Help! Lost Emotions, Depersonalization, Religious OCD

gloriousday2006 said:

Hello,

Please pray for me. I am struggling with emotion numbing. I want to be filled with Christ's love and compassion. I want to be compassionate towards others and do God's will.

I recently went through an extreme bout of religious OCD. Including fears about the unpardonable. It lasted a month with extreme panic attacks, constant fear, and condemnation. I then experienced and episode where it felt like I was out of my body. After then, my emotions have been numb.

I am usually filled with emotion, and empathy. I do not feel like myself. I almost feel shut off from myself. I do not feel as happy, as sad, as loving. I think the same and I want to feel those things. Sometimes I feel like I am just thoughts because they don't connect with my emotions.

I have repented of horrible sin. I want to follow God. I do not want to sin. I want to do God's will. I wish I could go back. I do not feel like myself. I feel like a shell of myself. The emotion numbing is the most scary thing of all.


Please pray that God restores me. That He holds on to me and never let's me go. That all fleshly desires are cast down. That my emotions are restored. That I will be filled with Christ's love and compassion, and that I can share that love and compassion with others. That He will keep my eyes open to Him.

I do not want to be lost. I know every good thing comes from God.

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gloriousday2006 said:

Hello,

Please pray for me. I am struggling with emotion numbing. I want to be filled with Christ's love and compassion. I want to be compassionate towards others and do God's will.

I recently went through an extreme bout of religious OCD. Including fears about the unpardonable. It lasted a month with extreme panic attacks, constant fear, and condemnation. I then experienced and episode where it felt like I was out of my body. After then, my emotions have been numb.

I am usually filled with emotion, and empathy. I do not feel like myself. I almost feel shut off from myself. I do not feel as happy, as sad, as loving. I think the same and I want to feel those things. Sometimes I feel like I am just thoughts because they don't connect with my emotions.

I have repented of horrible sin. I want to follow God. I do not want to sin. I want to do God's will. I wish I could go back. I do not feel like myself. I feel like a shell of myself. The emotion numbing is the most scary thing of all.


Please pray that God restores me. That He holds on to me and never let's me go. That all fleshly desires are cast down. That my emotions are restored. That I will be filled with Christ's love and compassion, and that I can share that love and compassion with others. That He will keep my eyes open to Him.

I do not want to be lost. I know every good thing comes from God.

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gloriousday2006 said:

Thank you so much for your reply. It means more than you know.

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gloriousday2006 said:

Hello,

Please pray for me. I am struggling with emotion numbing. I want to be filled with Christ's love and compassion. I want to be compassionate towards others and do God's will.

I recently went through an extreme bout of religious OCD. Including fears about the unpardonable. It lasted a month with extreme panic attacks, constant fear, and condemnation. I then experienced and episode where it felt like I was out of my body. After then, my emotions have been numb.

I am usually filled with emotion, and empathy. I do not feel like myself. I almost feel shut off from myself. I do not feel as happy, as sad, as loving. I think the same and I want to feel those things. Sometimes I feel like I am just thoughts because they don't connect with my emotions.

I have repented of horrible sin. I want to follow God. I do not want to sin. I want to do God's will. I wish I could go back. I do not feel like myself. I feel like a shell of myself. The emotion numbing is the most scary thing of all.


Please pray that God restores me. That He holds on to me and never let's me go. That all fleshly desires are cast down. That my emotions are restored. That I will be filled with Christ's love and compassion, and that I can share that love and compassion with others. That He will keep my eyes open to Him.

I do not want to be lost. I know every good thing comes from God.

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gloriousday2006 said:

Hello,

Please pray for me. I am struggling with emotion numbing. I want to be filled with Christ's love and compassion. I want to be compassionate towards others and do God's will.

I recently went through an extreme bout of religious OCD. Including fears about the unpardonable. It lasted a month with extreme panic attacks, constant fear, and condemnation. I then experienced and episode where it felt like I was out of my body. After then, my emotions have been numb.

I am usually filled with emotion, and empathy. I do not feel like myself. I almost feel shut off from myself. I do not feel as happy, as sad, as loving. I think the same and I want to feel those things. Sometimes I feel like I am just thoughts because they don't connect with my emotions.

I have repented of horrible sin. I want to follow God. I do not want to sin. I want to do God's will. I wish I could go back. I do not feel like myself. I feel like a shell of myself. The emotion numbing is the most scary thing of all.


Please pray that God restores me. That He holds on to me and never let's me go. That all fleshly desires are cast down. That my emotions are restored. That I will be filled with Christ's love and compassion, and that I can share that love and compassion with others. That He will keep my eyes open to Him.

I do not want to be lost. I know every good thing comes from God.

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gloriousday2006 said:

Hello,

Please pray for me. I am struggling with emotion numbing. I want to be filled with Christ's love and compassion. I want to be compassionate towards others and do God's will.

I recently went through an extreme bout of religious OCD. Including fears about the unpardonable. It lasted a month with extreme panic attacks, constant fear, and condemnation. I then experienced and episode where it felt like I was out of my body. After then, my emotions have been numb.

I am usually filled with emotion, and empathy. I do not feel like myself. I almost feel shut off from myself. I do not feel as happy, as sad, as loving. I think the same and I want to feel those things. Sometimes I feel like I am just thoughts because they don't connect with my emotions.

I have repented of horrible sin. I want to follow God. I do not want to sin. I want to do God's will. I wish I could go back. I do not feel like myself. I feel like a shell of myself. The emotion numbing is the most scary thing of all.


Please pray that God restores me. That He holds on to me and never let's me go. That all fleshly desires are cast down. That my emotions are restored. That I will be filled with Christ's love and compassion, and that I can share that love and compassion with others. That He will keep my eyes open to Him.

I do not want to be lost. I know every good thing comes from God.

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