21
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20 And when he was demanded of the Pharisees, when the kingdom of God should come, he answered them and said, The kingdom of God cometh not with observation:
21 Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you.
Consider just trying to live your life as best as you can for others & yourself and thinking whether your conscience can guide you alone or do you believe you need the Lord Jesus Christ to be your savior and guide. Consider the basic commands he gives as stated by St. Paul,
Romans 13:8-11
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8 Owe no man any thing, but to love one another: for he that loveth another hath fulfilled the law.
9 For this, Thou shalt not commit adultery, Thou shalt not kill, Thou shalt not steal, Thou shalt not bear false witness, Thou shalt not covet; and if there be any other commandment, it is briefly comprehended in this saying, namely, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.
10 Love worketh no ill to his neighbour: therefore love is the fulfilling of the law.
11 And that, knowing the time, that now it is high time to awake out of sleep: for now is our salvation nearer than when we believed
Again if you take the approach of the conscience, it is accorded respect as indicated by St. Paul, and it is not for us to judge individuals who are serious & conscientious.
Romans 2:11-16
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11 For there is no respect of persons with God.
12 For as many as have sinned without law shall also perish without law: and as many as have sinned in the law shall be judged by the law;
13 (For not the hearers of the law are just before God, but the doers of the law shall be justified.
14 For when the Gentiles, which have not the law, do by nature the things contained in the law, these, having not the law, are a law unto themselves:
15 Which shew the work of the law written in their hearts, their conscience also bearing witness, and their thoughts the mean while accusing or else excusing one another
16 In the day when God shall judge the secrets of men by Jesus Christ according to my gospel.
Consider that the individual of conscience will be judged fairly by God & some will have redemption but others will not and that this is where uncertainty lies. Collectively, not every individual, since God will determine but until that point we are considered,
Romans 3:23
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23 For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God;
Consider that we can live our lives in a sensible but also serious, non judgemental manner and that our ability to love is clouded & only God is love and we need Him.
John 3:16-21
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16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.
17 For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved.
18 He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.
19 And this is the condemnation, that light is come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil.
20 For every one that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to the light, lest his deeds should be reproved.
21 But he that doeth truth cometh to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest, that they are wrought in God.
I hope that I am worthily speaking of the Gospel to try help another person in my feeble abilities.