Have I fallen away?

[dabro]

in 0 I have my life to Jesus. I completely surrendered to Him. In 08 I was struggling with masturbation and I finally just tried to give up. Within minutes of making that choice I was hit with massive anxiety.

All my joy was gone. I started to completely obsesse that I was at Gods Judgment.


In 2010 I was put on meds that helped my anxiety but numbed my conscience.

I still struggled but I never forgot about the Lord. I never dabbled in sex or drugs.


I did however do painkillers a lot. In 2017 I was yanked off of three mg of klonopin. It was almost like everything was going wrong.

Here I am today saying I know I’ve grieved the Holy Sprit. I know I have grieved Him thru pornography and stuff like that.

I don’t feel that joy anymore. I still feel convicted to turn away from sin but some scriptures says you are sealed but others seem to indicate you can lose your salvation.


I’ve been in a very stagnant mode for awhile because I turned away in 08.

I weep almost everyday and tell the Lord that I’m sorry. It wasn’t Hus fault it was mine. But I can’t get over my guilt. I struggle with smoking cigs and I have a hard time resisting lust. Sometime I just want to cut off both my hands.


I don’t know what to do folks.

 

[Tigger45]

Your Father in heaven only wants the best for you. Sounds like you have already started to return to His loving arms. ‘Not’ to minimize your situation we all struggle with our own fallen nature. Keep in mind Christianity is a lifetime of repentance (turning around and having a new focus).

 

[paul1149]

Cutting off your hands won't solve anything, but this will:

And without faith it is impossible to please him, for whoever would draw near to God must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who seek him. -Heb 11.6​

God would be pleased were you to have a positive faith toward Him. Jesus says we can do nothing without Him, and Paul said nothing good dwelled in him save Christ Jesus. So we shouldn't be surprised if we are totally bankrupt without His strength.

1Jn 1.9 says if we confess we will be forgiven. And not only forgiven, but cleansed as well. Why not dare to take God at His word, accept the mercy and grace, And ask with confidence to be filled again with the Holy Spirit (see Heb 4.16)? Those who are forgiven much love much. In this way, God can draw us close to Him and turn our failings into pluses (Romans 8.28).

 

[SavedNoCompromise]

First and foremost PLEASE DO NOT CONDEMN YOURSELF! The devil loves to lure people into sin and then immediately traps them in self-pity and condemnation for what they've done (under his demonic influence).

We cannot defeat sin (which means to miss the mark) in our OWN strength. Ask God for the Holy Spirit. To reside in you, ask God for a refreshed filling of the Holy Spirit's power. Have you been baptized in the Holy Spirit? Ask for that as well!! Believe God for access to defeat the kingdom of darkness.

You can get delivered from the spirit of anxiety (I did) and the spirit of masturbation (my best friend did). These are spirits that come from the umbrella spirits of fear and lust/sexual perversion respectively. When we begin to learn and understand who is causing the sin, how to hate the sin, then we can be delivered from it. Masturbation ROBS us from true intimacy with the opposite sex. It is a form of perversion because the devil causes the person to get pleasure from the person of the same sex who is trying to please their own self.

I'm sending you a big hug full of God's love and I'm letting you know Jesus CAN deliver you. Some people need layers of deliverance but Jesus is so powerful He can touch you with deliverance right there. Here are some resources to read:

(1) Get and read the Sexual Deliverance Manual by Gene Moody - might even find it online free at demonbuster.com
(2) Win Worley was a Pastor who was all about deliverance from these demons: here is a link hbcdelivers.org/renunciation-of-sexual-sins
(3) Pray pray pray the Word! Get rid of sexual sensual music that could introduce those concepts into your subconscious, watch what you watch, mind what you listen to and read....clean up what your eyes see, ears hear, and mouth says.
(4) Read Identifying and Breaking Curses by John Eckhardt
(5) Link against the spirit of fear www.demonbuster.com/anxiety.html
(6) Youtube video on OVercoming the Spirit of Fear (anxiety is included in this umbrella):

(7) Email Pastor Mike - pastormikeanswers@gmail.com and get personal prayer and deliverance. free because salvation is free. The cost already was paid by the blood of Jesus Christ.

It's a type of fear to worry about what you are in danger of losing. As long as you are still here breathing God's grace is sufficient for a renewed relationship with Him. we know satan is a robber and a thief. Don't let him destroy your joy and peace. You focus on what you can GAIN from Christ because He wants to GIVE us Himself not take himself away. Think of pursuing God as gaining and you will seek without the hindrance of fear.

 

[com7fy8]

Those who are forgiven much love much.

amen

 

[NBB]

in 0 I have my life to Jesus. I completely surrendered to Him. In 08 I was struggling with masturbation and I finally just tried to give up. Within minutes of making that choice I was hit with massive anxiety.

All my joy was gone. I started to completely obsesse that I was at Gods Judgment.


In 2010 I was put on meds that helped my anxiety but numbed my conscience.

I still struggled but I never forgot about the Lord. I never dabbled in sex or drugs.


I did however do painkillers a lot. In 2017 I was yanked off of three mg of klonopin. It was almost like everything was going wrong.

Here I am today saying I know I’ve grieved the Holy Sprit. I know I have grieved Him thru pornography and stuff like that.

I don’t feel that joy anymore. I still feel convicted to turn away from sin but some scriptures says you are sealed but others seem to indicate you can lose your salvation.


I’ve been in a very stagnant mode for awhile because I turned away in 08.

I weep almost everyday and tell the Lord that I’m sorry. It wasn’t Hus fault it was mine. But I can’t get over my guilt. I struggle with smoking cigs and I have a hard time resisting lust. Sometime I just want to cut off both my hands.


I don’t know what to do folks.

Just ask for forgiveness every time you sin, and pray to God until he helps you, pray to him to help you until he does something, prayer is key i think, you must pray insisting until God helps you. I'm doing just that, and i have problems but i see God is helping me, it works.

Sometimes we can't help it, and we behave not in a way that pleases God, but if we want to get better, God understands we are weak and he can help.

Klonopin? they still give that to people?, i was on that drug, and to quit if you took it for months or years is hell with the abstinence syndrome. It is really addictive. Also it affects your brain negatively. If i were you i would speak to your doctor about quitting that thing if you not already did.

 

[dabro]

I’ve been off klonopin for almost a year. I was just taking a nap and my dreams have been a lot better lately.


For years I’ve struggled with massive nightmares. And I have asked God to help me in all areas. To my lust sin to drug temptation and also my nightmares.

I think I’m really seeing a breakthrough.


Praise You Righteous Father!