Help in seporating from long turn restaionship

[FunniCheri]

I've been serving god for awile in my past and slip away and feel like I'm beeing led back to god but I'm going to have a hard time leaving a guy I loved for 8 years. And he insist he don't believe in god and I thought it may channge. Butt it only made me fall worse with his addition to porn cross dressing and now he's on a dateing site.And starting to be very controling ... I can't live like this but I'm haveing a hard time dealing with that I love him dearly but have to leave. help please prayrs and words of incuragement. Thx with all my heart.

 

[FunniCheri]

I get very emotional when I read people r praying for me. That may be a good sign I'm coining back to god. And I thank u all for ur prayers.

 

[mebby02]

Hey there hun awww thats so sad its really hard to leave someone you were dating this long do you guy live together does he live close by? l was in a bad situation my ex bf l broke up with him. He was my first long term bf l was with him for a while he was very abusive and controlling. But l did l broke up with him cried for a while but after a while l felt great you can do this my ex bf started as a nice guy l really cared about him and loved him. And felt happy around him after a few months he started to beat me up and not let me see my friends. He lived with his own grandma and would beat her up. It was horrible l still talk to her every now and then l'm not trying to scare you he might start as controlling and start beating you up. It might lead to that you should get of that situation my ex did the same. He sounds like a horrible guy for your saftey maybe stay at a close friends place for a while so he won't find out where you are. Everything will be ok if you need to talk to someone let me know

God bless you

 

[FunniCheri]

I did get married to a man that i meet in church my first love cuz i was shy to have boyfriends when i was younger thought he was the one buuuut cus we meet in church but he was always getting cranky upset and then started to get verbally abusive to me and every one around him. I cried allot I stayed for 9 years I think. And every day i said god will help cure u. And he said when how. Eventually I had a nervice brake down and stopped serving god and i tried to kill my self. But getting admitted to the psychiatric ward for 3 weeks and a 20 day day program. And staying over at my mom friends place crying but eventually I got over him 2 years later. 2 years later that i meet my new guy I ended up moving in the forth year and I live with him still of 8 years. And he's all ways had girly thoughts dressing up like a lady and stuff.and I said at least he's not my ex yelling and making me feel small. But 3 years ago he started to get controlling I went to a garage sale to sell some stuff and my man was camping and he came home only to say we're r u why arnt u here like u said. And I thought he was coming back the next day. But so what I was making money for us and I'll be home a bit later so I turned off my cell. He ended up texting my friend calling me every name in the bad book. Any ways I don't have them as friends no more and they r mad I can't come over to viset and stuff. So now I'm here aaaagain seeing a therapist in the hospital every week and she may help me get over him I'm scared to leave in away cuz I'm use to beeing with a guy. But I noticed I'm nervice around people and my boss scares me and when I'm on the transit I'm all ways hoping no one bothers be. I studder when I talk some times when I talk. And I think they r telling me I need anxiety disorder meds. But my whole life I now there god and yet I keep back sliding and now I made it worse falling to anxiety disorders do to not being living along and staying in church. Well I have to give me a chance to get back and not slide if at all possible. I need friends but Christians ones more so so i can try and stick to this. I need a good church to. And I thank god it might all end and I'm back and have a second chance. Well I think I top the longest note written lol. Thax again for reading and giving encuragement.

 

[mebby02]

Awww you don't need people like that in my life l went through some horrible problems in my life too after that abusive bf l had l got raped shortly after and was sleeping with so many different guys to ease the pain. Then l felt happy l was getting back at my ex but later on in life l felt horrible. l hurt myself too starting doing drugs and it was a horrible part of my life. Is there any family members you can stay with? just by looking at you your a beautiful girl and seem very nice you don't need to put up with any of that abuse. If you need me at all you can add me to face book at melanie low if you need a friend l will be here for you. l haven't gone to church in a while my husband and l went to bible we both didn't feel comfortable people were smarter then us and didn't feel in place there. If you need me l'm here

 

[Criada]

praying for you, sweetie

 

[FunniCheri]

How do u live now. U all better mind wise. And going strong in god. I need more Christian friends in my city and on FB. But I can't give my full name on here there r still bad people out there lerking around even possibly here. Any ways as I post and do more.I can do the privet mail message thing in here. That might be better. Hugs god bless u in all here. Thx 4 the prayers that nice of u.

 

[mebby02]

Som days are better then other others some days it feel like yesterday it happend everyday l feel grossed out with myself what l have done. I hope god would forgive me .When l got raped he druged me and lied to my friend and her bf at the time that he would take me home and lied and took me to his place l was weak l couldn't get him off me l got really messed up. I couldn't go outside for 3 weeks l spend 9 hours in the hospital there isn't a day goes by l think about it. Anytime l will be there for you just add me to fb Melanie Low usually l don't give personal info you seem like a nice person usually with stories l see on here some don't stick to me but this one really upseted me cause l was in that situation and felt so bad for you l know how it feels to be in that situation.