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[sahjimira]

That's what I'll b having tomorrow. I'm being sarcastic. Quit smoking tomorrow, have the patches and nicotine gum. Maybe won't b as bad as Ithink. Also going to pdoc who is actually an Arnp. My GP said I need to b seeing psychiatrist. Well anyway I'm seeing the Arnp wwhich is good because Ifeel ddepression creeping in. I've had some physical problems, been on pain meds that might b part of it. I'm so tired which ofcourse could b the meds or depression. Oh boy..well see what tomorrow brings. I'm tired and want to just sleep but want to stay up and smoke cause it'll b my last since quitting tomorrow. That is crazy. I know not ssmoking will remove a spiritual sin for me and open me up to God more. That's what my focus should be. I'm so tired of depressiom. I hate it. Was nice and mildly manic yesterday but crashed today. Such is life. Will just keep keepin on. Maybe bipolar is my thorne in the flesh and Gods grace is sufficient for me. See what if any changes I'll have with my meds. God love you all

 

[sahjimira]

Quit smoking for half a day! Did try the patch and gum
Think it'll work
Just need to get serious about it

 

[zippy2]

Quit smoking for half a day! Did try the patch and gum
Think it'll work
Just need to get serious about it

How did your visit with the surgeon go?
Wow I quit smoking for 6 years and then when my Dad got sick I started back. I don't smoke but occasionally now. Wish I could quit too....but no that is not true, We are expected to say that aren't we? It is a crutch for me and yes a small sin. God knows I could do worse and I think He understands at least for now.
I wish you well in quitting and will pray for you sis.

 

[sahjimira]

Two ruptured discs neuroSURGEON wants to operate. I'm looking at physical therapy and other options. Thanks for asking.. Your sis in Christ. Sahj

 

[sahjimira]

Fell depressed today following two days of mild mania. Need surgery in discs. Oh boy..will have it done in the near future or whenever doc says.

 

[zippy2]

Fell depressed today following two days of mild mania. Need surgery in discs. Oh boy..will have it done in the near future or whenever doc says.

So sorry sahji. I know that scares you and it would me too. Give it to God is my only advice at this point. I will be praying for you. When is the surgery, do you know yet?

 

[Odetta]

Praying for you.

 

[sahjimira]

Thank u all for your prayers and concern. Putting surgery off. See how physical therapy goes. The physical therapist told me about an operation she had which is basically what I would need. Nearest doc to do it is 70 miles away. But hey, if it works its worth it. He replaces the bad discs somehow where no fusion is involved. I've never heard anything good about fusion, so this could b an alternative...if he takes medicare!!!,

 

[zippy2]

I think that is a good plan, sis. Thank the Lord we both got alternatives to surgery! He is ABLE! amen!