Headed for disaster.

[Solus Christus]

So this week should've been a happy one for me: I got promoted at my job, and things were going pretty well. Or so I thought.

Over the past few nights I've had horrible dreams/nightmares that keep me from getting any good amount of sleep, and then last night I had probably the worst night of my life thus far. I texted my boyfriend because we hadn't really talked in a couple days, and he started going on about how he's selfish and should be alone because no one loves him and he doesn't have a home. I tried to comfort him, but I think it just made things worse because he started cursing me and acting towards me in a way that he never has before. I told him that I love him, and he'll always have a home with me, but then he said that he won't let me waste my time on him because I'm better than he is. And then he said that his phone was dying, so I didn't get to say anything else.

Needless to say, I was hysterical afterwards. I called one of my best friends and she managed to calm me down a little bit, but I don't know where he is right now, or what's going on, because he wouldn't tell me. I'm worried that he's either going to hurt himself, or leave. And either one of those would kill me. I know that if he really does leave, I am going to have a mental breakdown. I'm not trying to be melodramatic--he means the world to me, and he is my 'other half', which he's even said to me multiple times before, too. I don't know if this was just a fight, but it's freaking me out and I'm in a whole lot of pain right now.

 

[Criada]

I hope you can get in touch with him soon.
It sounds as though he was feeling down and venting... he probably didn't mean what he said.
Praying that you can speak to him soon, and that it reassures you.

 

[Mayflower1]

Sorry about your nightmares. try getting an audio cd or tape of the Bible and listening to it before you go to sleep. I find that has helped me on those sort of nights.

and I'm sorry about your boyfriend. I guess this is just one of those times in a relationship, that you have to just continue and be a good friend to him. The best thing you can do is not to worry, but keep him in your prayers. It does sound like he was venting.

 

[Solus Christus]

I was trying to reassure myself, but he always means what he says, and the other night he was saying that he's gonna leave me. I have abandonment issues, and that almost killed me. I just don't know where his head is at, and I have no way of contacting him or seeing him right now.

 

[Mayflower1]

all things happen for a reason. Seventeen is young. There might be heartbreak involved at times, but God is there with you no matter what happens. He will cause things to work together for the good, because He loves you. (Romans 8:28) Your boyfriend is in our prayers and you are too. Shara

 

[bubblefish]

I hope you get in touch with him soon Hun. How are you doing?

 

[Solus Christus]

I'm doing better. He texted me and apologized yesterday morning, but I haven't gotten to talk to him much besides then. It's still really hard because we're both stressed, and we don't get to see each but maybe once or twice a month, so I'm still feeling lonely and kind of depressed.