Hi im new here
Im so confused and agitated right now...
I was in hospital not so long ago cos of ana, and God miraculously healed me, I could eat normally again and Ive had no problem with it...up till now...
I dont really understand where its come from, I mean (as far as I can tell) theres been nothing to trigger it, though I dont think Ive worked through the issues behind the ED, but I dont have a clue how to do that! I really really dont want to go back to psychiatrist, perfectly nice people and that but didnt help, health service over here is so under budgeted they dont have time # proper therapy, besides I would feel like I 'failed'.
I dont know how to deal with my feelings... since I was young ive had some type of 'coping mechanism' and I dont know what alternative there is! I supress my feelings a lot, and I know all the suggestions like writing it down etc but Im so busy and/or tired all the time (non related stuff that I cant help) I dont have the energy or the means.
I feel like Im just doing everything wrong... even though I try to fight the urge not to eat etc and ask God for help I still feel like im losing it... I talk about things with people I care about, and though it does help abit at the time it doesnt last, and it doesnt solve anything...
I dont want to go back down the ana route (though part of me does), but I feel like I dont have control over it
any suggestions?
God bless ^^
Im so confused and agitated right now...
I was in hospital not so long ago cos of ana, and God miraculously healed me, I could eat normally again and Ive had no problem with it...up till now...
I dont really understand where its come from, I mean (as far as I can tell) theres been nothing to trigger it, though I dont think Ive worked through the issues behind the ED, but I dont have a clue how to do that! I really really dont want to go back to psychiatrist, perfectly nice people and that but didnt help, health service over here is so under budgeted they dont have time # proper therapy, besides I would feel like I 'failed'.
I dont know how to deal with my feelings... since I was young ive had some type of 'coping mechanism' and I dont know what alternative there is! I supress my feelings a lot, and I know all the suggestions like writing it down etc but Im so busy and/or tired all the time (non related stuff that I cant help) I dont have the energy or the means.
I feel like Im just doing everything wrong... even though I try to fight the urge not to eat etc and ask God for help I still feel like im losing it... I talk about things with people I care about, and though it does help abit at the time it doesnt last, and it doesnt solve anything...
I dont want to go back down the ana route (though part of me does), but I feel like I dont have control over it
any suggestions?
God bless ^^