Haven't posted in a while

[gracegetsusthere]

Just want to say I am still here and okay. I have been hyperfocused on trying to find a graduate program that I want to be in. That isn't going so well. I am about to just give up.

I've just been a little on the down side and isolating I guess. And dh has been home and demanding of my time. He resents my computer. So mature of him.

Anyway, I am glad this forum is here and when I snap out of it, I will post some more.

Today has been such bad anxiety attacks. I had to break down and take 1/2 klonopin. I hate having to take the "as needed's" It's like a measurement of how sane I am - how infrequently I have to take them. That is kinda stupid isn't it?

 

[youthwalk]

Hi. I hope you feel better soon and I'm sorry you don't feel well with the anxiety attacks and what not.

Father be with gracegetsusthere at this time of her need. Lord, grant her peace in her inner man and the grace to overcome each situation which faces her. Lord strengthen her and uplift her that she will know Your faithfulness. grant her the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness Father and calm her so that she she will no long suffer these attacks. In Jesus' name, Amen.

 

[walshclan]

Hey I'm sorry you are feeling anxiety. Take those "as neededs" and don't rate yourself on how your doing when you take them. God loves you with or without Klonopin!! I hate "as neededs" too because I never think I need them and then when I almost end up in the hospital the pdoc asks me why I didn't take any Risperdal. I say " I didn't think I needed them", duh!! Now he tells me, when this happens take 2, when this happens take a half and so on.

I'm praying for you

Connie

 

[Alive again]

Amen to the prevooius post and I am praying also. Do not give up on a master's program unless you have prayed for wisdom and feel that it is truly GOd closing the door and not the beginning of your isolation and depression.

 

[wonderwaleye]

Dear Gracegetsusthere


I had this same problem with anxiety. After trial with other meds I was given:

Lamictal ( lamotrigine )

It took it away almost immediately. My son has also had the very same experience. I take the generic.

You take it every day, twice a day and you never know your taking it BUT it works.


HOPE THIS HELPS. ALWAYS REMEMBER:





X Even though you can't see him, GOD is there!!! O
( click on the x and drag to the O ) ( then see who is with you ) steven

 

[PrairieGurl]

IT IS SO GREAT TO SEE YOU "BACK" !!!!

I, as Wonderwaleye, was finally given Lamictal. It has made a MAJOR difference in my life. I actually have not had the anxiety since...???? I've only been on it for a couple of months and am truely grateful!!

And take what Walshclan has shared to heart !

With s & s,

Wendy

 

[gracegetsusthere]

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Dang Wendy! 400 posts already? Didn't we come on about the same time? I have like - 26.

I imagine that must be why you sound so much better than you did a month ago.

Remember what you said in a PM about what you think I should do for a living? I am not 100% sure but I think I may have gotten a swift kick from the Lord on that today.

But why would he want someone with my horrendous life to do that for a living? I am not stating the actual job title because I am hoping for a second confirmation from someone who has no idea what we are talking about.

I am really an idiot every time I try to tough it out and not take that klonopin. It does more than remove chest pain. Lots of times when I am **crabby**
and I take it, I will be much better in the morning.

You guys, I am plauged with bipolar depression. When they first told me about this illness and talked about the super highs and feeling wonderful, I thought they were nuts. I never felt like that. They never mentioned the other half. Anyway, that is why I tried Lamictal last month.

12.5 milligrams made me psychotic. Unless I was psychotic already - nah, it made me psychotic.

I was hoping I could try again at another time. But you know, I am really not that bad anymore - just when I am PMS and then i am just as nasty as anyone can get. But could someone please explain why dh won't just clear out of my way for that week? He fights with me, as though that is going to make me snap out of it and be happy again. All it does is make the anger worse and the frustration worse and I start screaming like a lunatic and usually throw things. I used to break things and then finallly after hours of this when he still wouldn't leave me alone I would hit him.

Not proud of that.

Does anyone else get PMS like that? I switched my BCP's and it is better but he still won't leave me alone.

God is trying to teach me inner peace through submission to everything, of course, through the grace of Jesus - who knows how to submit. Ya'll could pray for me on that one. Sometimes I would rather give my dh a few choice words than submit - and usually do. Then I am repenting and apologizing - again.

But that is what a child following the devil would do. And I am not a child and I have decided to follow Christ so I must do as He expects of me.

Well, dh will be home in a few and since we haven't spoken really in 3 days and I feel happier today, I will be available for him to talk. On and on and on and on about his day, and blah, blah, blah - which holds no interest for me whatsoever.

But - I learned a long time ago - when a man shares with you about his JOB - he is really sharing with you about HIMSELF. So LISTEN. It is very important.

Then we will watch Star Trek. And then we will watch All my Children because we are both addicted to it. It has actually been helpful in keeping the peace in the house - because we both like to make fun of the characters, even if we've been fighting, it stops when we watch All My Children.

Still clueless..

Love,
Janice