Help from a former Pro-Domme

[Saul100Paul]

I've had BDSM fantasies from early childhood and have been trapped into it since. It has been a nightmare. Praise God, by his grace he set me free 4 months ago. This has been a huge breakthrough for me but very isolating as no one knows.


God answered my prayers and each time I had a thirst for BDSM when I was down, praying to God filled me with euphoria and this is how I stayed away from this sin, as I was no longer in the mood.





I still have some struggles and unresolved conflicts. I would love to speak to someone with understanding of this. BDSM may be similar to be being gay perhaps, and is a huge part of one's life and having being attracted to what disgusts me, there is damage. I feel that there is no one to talk to online as the Christian community may be unaware or judgmental and anyone into BDSM seems to see it as healthy and a part of one's personality that can't be changed.


Please, please is there a former pro-domme who has been saved by God and renounced thier former life, who may speak to me please? Or does anyone know of one? I would like to speak frankly and candidly not for sexual gratification but to get advice and some support. A pro-domme would know what I will be talking about, in terms of activities, and most probably have an understanding of the drives. I'm now examining the childhood causes and finding it painful and difficult.

This need not take too much time but I believe you are uniquely placed to help a Christian brother. My life is being transformed and there's this huge troubled, secretative area without a single person or resource to help. There's lots for affairs and porn and gay issues.

Please be genuine and sincere and honest as this is a very delicate area. I will be too.

If I can help anyone, please contact me. I will help in any way possible.

Thank you.

 

[blogmehameha]

I hope you are doing well. Have you found someone to talk to yet? I was not in the specifically BDSM area, but my fetish/paraphilia definitely involved femdom stuff. If you still need someone to talk to I would be happy to.

 

[Saul100Paul]

Hi, thanks so much for your message.

I ended up paying to speak to a Christian therapist and poured out every detail of every fantasy and interest and the whole stories of possible causes that occurred in childhood. I ended up writing over 20,000 words to them. Then I prayed it all over and within a week all arousal from it went. I have not being sexually excited by it since. I praise God and am also grateful for the therapy.

That being said, I would still like to talk about it. The thoughts come back to me, though are no longer arousing, and would be keen to hear someone else's experience. Also, I hope to talk about this as much as possible now as in the future, I don't intend to.

Thanks for reaching out.

 

[blogmehameha]

Well that's awesome! Glad to hear you talked to a professional and that it helped. Yeah, we can definitely still chat about it. I'm new here, so should we exchange emails in a private message or how should we do that? (btw, I still need to post four more times after this one before I can use the private message system because I am new. Should happen really soon, though).

 

[Saul100Paul]

Brilliant. I sent you a pm. If you cannot see it, please send me a new one when you are allowed.

 

[blogmehameha]

Brilliant. I sent you a pm. If you cannot see it, please send me a new one when you are allowed.

This should be the last post I need! Then I'll respond to the message.