He doesn't call

My DH has been gone for 6 weeks. He only calls on Saturdays to ask if I'll be home for him to drop off food for my son and drop off money for "child support". It hurts every time he comes then leaves. He spends about 30 minutes with our three year old then leaves. I have been encouraged by other Christian friends to not contact him at all. No calls, no trying to go where he is. I was pretty needy and clingy the first few weeks and I'm finding it hard to let go and let God take care of things.
Even with the children here with me I feel lonely and rejected.
I suppose if I didn't answer those Sat. AM calls he would go to court for visitation. Should I let the answering machine pick up then call him back? He's been staying at so many places I wouldn't know where to reach him. I'm not sure how to handle this mess...

momoftwocuteboys8 said:

Here's a hug for you. I know how hard it is, I've been going through the same thing. I think that to some degree you need to keep contact with him because you both have a child and you need to discuss the needs of the child, but other then that I wouldn't go out of my way to contact him. You definately need to work out some kind of agreement with him regarding child support and visitation, that's important.
Just keep praying and take everything day by day, it does get better even though it doesn't seem like it will. If you need someone to talk to I'd be willing to chat. God Bless.

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Hi, I wanted to know if you would like to chat, I'm having a real hard time...Thanks for your prayers. I don't see an email to contact you?

He has left numerous times in the past, each time he says he can't live with the house being disorganized, he says I don't care about anything, "I don't want this relationship" "your no wife".He tries to blame me for everything.He has addictions to alcohol and drugs. I must be codependent. I always blame myself after he leaves. He leaves and stays with his mother, his friends, his brother. He has left his clothes! It has been six weeks..He left for 6 months, nine months after we were married! I have let him return everytime.
He was saved last Easter, he really loves the Lord and we were very active in our church. He has not been able to be delivered from his addictions.
When I had our son three years ago my bladder was cut in half during my c-section and I almost lost my life, my life has never been the same since then. I have memory problems and bladder/kidney problems.I have found it more difficult to keep up with daily activities without pain. In addition, our son was diagnosed with Autism last year. I can't do it all. Did I say things to him that were mean, yes. I am now left alone caring for two boys and it takes all the strength I have. I know God can strenghten me.
He is out staying wherever, 3/4 of his paycheck in his pocket, drinking, smoking, having his meals and laundry done by his mother and friends. I can't stand it! I need to get mad. I resent his freedom and caefree existence.
This last time he came here was Thursday, then again Friday, to drop off money and see his son for 30 minutes. I don't see the anger with him anymore, but no attempts to return...
I wan't to have him pay spousal support, the bills are > 2,000.00/month. He just says " You make more than I do" I was an RN before the birth of my son and I now receive SSDI for my injuries because I can't work at my profession with the injuries I have sustained.I am carrying the whole house/bills on my income.He gives me $75.00/week.
Why do I miss him, why do I want him? I thouught this was a covenant I entered into, not just a relationship.Were is the accountability. Is it because I married unequally yoked and he came to the Lord later? I don't even know how to pray for him