I am a dude in his 30s, but I have the interests of a twelve-year-old kid, and even then a lot of the shows and stuff I like are considered "girly". I personally just like the stuff because I like things that are cute; I'm perfectly straight and I don't identify as a woman or any of that stuff. I just like stuff like that because it's happy and cheerful, and I need something happy in my life. I like Minecraft and funny videos and being silly and making people laugh. In short, I'm basically a big kid.
The problem is, everyone around me grew up, while I'm stuck here bored as people talk about boring grownup things that I literally couldn't care less about. I get that responsibility is important, but are these people so dull that they must spend their free time discussing things like computer stats or vehicle maintenance?
I get people have their passions, but nobody seems to share mine, and I have no idea how to find anybody who does. I get along better with women, and I know there are lots of young-at-heart women my age out there who would love cutesy, silly stuff like I do, but it's hard to find any. I don't even know where to look. And I'm not talking about dating; while I would like to find a nice girl to marry, I'm quite content with just making some good friends. And I don't even know how to do that, or where to go. My community is a dry well in that regard; I thought I could try and make friends online, but I don't know where to go to meet people like me.
And as for the folks telling me I should just "grow up"... that's not an option. For one, I see no reason that adult responsibility should require loss of childhood wonder. And for second, I struggle with thoughts of ending my own life commonly because of depression, and I can think of no more depressing thought than the idea that I must leave the joy of childhood behind for the drudgery of adulthood.
I'm kinda just ranting here, but if there's anybody who knows any sites or ideas to find grown-up kids like me, let me know. Also, I'm really bad at making friends, but if you are an adult (preferably a girl, I don't get as nervous around girls) and you like Minecraft, Monster High, PreCure, Winx Club, MLP:FiM (I don't have to explain the abbreviation if you like the show), Miraculous, or classic Disney animated movies, I would be willing to give a few written conversations a try and see if maybe I could overcome my social anxiety enough to make a friend or two.
Worst that can happen is a bunch of sanctimonious people could tell me to grow up and the admins ban me for soliciting or something like that. I'm cripplingly depressed and lonely anyhow. I've learned to be very cynical of this site, and I'm aware what I'm saying sounds creepy and weird, but what the heck. Maybe one person with a common mind will respond, or at least someone may direct me to some site where I can find that. Whatever. Worth the shot, I suppose.
(Also, if I turn you down, please don't take offense. I have issues, and I know when I'm not compatible with someone. Yes, I'm being a choosing beggar. But when you need Vitamin C, a steak won't help, to use a metaphor.)