im new to this comunity, and im new to writing on forums!,
a couple of months ago i realised there was somthing wrong in my life, nothing major and definate that i could point at , but it made me unhappy, almost like constant toothache- certain events would releive the aching ; (going out, partying, buying things) but these feelings of hapiness were shallow and short lived. i felt lost, and like i had no clear direction, i knew in the back of my mind there was somthing more to life than this unhappines, then i remembered a friend from college who was an amazing person- she always asked me to come to church with her but i was too scared- no one in my life is spiritual and has faith- no friends or family- were i live its pretty rare,christianity is looked at as wierdness!
anyway i remembered how unbelievably happy this girl was! full of hope, love, joy and, (what i couldnt decifer) was how forgiving she was.
i decided i wanted to have a go at this, what have i got to lose? so i got in contact with her an we re established a great friendship. she has an amazing passion within her faith, and that translates into an amazing love ans passion of people.
after going to church i felt imensley uplifted- having to fight back tears, i felt that god was talking to me through the talk that was given. ive started to see life from a totally different perspective now, after reading the bible and seing the outlook of people who are believers of god, i feel ive been released from the chains of modern day normality, just because its normal , it doesnt mean its right!
i wonder if i could ask your guys help ?, i still have many struggles, its difficult to be open in my faith when my family are pretty sceptical and think im just going through a "funny phase", friends think its wrong also. i want to be brave and hold my head up high, knowing god has my back! but somtimes the influence of non believers and constant doubt 24 hours a day wears me down to weakness. somtimes i even doubt it myself, and that feels awfull.
how can i gain my knowlege of jesus in a way thats easy to understand? i think some advice of fellow christians will support and inspire me greatly, especially when im vulnerable and need guidance
thanks for listening! hope to hear from you! xx