I just wanted to gain assurance that what I'm going through at the moment is completely normal. I came to faith in November after a profound experience of God. Christ came to me in a dream and spoke to me. After having received Jesus as my Savior several weeks later, and Him having spoken to me since then, I now feel distraught to some extent that I'm in the position now that I'm NOT rushing out to tell everyone about Him (although before I was eager to write and tell all of my close friends, which I did), the joy I felt has vanished, I don't feel blessed that He revealed Himself to me and I feel fed up. Prayer has become repetitive and dull.
He has clearly responded to some of my prayers, and He has freed me from the influence that alcohol was exerting over my life. He clearly spoke to me through another new Christian recently. I just feel so far from Him at the moment. I'm also starting to be very critical of my behavior; seeing myself as God sees me means I know I am utterly despicable (even though He loves me!). How do I regain the joy that I felt when I first met with Him?
He has clearly responded to some of my prayers, and He has freed me from the influence that alcohol was exerting over my life. He clearly spoke to me through another new Christian recently. I just feel so far from Him at the moment. I'm also starting to be very critical of my behavior; seeing myself as God sees me means I know I am utterly despicable (even though He loves me!). How do I regain the joy that I felt when I first met with Him?